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[Tyler Robinson]

 

             

 

What should I call you my love.... Let me think of a thousand names, the only thing I can think of when I think of you is love because that's who you are. 

I'm blessed, nothing is more beautiful than being with you. May you have a wonderful day and life, secure and safe, wherever you are and wherever you go, my love for you be pure, unselfish, giving, fond and  true, fixed on loving and serving you. 

 

                    

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

       

                       

 

All these feelings

I just can't hide.

Nobody is as special as you are to me.

I hope you are beginning to see

Just how much I care for you,

And all my feelings

will always be true.

I can't describe

how much I care,

But when you need me, I'll be there

To wipe those tears

when you are sad,

To make you happy

when you are mad.

I wrote your name in the sky. 

But the wind blew it away. 

I wrote your name in the sand. 

But the waves washed it away. 

I wrote your name in my heart 

 

And forever it will stay. 

               

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                   

 

(chuckles wildly) 

When I'm with you, I feel like I'm sleepwalking 

When I'm with you, I feel like I'm tripping 

When I'm with you, I could forget my car keys 

When I'm with you, I'm in a different world 

When I'm with you, I'm in an alternate state of consciousness 

When I'm with you, I'm imagining the back seat of a car 

When I'm with you, I feel like I'm walking into the forest 

When I'm with you, I feel like I am daydreaming at night. 

                

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                        

 

Come hither. 

Maybe something has caught up with me 

Is it you? 

I can barely see you 

There is mist between us. Then you touch me. With your golden hands. You slowly disrobe me 

So delicately 

But your hands are two animals that push the mist aside and touch me 

Who was I before? 

I don't remember. 

Nor do I want to 

Remember a time without you. 

 

Where was I before? 

I don't remember 

I just knew 

When I found you 

I had come home 

                            

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

                  

 

It is so easy for me to love you 

It is so hard for me to love myself 

It is so easy for me to love you

It is so hard for me to love myself 

I have never wanted anything so much as 

Lay beside you every waking minute 

And every night while I sleep 

I think of you in the middle of stars 

The question is not 

How do I love you? 

The question is 

How would I ever stop? 

 

               

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

                      

 

We would be so happy flirting under the midnight stars. 

We would be gazing into each other's eyes 

That moment my heart wishes to capture 

There is beauty in your eyes and rapture 

When I saw you first, it took every ounce of me stop myself from wanting you 

When I saw you look into my eyes, it took every ounce of me to not fall in love 

Yet, I fell, this sweet sensation. 

I went along with it, not knowing how I slipped 

This is what I wanted, this is what I wanted. 

I spent my days looking for you 

In every face in the crowd 

My heart sank and that's when I found 

You staring at me through the million faces 

As you captured my heart with your gaze

                     

 

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                  

 

My home is in a different place 

My heart is in a different place 

My heart is not where my body is 

My heart tries to find a place to live 

In this Emptiness, I wonder if I can ever 

Fulfill the yearnings of my soul 

Wandering aimlessly for a home 

When I think about you 

My soul stops wandering 

As though it found its home 

                     

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                         

 

We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, Frozen edge.. We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, those lovely birds were once our name.. Our name..

 

You placed my head on your lap by the side of the graveyard, by the side of the graveyard. 

Our voices choked as our lips softened. 

 

We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, Frozen edge.. We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, those lovely birds were once our name.. Our name..

I was in a drunken haze, beautiful stupor, drunk on your love. 

You held my head in your hands and touched my lips 

The birds were gone and the winds were still

We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, Frozen edge.. We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, those lovely birds were once our name.. Our name..

You attracted my soul, why did you? 

I don't remember what we said to each other 

With you I could stare into every space and only see you 

Why did you love me so much 

Why did you love me so much 

Now my heart doesn't want to leave 

It's happy here in your lap. 

We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, Frozen edge.. We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, those lovely birds were once our name.. Our name.. 

When I'm lying in the grave, my heart will want you to serenade it with you. 

Because I don't want to be gone without you 

We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, Frozen edge.. We also met sometimes on the edge of freezing, those lovely birds were once our name.. Our name.. 

 

                         

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                         

I don't know why I have all these conqueror fantasies but they seem to be stemming from my need to complete myself.. It's like I'm the one half that needs the other half to complete me. My half represents submission and surrender whereas the other half should be about domination and control and passion. When these two meet, I feel like it's fireworks. I only feel relaxed and fully complete when these two sides merge within me sexually and romantically. It's like I'm always looking for the conqueror archetype. Is this a specific female fantasy created through brain wiring or is it unique to me and you have never heard someone have these before. I want the guy I love to fully conquer and own me and make me his till the end of eternity. This romance or thirst to never end. I always wish to be in a state of mystic surrender emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Do you want your other half to be exactly like you or do you want the other half to complete you. Do you feel a natural thirst romantically. Are these fantasies only fantasies or do they exist to serve an internal purpose of spiritual and emotional fulfillment? Or is such fulfillment just a futile passion that's not pursuing/seeking?

