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[Tyler Robinson]

I cried a lot after writing this post

But I also found peace after writing it. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

... Why am I crying over a loser? 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Sick of this place. How obsessed they are with my personal life???? 

Does my body count matter? 

Yea my body count is zero because I'm a virgin. 

 

These people are some serious weirdos. They want to know everything about a woman. 

That's why I can never be myself here. Because they make such a big deal out of everything I do 

Why can't people leave my personal life out of everything for God sake and just focus on a comment? 

Damn it's just a forum not a job interview 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Anyways I'm going to leave this place in another 10 days so doesn't matter. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

I'm a virgin. For virgins it's a difficult thing. It's really tight so it won't fit in. The anxiety causes the muscles to not open up. First try an abundant amount of foreplay. Often a constricted vagina is the result of not being wet enough because it's not stimulated well enough. This stimulation has to be mental. I put great effort in getting myself horny. Only then it opens up and gets wet. It needs a huge amount of stimulation. So you have to probably place your finger at the entrance and just let it sit there. And wait. The vagina might get wet. And then you can slide the finger in. Let the finger stay at the periphery, resting and waiting. Make the orifice curious enough. Then the pussy is excited enough by the waiting and might try to suck it in. 

But just keep your finger there, not stiff or rigid. Just like that. And then let it open. Make her comfortable before sex 

Goodday 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

I was raped a few months ago.  It wasn't severe. It was like a rape attempt. 

I find it weird that people on this forum want to know every detail of my rape. That's highly personal. 

If the rape involved sexual penetrating or not.... It's all up to me. 

I hate how people take liberty at prodding a person directly about their rape experience. 

It's a sensitive matter. Not for the public to debate the details of it. 

Cringe. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

A couple of pointers - 

 

✸ most men who empathize with rape victims are just white knights. If you truly cared about rape then you would rethink how you view women and their issues. 

You would not on one hand say that rape is a serious issue and on the other hand also want women to go out and work and provide for themselves knowing that the work environment is not entirely safe for women. 

Where do working women most often get raped - workplace 

When do they get raped most often - graveyard shifts 

You would not support prostitution and porn. 

What's the biggest subset of women who are raped - prostitutes and porn stars and drug addicts poor women 

So spare the online white-knightery. Easy to show fake empathy to rape victims. 

 

 

If you genuinely empathized with rape, then you would focus more on preventing the following - 

               ◉ Poverty in the female demograph

               ◉  drug addiction among women 

                 ◉ Child abuse in female minors 

                ◉  income inequality - better income for women 

                 ◉ (ending) prostitution and porn 

               ◉ modern trends of discouraging  men to be providers 

 

✸ Not every woman is raped by some deranged serial killer like the Toybox Killers. That's cherry picking. Most rapes aren't as severe 

 

✸Most rapes do not involve violence 

✸ most rapes are committed by someone who the woman is familiar with - a friend, a coworker, a friend of friend, a boyfriend, a romantic interest, a husband, an uncle, a dad. This usually reduces the severity of the rape. 

✸ if rape was a severe crime with severe trauma, then the victims of Harvey Weinstein wouldn't have happily continued working with him 

✸ Rape is severe (extremely) if it's a gang rape, when violence is involved, when it happens to a child or during childhood etc. 

✸ most rapes are just coerced sex. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

Do you wanna what's really worse? 

What's really worse than getting raped and or spending time in prison on a false accusation is —

Getting raped, not be believed, not reaching  a conviction due to lack of evidence, being blamed and shamed for the rape, having to recount the rape in court under embarrassing scrutiny and then for the rest of your life, being considered DAMAGED GOODS by all future dates and never have the possibility of receiving love from a man because all men think of you as unworthy and violated and you live in shame forever. Now that's much worse. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

 

1 hour ago, Tyler Robinson said:

I made a guy wait 7 days to respond. He is still waiting. Will reply to him tomorrow. 

He is patient. People are busy. Nobody is sitting around just to text. 

If he can't wait, he can find another girl. I have no patience for a guy's impatience. I don't even want an Impatient as a partner. I find it un-alpha and kiddish not being able to keep patience. 

My future partner has to be the most patient person in the world 

 

 

 

1 hour ago, Tyler Robinson said:

I don't consider it that way. I can wait for a guy as much as he needs. 

I see it the other way. If a person didn't wait, I find it disrespectful that they are being Impatient and demanding another person's time. I don't want such people in my life. 

I don't do it to others. I don't nag my boyfriend (ex) to spend time with me if he isn't available. 

I don't demand others take out time only for me. I'm not like that. 

What I find disrespectful in terms of text etiquette are — ghosting, blocking, dumping over text. 

I don't do the above. If I have time I make sure to reply. I give closure. I don't leave anyone on read. 

If I don't have time I let them know beforehand that I'm busy. 

Now if someone doesn't respect my time or doesn't care about my concerns then I don't want such a guy. 

In a way this is a kind of a shit test. If he really wants me he will show patience and wait for me.. If he misunderstands it and takes it as disrespect, then there is no harmony between me and him, it means he doesn't read me and doesn't want my best then I don't want him 

 

A guy who wants me will do what I want. Call me controlling or whatever. I've been with guys where they would call the shots. Didn't go well. 

