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[Tyler Robinson]

I imagine the priest Symmachus saying a lot of sexy things to me. It's a part of my sexual fetish that a man would constantly say sexy things to arouse me. 

 

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Then he sits with me and begins to fondle my breasts. 

 

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I'm imagining Symmachus touching my breasts

 

 

 

 

 

 

This whole porn thing ruins my fantasy completely. No way. Not again. Never going to watch porn. It completely changes the meaning of sex. Gross 

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Masturbation is okay. Porn is not okay. Porn is for weak men.. Porn is basically the bastardization of sex. It's gross. 

Healthy sex/masturbation is dominating a woman and not whorification of women. 

Porn completely changes the meaning of sex and makes it repelling. 

I just watched some porn and I'm grossed out. It actually removed my desire for sex and cheapened it. Eww.. Just gross

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Officially no porn 

 

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I'm imagining Symmachus touching my breasts

He sits next to me. Then he slowly begins to touch my shoulder, then proceeds to touch my arm. Then his hands tickling my breasts. I'm not naked so his hands are playing with my bra. 

His fingers want to feel my tits. And he finds them anyway. 

I bow my head low in shame and shyness.. I begin to blush as his fingers cavort with my breasts 

 

He just doesn't want to get his hands off. I think he likes my tits. 

I don't have big tits. Such a pity. 

I wish I had really big tits. 

My breasts look like that. 

 

 

 

Edited November 25, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

Symmachus says a lot of naughty things to me. 

— "your breasts are tempting me." 

— "you like it? You want it?" 

 

What does he call me? 

He calls me Milly. 

And he affectionately calls me Dummy. 

 

 

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I imagine a fantasy in my head. Like a story that is well done and creative and very erotic but also kinda emotional and intimate. And then I masturbate to it. I like the idea of a man caring for me during sex like kissing. I don't like dry mundane mechanical sex like they show in porn. I can never be stimulated by that. 

For me sex is connection to the deep feminine and impregnating the womb by the sperm. So both have a lot of value. That's why I place a ton of value on dominant men because they offer something nobody can. They actually satisfactorily turn on not just the vagina but they stimulate the womb, they make a woman want to be a mother. They make a woman want to respect a man's authority and ability. They combine feminine and masculine in a beautiful sensual dance and don't degrade it to mere sexual activity or jerking off. That's why I never like using objects like a vibrator because those are similar to drinking apple flavored drink than real apple juice. Even animals don't do it. Animals mate in a loving way where they obviously engage in sex but they make it a dance, a bonding dom sub chemistry and they turn the sexual chemistry into a fulfilling mating act. Honestly sex needs to be animalistic in the sense the complete gratification of one another to the extreme but with a lingering chemistry that makes it want to do more with the same partner. This is an art and needs tons of imagination, art and creativity and a dose of intimacy. Well i'm quite gifted with the ability of imagination since I was a kid so I put it to good use. How we imagine sex pretty much sums up if sex is going to be used as an exhausting boring instant gratifying act or if it's going to be used to bolster the chemistry and make it a fuel to motivate life. 

Edited November 25, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

Symmachus says a lot of naughty things to me. 

— "your breasts are tempting me." 

— "you like it? You want it?" 

 

He gently strokes my hair. And then goes back to touching my breasts. 

 

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Ronnie was the mafia boss. 

 

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This gif completely describes all of my emotions perfectly lol 

 

 

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Guys are so insecure. 

 

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There's nothing like bad guy good guy for a woman. All are same to a woman. A woman is only looking for her survival agenda and just a faithful guy who will be committed to her for life. That's her greatest feminine desire. Men like to create differentiations like bad guy good guy to position themselves higher. To look better by scapegoating another man. 

The idea that only fuckboys/assholes/bad boys have commitment  issues is such a huge myth. I'll tell you a truth about male psychology that you perhaps don't want to hear because it makes men look bad. But knowing this truth about male psyche will lead you to salvation 

Every single man on planet earth has commitment issues. Literally. It's just a part of male psyche.

It's a huge myth to think that getting the most perfect woman in the world will somehow make you happy and you'll live a fairytale life with her. Never. Even the most perfect woman can't satisfy you because after 2 months of having sex you'll lose interest in her. The truth about  male psyche is that they never attracted to the same woman long term 

Such a discussion on women's virtues is pointless and futile because it doesn't address.. 

 

Blaming shaming a woman gives you a temporary outlet for why you feel bad and dissatisfied about your dating life but doesn't address the underlying reason behind male dissatisfaction. 

