I am afraid and really terrified. It takes a lot of loving trust and surrender to life's intelligence. I did other posts about my kundalini situation. As the energy awakes within your system the body starts performing spontaneous body movements that are designed for clearing your energy system from accumulated imprints.  In my case the body starts whirling and  spinning like a dervish very fast.  I have come close where the speed would take over completely over the body but shortly I stopped willingly because it scared the hell out of me. I feel very good after but still not able to let go completely. I feel it would be the end. I am afraid of the void I am scared like a child that has lost his mother in the woods.  It's a turning point where one can't go back.  It's just about trust and trust. But damn god it's brutally challenging. Facing the fear of one's death and dissolution .... I am afraid