Now I want to call the shots.

 

 

53 minutes ago, Tyler Robinson said:

My thing is opposite. If a guy is acting like an asshole then he gets treated like one. Maybe I'm a bit egotistical but I'm who I am unapologetically. Maybe some girls like that cold attitude from a guy, not me. If I like a guy I will make him wait a lot lot lot lot lot. I will make jump through hoops to see how much he is ready to put up with 

But I will also admire him. I won't lose respect for him. That's red pill bollocks anyway. 

You know this beautiful thing that happened between me and my ex.. Once I was on the phone with him through the night and I slept off in the middle. And he did not hang up till morning. I was breathing into the phone. Morning when I woke up I whispered hello and he said a sweet hello. Omg you can't imagine my joy. I asked him and he said he waited patiently for me to wake up. He was doing other stuff in the meantime but he didn't feel like hanging up on me. I thought it was the cutest thing he did for me

That made me love him even more.. Little things like that which makes me find him cuter 

 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

  27 minutes ago, StarStruck said:

I know her from the gym for a while and I asked her number.

I have three girls in my rotation right now, 2 of them are hot and cold. Just a hour ago I just confronted 1 through text and she apologized and said she would respond quicker next week because she is busy with uni this week.

A lot of girls want a guy who has self respect, you have to demonstrate it and a lot of girls will respect you for that and it will rekindle the attraction. 

So why did you dump him if he loves you so much?  

You're using girls like machines sorry. They have emotions and intuition. Most girls want to be dated exclusively and won't be okay with a guy putting women on rotation. 

It seems you're into a particular girl and just looking to get laid. 

Most girls can pick on that even from a distance. For a girl vibe is important. She can tell if a guy only wants her for sex intuitively through communication. 

In that case she won't be serious. Either that or she is busy. Or that she thinks you are being too needy. 

  21 minutes ago, StarStruck said:

I didn't put pressure on her. I asked her if she missed my text or if she is not interested in communication. If I forced her to meet me this week, that would be pressure.

What you did definitely sounds like pressure. 

If you had texted me like that and confronted me that way, I would have taken it as a sign of controlling behavior. That's a complete no no. 

Women want a dominating guy who is inherently complying not controlling. They want a leader, a coach, a guide, not a dictator. 

Asking a girl if she is interested in communicating is a big sign of neediness. You shouldn't be cold, rude or psychopathic but also not act pressure-needy. That's not a good vibe. It makes her feel hovered over or anxious 

Let loose. Make her comfy. All initial discussions should have a chill vibe. 

If your initial attempts to get a woman involved or interested involve any confrontational language, even subconsciously for that matter, she will find subconscious ways to reject you, like slow texting or zero reply. 

Most women don't want to appear rude while rejecting a guy so they will prefer silence over a confrontation. 

Also women use a lot of hidden and manipulative and subconscious shit tests that they don't openly tell you about. But they are doing it any way. It's their way of knowing if the man approaching them is good enough. They are not going to reveal it to you but they feel it inside. 

A lot of woman's operating ways is subtle and subconscious and if you are not good at reading her emotions you will have zero luck at winning her. 

Number one - communicate interest without being imposing. 

Don't take this as negative feedback. I'm just being blunt and telling you how we women feel, if that's what you really want to know when you are dealing with us. 

Sorry women have their survival bias, can't help it. They will do what it takes to lock in a guy who is perfect in their eyes 

 

Goodday 

Edited October 18, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

I'm bad. I'm really bad. Too bad. I'm bad. I'm bad. I'm bad. I'm bad. I'm bad. I'm bad. I'm bad. I'm bad. I'm really really bad. 

You know I'm bad.. You know.... 

 

 

 

I'm happy I'll leave this forum on October 25. Finally will get rid of this addiction. 

I don't deserve my private life to be constantly butted into and people being obsessed with my life. Haha. I deserve space and respect for who I am. Not to be prodded with a needle from all directions. I change my profile picture before because I wasn't comfortable being me. Why should I be considered bad for that. Who I am is not even relevant. Its not like I'm going to meet someone from here in real life. So why does it matter who I am. 

Not gonna change my profile Pic ever. I was uncomfortable being me. But now I'm okay being myself. This is me raw, dark skinned. If you don't like me, fine then fuck off, I don't give a dick if someone considers me ugly or whatever. 

I am fine being ugly now 

 

I am comfortable with my race. Finally. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 Ban me for being a non white girl 

 

Leo = dumb fucking pedophile supporting narcissistic racist Hyper intelligent alien mouse who disguises racism as ethnocentrism

And FUCK ALL WHITE PEOPLE BECAUSE THEY ARE ALWAYS RACIST ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. 

 

 

THERE

Said it

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

ALL MODS ON THIS FORUM ARE WHITE..... COINCIDENCE??? 

 

 

AND LEO ALWAYS BANS NON WHITE PEOPLE MOST OF THE TIME 

COINCIDENCE? 

