Looking for guidance from myself

[Godishere]

As the title says, I'm looking for some guidance from anyone here who has literally died. I feel like I'm dying. I feel like I'm about to wake up and I can't help it. I know I'm God and I can't hide and I'm afraid. Every so often, the contemplation starts. Thoughts such as "anyone you ask if you exist is just you" or "this person is about to tell me they are imaginary" or "if I awaken, I'll be stuck in infinity knowing I'm God with no other". Sometimes it just hits me randomly and I will distract myself not to face these thoughts or whatever you want to call them. 

What happens after you fully awaken? I know that you become God and conscious of the entire universe, but what happens to life? Is it hard to accept that you are completely one consciousness? Even asking this question is strange to me, because I feel like I'm just asking myself. I know these are just thoughts but I also feel like there's no "other" I can validate if I'm going crazy or not!

I know teachers such as Spira speak of ultimate contentment and happiness etc. Is this the final truth of reality? Why does it feel so solipsistic and terrifying..

 

Edited September 1, 2022 by Godishere

[Someone here]

12 minutes ago, Godishere said:

What happens after you fully awaken?

Those whom you thought cared about you and loved you, run from you because to them you’ve become some strange alien. You find yourself in a place where you’re completely alone and left to deal with your souls karmic obligations and evolutionary processes. The wool is removed from your eyes and you’re able to see this earth shit for what it truly is. You’re no longer afraid of what life could possibly hand you. You tend to focus more on knowing and understanding your purpose for being here and moving and acting accordingly. You now understand that it’s time to put on your grown folks shoes, strut through the earth being exactly who you are and doing exactly what you’ve come to do. You really arrive at a place where you realize you have no more fucks to give about the things you once thought were very important.

[Razard86]

3 hours ago, Godishere said:

As the title says, I'm looking for some guidance from anyone here who has literally died. I feel like I'm dying. I feel like I'm about to wake up and I can't help it. I know I'm God and I can't hide and I'm afraid. Every so often, the contemplation starts. Thoughts such as "anyone you ask if you exist is just you" or "this person is about to tell me they are imaginary" or "if I awaken, I'll be stuck in infinity knowing I'm God with no other". Sometimes it just hits me randomly and I will distract myself not to face these thoughts or whatever you want to call them. 

What happens after you fully awaken? I know that you become God and conscious of the entire universe, but what happens to life? Is it hard to accept that you are completely one consciousness? Even asking this question is strange to me, because I feel like I'm just asking myself. I know these are just thoughts but I also feel like there's no "other" I can validate if I'm going crazy or not!

I know teachers such as Spira speak of ultimate contentment and happiness etc. Is this the final truth of reality? Why does it feel so solipsistic and terrifying..

 

Dude....if you truly love yourself....its the greatest news you can have!!! Its like everyone is me? Well I love me, so I love everyone!!! If you pay attention, when ever you have conflict with ANYONE its because you think they are not you. The greatest news (in my opinion is they are me) so it calms me down. You are me!!! So I love you man!!! Don't worry man, one day you will come to love yourself...in all of your crazy wacky infinity.

When you hear a song that you consider lame or wack...YOU made that song.

When you hear a song you love...YOU made that song.

So everything you see in all its glory and majesty...YOU MADE IT.

I mean its pretty profound and radical. Its so freaking amazing...it doesn't even make sense how something so profound and amazing can be true!!! 

[Breakingthewall]

In my experience, all problems are resolved, all dissatisfaction is swept away. life becomes bright. the unlimited is total freedom. is exactly what you want. nailed. beyond any expectation. you can not imagine something so perfect, it goes beyond your imagination. it is the hallelujah, it is the prodigal son who has returned, it is the cup that has been filled. it is energy in vein, it is clarity in the mind, it is courage, it is life. and the other was sad misery. The land of the brave awaits you. swallow the chalice of loneliness to the bottom, dive headfirst

[Leo Gura]

What happens, is Love

[Carl-Richard]

Quote

Looming, omnipresent
This task ahead
This task at hand
Ominous and daunting
Crippling undertaking, I'm frozen

Where to begin eludes me
Without you to remind me

Just take the step
Just take the swing
Just take the bite
Just go all in

Where to begin eludes me
Ruling ever deeper
This massive endeavor
Ominous and daunting
Crippling undertaking

Just take the step
Just take the swing
Just take the bite
Just go all in

Take the step
Take the swing
Take the bite
Just take the bite

Take the step
Take the swing
Take the bite
Just go all in

Where to begin eludes me
Without you to remind me
Just begin

 

[Carl-Richard]

1 hour ago, Razard86 said:

Dude....if you truly love yourself....its the greatest news you can have!!! Its like everyone is me? Well I love me, so I love everyone!!!