Your dissatisfaction should not be with women but rather with your own self. When you can't fix that, you can't fix anything else either. 

I'm giving you age old wisdom after having tested men. Just  yesterday my ex boyfriend apologized to me for leaving me for another woman and called me his perfect girlfriend. If I was perfect, then why wasn't I enough? Because nothing is ever enough to a man and this applies to all men. They get bored like children. 

Your whole idea about dating woman is an illusion in itself and based on many myths that men continue to believe. 

Every man creates this fantasy 

Why did he still cheat on me even though he considered me perfect? Because like I said almost all men have commitment issues and that's 

The truth is that you'll never be satisfied with a woman no matter how virtuous she is in your eyes. Because after a few months you'll automatically lose interest in her without reason. And you'll wonder why, you might even find ways to place blame on her, when in reality it's only your own fault and nobody else's. 

Men themselves sabotage 99% of their own relationships, nobody else does. Either men dump and abandon their girlfriends after they are bored with her or if they are too coward to dump then they find a way to hurt/sabotage the relationship in such a way that the woman gets fed up and is forced to dump them. 

What tells me this — my own bloody experience. 

 

Men think that rejection hits them  hard. But they don't realize how dumping hits women. Dumping hurts women much worse than rejection hurts men. Men dump and abandon all the time. The only reason they don't initiate a divorce is because they have to lose a lot of money in a divorce. So they don't want to risk a divorce. 

Men are never impressed with a woman no matter what the woman does because men are intrinsically very judgemental and cannot escape their own 

Men claim that they are emotional and indeed they are. I'm not denying that men are emotional. But there's a problem. A man's emotion is like high tide and low tide. It comes and goes with seasons. Seasons change and reasons change and men forget the woman they once loved to death. Then she is a past memory. 

Men are like children. They like something like a video game. Then they are bored of it one day. How the woman is, how virtuous or noble a woman is, it's practically irrelevant to a man if he lost interest, in the end they don't give a damn about what or who a woman is. She was only his temporary pursuit anyway. Most men build castles in the air and believe in this fantasy illusion that they will find a perfect woman and they will create a perfect life with her. This illusion breaks one day and men are confused and confronted with the reality of finding another woman attractive and losing attraction for the woman they once thought of as perfect. Every guy, good guy or bad guy, does this. Advice to women — never take a man's words seriously, not even his actions. 

It's a sad bitter truth that men find difficult to deal with because it heavily conflicts with their illusion of a perfect world with a woman. So they love to live in illusions. 

The final solution to this is to not externalize blame anymore, do soul searching and learn to point the finger inwards. Grow as a man into an ideal man and heal your commitment issues and then build relationships with women. The woman you wanted always existed. Once you find her you'll be able to live in peace with her. But first heal yourself as a man to be truly  happy with women. And all this nonsense talk about women is mere blame game and distraction from actual work. 

Contemplate deeply on whatever I wrote.

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Pure love 

 

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I think I might have made some progress. 

From sexual fantasy to romantic fantasy.. 

 

My romantic fantasy is - yea that makes sense. 

Tarsis is the name of my female character. 

And Manny is the name of the male character I'm in love with. 

I used to think that romance is fickle. 

But who knows huh!!! 

 

Edited November 29, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

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So whatever I'm reading from the web, I'm getting interested in this. 

I'll call it Masturbationology. 

When you feel orgasm approaching, squeeze the end of your penis where the head joins the shaft. Maintain that squeeze for a few seconds while the urge to ejaculate passes. Repeat as necessary. With your fingers, apply pressure to your perineum. 

Semen retention can be achieved through abstinence, edging, or retrograde ejaculation.

No evidence suggests blocking sperm can cause harm or negative side effects. Unejaculated sperm is not harmful to the body and does not build up. The body reabsorbs sperm that does not leave through ejaculation. This has no side effects on sex drive or fertility.

@integral

 

ok so, I invented the term Spermate as a verb and not as a noun. So it means producing sperm but no ejaculation. I guess that's like semen retention right? 

So if a guy isn't ejaculating I'll say he is spermating, that is he is trying to retain his sperm. 

But wait a minute... There's problems sometimes with retaining sperm. 

Reading from the web-

For some, it might be painful or uncomfortable to abstain from ejaculation or lead to epididymal hypertension (also known as “blue balls”), which is a mild condition in which the testicles ache from arousal without orgasm.