I know the questions and the thoughts behind them are very ambiguous yet fantasies themselves are such an ambiguous part of human sexual side, some people would want to die for their fantasies, holding them dear to death whereas some people dismiss them as futile imaginations of a hyper creative mind that would look good only on paper, not in reality, how much of life is real, how much of it mimics art and fiction, too many questions, too few answers. Fantasies represent a mysterious side of human phenomenon.. 

                        

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                  

 

My spirit craves for an entity that is dominating, caring, protective, disciplining and motivating. 

                      

 

I think what I'm doing here is oscillating between feminine love and masculine love. 

Feminine love = caring, sensitive 

Masculine love = tough love, direction, strength, discipline 

So what is the femininity in me looking for? 

It's looking for  a —

"tough love spirit" 

activator spirit 

Motivator spirit 

Leader spirit 

Protector spirit

Disciplining spirit 

Strong spirit 

Provider spirit 

 

And what's the masculinity looking for in me? 

Guide spirit 

Wise spirit 

Caring spirit 

Loyal spirit 

Comforter spirit 

Calm spirit 

 

 

So every spirit needs a complementary spirit to feel complete

 

To create harmony with the inner self, you need to have a complementary spirit. 

                           

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                    

 

So I have invented my own concept of the three selves. 

One is the Unitary self that is you. 

The other is binary self which means the "other" or the self that will complement your unitary self. 

Next is the Dynamic Self or Higher Self which combines traits of both the unitary and the binary and is the highest version of you that you wish to achieve. Here is your maximum potential. 

And last is the Holistic Self which combines the traits of the whole universe. This is God. 

So in life, you try to achieve the Binary Self, the Dynamic/Higher Self and the Holistic Self. 

                         

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

Perverted sex. 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                     

 

Sometimes when I think of a man in terms of desirability, I'm bit confused as to which man is better. 

A good boy or a bad boy? 

Of course, I don't want an abusive asshole. 

The first one - bad boy. 

But there is a strong innate attraction to a cocky, demanding, persuasive, persistent, tough dominant, especially a strong sexual attraction. 

(The second one) 

On the other hand, a guy who is protective, leader type, not demanding, but caring, generous, patient, loving is also equally attractive. Here the attraction towards this kind of a man is more of the love heart type of emotional (less sexual) attraction. 

Both types of attraction are equally tempting. One is sexually tempting and emotionally stimulating. The other is emotionally tempting and sexually stimulating, meaning there is area for creating strong sexual chemistry. 

Both are paradoxical attractions. 

One is good for falling pregnant. And the other is good for husband material. Of course both are going to be good with sex (I might be lying though since option 1 sounds more sexually enticing) 

But the first option only looks good sex wise. It doesn't create long term love feelings. 

The second option looks like it's set for life and very happy and satisfying long term. 

Decisions are split between the heart and the pussy. 

                

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                    

 

 

Sometimes I feel like I just won't be pregnant if a guy doesnt rape me. 

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                    

 

I’m as horny as a teenager waiting for their touch. Engorged and throbbing in readiness. I’ve missed him too much

 

Wanton and greedy for stimulation

Genitals are aching cannot wait for his vibration

I will conceal nothing from him

I’m growing sticky and wet

 

Subjected to many long hours of torture. I've worked myself into a frenzy. With not even masturbation being my friend

 

I need some uncensored love making. Climaxing and shaking

I’ll just fantasize about him penetrating me deeply

His long muscular cock and me being so needy

Yes I have my shortcomings and patience isn’t one.. How about I go over to the neighbours

In twenty minutes I’ll be done. Hehe. 

Just kidding. I need my bf, not neighbor lol. 

                    

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

Deviant sexual fantasies. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Sinful priests. 

 

Edited November 17, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

Flop. 

[Tyler Robinson]

I'm looking into cases of sexual abuses by Catholic priests. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

                          

What I would want to say to my bf though. 

I'm a bit shy sexually. But I've hidden feelings. Feelings of feeling trapped sexually 

What will I say to him -

Come over here. You alluring gentleman. Just teach me anyway you can

How you do sexy time

Will you be my man?

I have the perfect place for your instrument

Yes, touch me there please.

I will kiss your soul. Run my hands all over you. Teach me baby. I haven’t a clue. Intertwine with me. Let’s join forces while joining juices.... Grrr. 

Suck every part of me

Bring me to my knees.yep. I want him to bring me to my knees so he can pat me on the back, you know where. 

         

 

Edited November 18, 2022 by Tyler Robinson