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[Tyler Robinson]

Dialogues between Barkley and Janessa. 

Janessa — can any amount of wisdom in the world change how a mother feels for her child? Can any amount of wisdom in the world stop a mother from loving her child? 

Then how could I stop loving you in this moment Sir. I love you. I'm a woman. I'm a slave to the womanhood in me. My womanhood has fallen in love with you Sir. It needs you. It wants you. The only truth about a woman's feelings is that she wants the love of the man who she is desperately in love with and she needs nothing more. Men fail to understand this truth. That's the only truth men need to know about women. A woman seeks her fulfillment in a man's love, the man who her heart desires. If he gives her all of his love, that's all she ever wants.. 

Women need men. They need your masculine energy. It's like food for them. We women feed on this masculine energy, your seminal fluid. That's our food. That's the seed. Men are givers. Women are takers. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I have lost attraction for Barkley. 

He just doesn't ding ding anymore. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I have never experienced such intense orgasms before. 

Most of my orgasms were mild. 

But these days my orgasms are shorter and more intense. 

I get this strong urge to suck dick or want a man to push it inside me. I get really powerful contractions that don't last long. Hardly 1 minute. I guess my G spot was activated this time. 

These days I'm more focused on G spot based orgasms. And these are very intense like fire. They make my breasts swell and get tighter, firmer. 

They make my pussy kinda open up a little wider on its own involuntarily. 

And then I squirt and it immediately pacifies the inner thunderous fire and then it's gone, like vanishes in no time. 

I can't make it last longer. It's not that enjoyable to be fair, just a strange strong craving wanting like I'm on drugs. 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I didn't feel horny today 

I don't know... 

Maybe post cum clarity period!!!! 

I'm surprised my body is acting this way 

 

 

Just another observation of how my body reacts. 

This is good. I get to keep a tab on my sexual patterns. 

I didn't know I would get tired of masturbating so quickly. 

There's no urge right now. 

Maybe these are oxytocin flare ups. 

Estrogen progesterone I don't know. 

Will I get sick of sex at some point? 

Will all the hunger go away? 

Could be. 

I was a horny toad a few days ago. 

I almost masturbated myself to exhaustion. 

These masturbations gave me insights into the subject of male female attraction.. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

What happened to me. Maybe a lull period 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Maybe I'll stop looking at men in an affectionate manner. 

Was this entirely about post cum clarity? 

On a much bigger level than how men experience it 

 

I have often had periods in relationships where I lost interest in the guy over time although I was still loyal to him. But then... What happens happens... You cannot sustain attraction forever. 

That's why attraction is fundamentally fickle. 

That's not the same as a mother's love for her child. 

She won't lose her love for her child even over a lifetime. 

But the same cannot be said about how she would feel for her husband. 

This could be the reason why a lot of women tend to push their husbands away after they have children. It could be a form of post cum clarity extended over a long period where the clarity begins to show up. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

It's like my hormones couldn't hold up to the challenge of sexuality. 

 

[petar8p]

4 hours ago, Tyler Robinson said:

Will I get sick of sex at some point? 

Will all the hunger go away? 

Not anytime soon. 

 

We always come back to being horny. Sex life can only deepen. It cannot die off.

4 hours ago, Tyler Robinson said:

These masturbations gave me insights into the subject of male female attraction.. 

can u write

[Tyler Robinson]

4 minutes ago, petar8p said:

can u write

I already write a shit ton about it in the dating section 

Also in this journal 

 

 

Edited November 14, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

I feel much better now. 

I feel like I need a ton of space to process my emotions and thoughts. 

[Tyler Robinson]

Yea i behave like a kid. So what. Who cares. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Leo where are you? 

Leo, all children here on Actualized.org are crying for you? 

Come back soon and ignore The Journal 

 

What a joke? 

I start a fight? 

Nah. I was just having a divine discussion. 

Can't handle me, then how will you be a successful dad in the future if you can't handle a random girl online? 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

What about my sex drive? 

I feel a slump. 

Didn't have any wet dreams in last 24 hours. I find it strange that I'm not feeling that attracted to men. They appear as nuts and bolts to me and nothing much. Hmm. I wonder how long this will last. Till I'm horny again 

Maybe my uterus needs some rest. 

My hormone levels must have gone down. 

 

Uterus break. 

 

Where are my hormones? 

Does this happen to men too? Like some days they just don't think about women at all. 

I don't think so.. Testosterone must be a hell of a hormone. It can't go down like that. I'm sure it's always circulating in male blood. They need it anytime they see a woman in heat I mean a horny woman. 

I mean what If you spot a horny woman and you just can't ejaculate. That would be such an embarrassing thing. Nooo? 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I still desire men but mentally. When I'm not desiring them sexually. 

I feel a bit frustrated because I'm not feeling sexual. It can make me feel empty. 

I don't feel romantic. 

I don't have any boyfriends right now. I broke off with my last boyfriend. 

I don't think I'll want another relationship.. Ever again 

 

It just doesn't feel like it anymore. 

Too many bad relationship experiences. Too many demands. Too much work.. My health issues on top of everything. 

But I could be with an imaginary guy. 

 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

The love of my life —

[Tyler Robinson]

To. The man I desire passionately... Licking you 

 

 

My permanent crush - 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited November 15, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

I'll call him Tony.

Tyler and Tony

Tony, I want to sleep in your arms forever. 

Hold me close. 

 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

MBTI is  INFJ-T 

 

Enneagram main - type 2 

2w1 

My trifixes are 8 and 7.

827(body center(gut) /heart center /head center)  sp/sx

 

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