There is no me.

[Vibes]

21 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

What happens, is Love

You complained about Nahm being vague and not helping. This ^ doesn't help, and you know it.

[Carl-Richard]

Just now, Vibes said:

You complained about Nahm being vague and not helping. This ^ doesn't help, and you know it.

I've been through exactly what he is experiencing, and there is no help. You either take the plunge or you deny deny deny for 2 years straight.

[Breakingthewall]

11 hours ago, Carl-Richard said:

I've been through exactly what he is experiencing, and there is no help. You either take the plunge or you deny deny deny for 2 years straight.

your ego is going to set you a final trap, the final boss of the game. for the op is loneliness. for me it was the emptiness, the absence. even with high doses of 5 meo dmt the experience was absolute absence. it was horrible. all reality is emptiness and that emptiness is death, absence of everything. there is no self, there is no duality, there is only one, unlimited, and it is unlimited death. for me the solution was, after one of those horrible trips, with trembling hands due to the effect of 5 meo, put a dose without weight it in the pipe, big. Impossible to know how big, and say, give me the truth or kill me, physically, I don't reserve anything, I  give everything. I am and I know that. I am and I am not absence, show me the truth. torch and we go with all the poison. the universe exploded the void burst. the glory manifested. 

Edited September 2, 2022 by Breakingthewall

[axiom]

21 hours ago, Godishere said:

What happens after you fully awaken? I know that you become God and conscious of the entire universe, but what happens to life? Is it hard to accept that you are completely one consciousness? Even asking this question is strange to me, because I feel like I'm just asking myself. I know these are just thoughts but I also feel like there's no "other" I can validate if I'm going crazy or not!

I know teachers such as Spira speak of ultimate contentment and happiness etc. Is this the final truth of reality? Why does it feel so solipsistic and terrifying..

There may be a fear and dread as the awakening is happening.

There is a profound recognition that this (the appearance) is everything.

It is revealed that "you" were always being animated by infinity.

It becomes obvious that you were never there. This is the cosmic joke.

All tension seems to fall away, and the need to gain anything whatsoever is completely gone.

It is infinite love. No judgement, and noone to judge.

It becomes obvious that this is complete and perfect. Beyond words. There was never separation. All seeking is over.

Edited September 2, 2022 by axiom

[Leo Gura]

1 hour ago, Vibes said:

You complained about Nahm being vague and not helping. This ^ doesn't help, and you know it.

You are asking questions which you cannot get answers to.

[Razard86]

2 hours ago, Carl-Richard said:

There is no me.

Hi Me!!

[L0VE]

9 hours ago, Carl-Richard said:

 

Good band you a gojira fan?

[Carl-Richard]

1 hour ago, L0VE said:

Good band you a gojira fan?

Listened to them a lot for a while.

[Godishere]

@Carl-Richard how to take the plunge?

[Carl-Richard]

30 minutes ago, Godishere said:

@Carl-Richard how to take the plunge?

Accept what you fear.

[OnePointTwo]

17 hours ago, Godishere said:

Thoughts such as "anyone you ask if you exist is just you" or "this person is about to tell me they are imaginary" or "if I awaken, I'll be stuck in infinity knowing I'm God with no other".

Isn't that egocentrism?

[Carl-Richard]

5 minutes ago, OnePointTwo said:

Isn't that egocentrism?

Egocentrism places ego above other. Not the same as saying there is no other.

[OnePointTwo]

10 minutes ago, Carl-Richard said:

Egocentrism places ego above other. Not the same as saying there is no other.

But what is the reasoning behind the leap from "I make up stories about others" to "nobody else is real"? We are trying to become less biased right? Believing others are going to tell you they are imaginary is pretty self-biased.

Edited September 2, 2022 by OnePointTwo