 

 

 

Ma lyrics go like this - 

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Edited October 18, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

These people don't have the right to discuss my virginity. 

No need to pick on me. Disgusting. 

Another reason to leave this forum. 

 

 

 

Edited October 18, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

First lesson learned. 

If someone talks about you. You should not talk about them. 

Red flag

 

I can't believe that I'm considered low IQ and they still bother to read my journals. Oh yeah. That's what high IQ people tend to do Lmao. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Someone's virginity is none of your business. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I go back to the same old same old same old dream in which you are fucking me and when I see your face I'm once again reminded that you are the one I wanted to be one with 

 

Where did you go? 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

I'm reminded of my dreams with you every time I see your face Eric

 

 

You are mine Eric and I'm yours.. We will meet in heaven some day. 

Some day we become one.

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

You remind me of these songs Eric. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

Maybe I'm wired differently. The problem is that if you get too close to me, I get sexual. My brain is wired in such a way that if a guy is hovering all around me, I begin to feel his pheromones. You don't get it because you can't feel like a woman. I'm a woman, I can't help feeling like a woman? 

Do you feel my vagina? 

Do you think it's wet? 

I got wet. Fuck. 

I can't help it. 

Because you do this every time. This sexual pressure which is kinda indirect. 

I don't feel this way around other guys but why around you? 

Because you're kinda holding my pulse so hard and maybe you are enjoying it. I don't know. 

The first time you did this, I got a fucking orgasm. 

I'm a sexual creature. If a guy talks about me, maybe you don't understand how this works, but it triggers me sexually, it feels like sexual pressure, like sexual tension. I don't know about your sexual meter but mine is sensitive. 

Right now I literally feel like you're penetrating me so hard. It's like verbal penetration. I mean I can defeat others because I don't feel sexual around them. 

But I'm somehow not able to resist you in the same way. It's so intense, probably your vibe, that I literally feel like you're penetrating me, and I have to simply surrender being tied up. 

I know this might sound absurd but it's the consequence of sexual tension slowly building up. I don't know what to say about it. If someone personalizes themselves with me, I can get intimate. 

I mean visually it's like pinning me against the wall, looking straight into my eyes and then challenging me, I would simply give up and let you fuck me. I would feel helpless because it's so intimate. 

I'm sorry it is this way. But it is what it is. 

The last thing you said to me definitely made me wet. I'm not that kind of person, in fact I'm sexually repressed. 

But you keep defeating me till the point that it gets sexual 

And I give into this sexual surrender. 

Maybe you don't know how your masculinity is fucking attracting me. 

I have no idea how to convey my emotions. 

I'm just candid. 

Every time he talked about me I felt sexual. I tried thinking about it. But it wasn't of much use. 

I wrote in my personal diary many days ago that he was negging me. 

I can't help but be open about my emotions at least to me. 

I don't know what would have transpired if those conversations had happened in real life?

For different women it's different things that turn them on 

What turns me on is a guy making me want his approval in indirect ways. 

The more direct he was with me the more I felt sexual. I mean in real life if he walked toward me, I have no idea. I would be frozen in a sexual kind of way. I would just let him kiss me or hold me if he wanted to. 

Even if he didn't have that intent, I was melting, his wasn't gaming me, but I still felt like I was being drawn into him. 

I feel sexually defeated but in a good way.

By the way, this kind of thing never happened to me, never. 

Never before. 

This is the first that someone gave me an orgasm by simply tuning into my vibe and turning it to constantly turn me on 

I'll transfer this entry later on in that journal. 

It's tough for me if a man has such a strong influence on me. 

I just can't help it, can I? 

The least that I can do is be as honest as possible about how I feel. 

His objectivity is kinda sharp for me. 

I want to know about a virgo. Do they have some influence 

I Googled about virgo and pisces and this is what I get. 

The zodiac compatibility between Pisces and Virgo is extremely peaceful and harmonious. They both know what they want from the relationship, and will give each other the time to settle into the same. Virgo, with its practicality and knowledge, gives direction to the Piscean's idealistic dreams.

He calms me down. Why would I be so interested in someone if nothing was happening inside me? 

Now I feel like this is what I was looking for? 

I'm not sure. 

Everything always comes to me rather unexpected. 

I have never felt this sexual in my life. 

This whole day I thought about him and I had such intense orgasms 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

He was like the guy in my dreams, like one of my imaginary characters I had dreamt up.. 

He was making me feel exactly the way I wanted to feel. 

He was saying things that were challenging my femininity in some way. It was weird yet it worked. 

And I don't think any other guy had ever achieved this before. 

Maybe it was all in my head. 

Well it was what It was. 

At least it gave me a glimpse into what could turn me on. 

Is there something called as distant sexuality 

Where you feel sexual only if the person is at a certain distance from you? 

And it kinda fizzles when you get too close or too used up. 

Yea the sexual tension kind of thing 

I don't know what to say about it.. It goes in alignment with whatever I wrote in my diary of a sexually repressed girl 

But this guy forever is going to have this strong influence on me. It's epic and it's real. 

Such a strong sexual competitor never came to me. 

In real life if a guy had talked like that to me, it would have been the greatest turn on