                             

 

Taken from the web - 

Throughout history, men have always sought out new ways to improve their overall health. One technique that has been used since ancient times is semen retention, which is the practice of intentionally abstaining from ejaculation. Semen retention, which has been documented in many cultures, has been associated with both physical and mental wellness. One well-known example is tantric sex, which encourages men to abstain from ejaculation in order to connect with their partner on a deeply intimate level and experience a more profound sense of pleasure.

 

While many modern practitioners believe that semen retention leads to a number of health benefits, there is very little scientific evidence to confirm the veracity of these claims. That being said, intentional abstinence from ejaculation doesn’t seem to cause any health problems either. As such, the advantages of semen retention are really determined by how the patient feels.

                     

 

Reasons Men Try Semen Retention
The reasons men try semen retention vary widely depending on the individual, but generally come down to improved physical health, mental health, or spiritual health. Some of the purported benefits include:

Reduced stress

Improved motivation

Improved confidence and self-esteem

A higher level of self-control

Better concentration

More energy

More happiness

Better relationships

Increased stamina

The ability to have multiple orgasms

Some also believe that semen retention can boost fertility by improving sperm quality or raising testosterone levels, which would also explain an increase in energy or improved mood. Although there is some evidence that there is a positive relationship between semen retention and testosterone levels, most of the supposed health benefits of semen retention have not been fully studied in a scientific manner.

 

In a traditional ejaculation, sperm is created in the testes and travels through the vas deferens, where it mixes with seminal fluid. The semen then travels through the urethra and out the penis. With semen retention, this process is disrupted. Just like with a vasectomy, which stops the sperm from finishing the journey, the unused sperm breaks down and is reabsorbed into the body.

 

@integral it looks like that. 

 

 

 

Edited November 30, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                  

 

On 10/18/2022 at 4:55 PM, Tyler Robinson said:

 

A couple of pointers - 

 

✸ most men who empathize with rape victims are just white knights. If you truly cared about rape then you would rethink how you view women and their issues. 

You would not on one hand say that rape is a serious issue and on the other hand also want women to go out and work and provide for themselves knowing that the work environment is not entirely safe for women. 

Where do working women most often get raped - workplace 

When do they get raped most often - graveyard shifts 

You would not support prostitution and porn. 

What's the biggest subset of women who are raped - prostitutes and porn stars and drug addicts poor women 

So spare the online white-knightery. Easy to show fake empathy to rape victims. 

 

 

If you genuinely empathized with rape, then you would focus more on preventing the following - 

               ◉ Poverty in the female demograph

               ◉  drug addiction among women 

                 ◉ Child abuse in female minors 

                ◉  income inequality - better income for women 

                 ◉ (ending) prostitution and porn 

               ◉ modern trends of discouraging  men to be providers 

 

✸ Not every woman is raped by some deranged serial killer like the Toybox Killers. That's cherry picking. Most rapes aren't as severe 

 

✸Most rapes do not involve violence 

✸ most rapes are committed by someone who the woman is familiar with - a friend, a coworker, a friend of friend, a boyfriend, a romantic interest, a husband, an uncle, a dad. This usually reduces the severity of the rape. 

✸ if rape was a severe crime with severe trauma, then the victims of Harvey Weinstein wouldn't have happily continued working with him 

✸ Rape is severe (extremely) if it's a gang rape, when violence is involved, when it happens to a child or during childhood etc. 

✸ most rapes are just coerced sex. 

 

 

Edited November 30, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

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I have to say that the male hormone testosterone is one damn hormone.

If a man is very masculine and full of it, he automatically releases those pheromones whereby he appears very attractive to a hormonal female 

And that's what happens to me 

(Now I'm not talking about biker gang shit here )

When I see masculine men(not body building type lol, they are fake and ostentatious, I get put off by that ) but the masculine men who are caring, authoritarian, protective and appear to be in charge of themselves appear extremely extremely extremely attractive even if they don't have masculine bodies , that's fine with me.

But my horniness reaches a peak when I see a punky guy being extremely self confident .

It's a signal that he is well aware of who he is

 

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many men believe that women are attracted to men in the same way that men are attracted to women. So, they try to improve themselves and put on a facade because they believe women are attracted to attractive traits and not whole entire people, because men are attracted to attractive traits as opposed to the whole person, at least initially. In the initial stages of attraction, to a woman a man is more than the sum of his parts. In the initial stages of attraction, to a man a woman is exactly the sum of her parts. So, when a woman is unattracted to them or rejects them the first thought is "What's wrong with me?" "For what REASON doesn't she like me?" "How do I make it so that she is attracted to me?" But there is no reason there because it's a completely emotionally based thing... and quite random. It like bubbles up from the subconscious mind at the onset of the attraction.

 

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