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[Tyler Robinson]

I felt horny multiple times today. This is the first time. (of course since puberty). 

I'm exploring my sexual psyche as deep as possible. 

I feel like I need a daddy figure in my life, not because I miss my dad. I just attracted to a daddy kind of a guy who is caring sweet disciplining and loving. Something about it is hugely attractive. 

Women are attracted to providers I guess. 

A daddy figure also creates an intense polarity. 

He is someone you can trust and rely on. 

I'll just call it daddy attraction lol. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Yea a daddy figure creates intense polarity. Women like to be coddled. And daddies do the coddling. Of course you want this daddy to be a macho hearthrob as well. 

How does a daddy lover create polarity - 

- he takes care of you 

- he is your fundamental provider or support system. He takes away anxiety (women constantly worry about surviving) 

- he is dominant (women who are submissive) 

- he is disciplining (women can be indulgent) 

- he gives you a sense of direction (women look for a sense of direction) 

- a sense of order (women generally lack order and the feminine goes with the flow) 

- he is a good leader (woman want to be lead) 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

And how does a man feel when a woman tugs at his daddy instincts? Probably hot. 

Historically men have alway felt better whenever they have been refered (to) as a daddy. 

One fundamental cause of this polarity is trust. 

Women, a lot of women I mean, suffer trust issues for whatever reasons. Plus they suffer heartache when a man dumps them. This makes it tough for women to trust men easily. They don't want a relationship or they don't want a man. They subconsciously push a man away.

But a daddy figure is like Doctor Fix It. 

He assures or gives out a vibe of assurance and security.. 

Women are full of fears and insecurities and trust issues. Daddy lover takes away all that. 

He is the antithesis. He is the protector. He is also the Spanker (roll eyes). It's almost like he is holding your vagina. The vagina is very soft. Kinda mushy and wet. Also very flexible. It can expand or contract. It shows lack of sturdiness and order. 

The penis is proving, investigating, leading inside, dominating, it's hard and rough. It wants order. 

When you are fucking a woman, you're basically fucking her DNA. Because you want your DNA to merge with hers. 

 

 

Edited November 11, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

I think daddy has the capacity to overpower that silly little feminine bubble that you feel inside you regurgitating itself and kinda back flipping on its head all the time. You feel that tug inside of you as a woman. 

And Mr Daddy not only loves you but also tames you. 

[Tyler Robinson]

My ex once told me that I have a cute looking baby ass. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Daddy lovers tend to trigger many instincts in women at the same time. It's like pushing all the buttons in an elevator at the same time. 

They trigger the "girls want to be coddled" instinct along with the "damsel in distress who needs to be saved" instinct in women. 

Women primarily have a set of instincts that when triggered generate attraction to a man like falling a tree. 

A woman's pussy is stiff like a 

[Tyler Robinson]

A woman's pussy is stiff like a pine bark. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Janessa/Tyler/Me  dying in the end is already part of the script. 

I'll die at the hands of Sawyer Bonney. He was locally known as Holster Bonney. 

He will shoot me in the end when I refuse his sexual gestures. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Sometimes Philly used to call me Sweetpea

 

[Tyler Robinson]

My nicknames

Janessa = Berry = Berrylee = Gouchee = Jeenie = Zozo bird = Sweetpea = Tyler = Me

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

A true relationship is physical offline in the real world, in the bedroom. An online relationship is generally a farce, an illusion, although it does have the capability to appear real to us due to the nature of communication. But it's still not real. 

A person who loves you will never keep from you even the tiniest most insignificant detail of their life, let alone a decision like marriage or any inclinations that lead to it.

True love is complete harmony nothing else and nothing less. They eat, breathe and sleep you, that's true love. There's absolutely no sneakiness. No mind games. There is perfect union of two souls and they are like childhood friends, just know everything about each other. It's almost like sleeping next to your sibling. You are that close to someone who truly loves you and you  them. 

True love is intuitive intelligence harmonized together. You will know what they think even before they say it. You will look into their eyes and already know how they feel. There will never be a possibility of lack of loyalty or missing trust. It will be spiritual and perfectly wholesome. They will think about your well being already without you having to pine for it. They will do what pleases you even before you let them know what you like. True love is true craving and it will be very passionate and submissive. It will like or want nothing else other than the company of the lover even in the most warped states of the dynamic. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

.. 

[Tyler Robinson]

There are many death scenes. 

I imagined myself dying in the arms of a man. Desperately wanting his love. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Another man fell in love with me. His name was George Barkley. 

He was a big guy in town. It was a small town. And he was regarded like a king. Everyone respected and feared him. 

One day he saw me laughing with someone and I caught his fancy. 

He wanted me from that day 

 .. 

He loved guns. 

[Tyler Robinson]

I'm just a worthless creature. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

George Barkley wanted me the moment he laid his eyes on me. 

One day he called me to his palace and told me that he couldn't live without me. He would die if he didn't have me. 

He was emotional and almost on the verge of tears 

He told me he would give up his life for me. And that his life won't be worth living if I didn't belong to him.. 

I was mad at him. I didn't want him. I never thought of him. I used to always act snobbish with him. Always challenging him. Always challenging his guts

But that day changed me. I could see his love for me. I could see his passion. 

I let him kiss me. 

He asked me if I accept him as a lover. 

And I softly said "yes." 

He was being so loving, I couldn't say no. 

I ended up giving my heart to him. I could die for him. 

And then he asked me if I would spend every night with him. 

And I said yes.. 

And he said that he would give me all the wealth in the world. 

And I said I don't need money or wealth. 

Then he asked me what I wanted. 

And I just could not say it. I wanted to but my lips began to quiver in shame and fear.. 

How could I drop my shame and tell a man what I really wanted? 

           

 

Edited November 12, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

And I decided to let go of shame and tell Barkley what I wanted -

I said to him — I need your love, your masculine energy. I want to feel your love in my bones, in my breath. I want to feel your passion for me. I want your affection. I want to be loved. I want to belong to you George. Forever. 

And then I had such intense orgasmic feelings for George. I wanted him to fuck me as deeply as possible. 

My body just feeling and wanting him. 

I was drunk in love. 

 

                   

 

Edited November 12, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

Why do I want a man only when I'm horny. And not when I'm not horny. 

It's like I forget him completely if I'm not feeling horny. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I masturbated 2 days ago and my orgasms were so powerful that I could actually feel my G spot. I felt aroused. Deeply. 

Omg i squirted so badly. It was the highest peak of my horniness. 

And suddenly it all vanished quickly. It went as it came. 

It was like popping a bubble. It just went. 

And since then I haven't been feeling horny again. 

I don't know when I will feel horny again. 

But this was amazing. 

I think half baked orgasms tend to perpetuate for a while as long as the G spot isn't fully activated. 

You keep feeling horny for days even if you don't masturbate and the feeling lingers. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Until you actually reach full climax. And then the horniness apparently disappears on its own like a thinning cloud. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I'm. So mad right now 

 

I could break down