Kundalini awakening in front of girl

[StarStruck]

So last weekend I fell in love with a girl on first sight. She mirrored my kundalini awakening. There was a lot of laughter, ecstasy and scary amount of energy/love releasing from my body. I felt the solar plexus ignition hitting my heart and I couldn’t stop myself after that. I felt kind of embarrassed. She was in awe by the amount of energy and shocked at the same time. I see her at dance class and I’m kind of embarrassed when I see her again. I can’t rewind it back and what happened happened but what meaning should I give this experience? 

[Thought Art]

@StarStruck Cool, I have no idea sounds like you both had it?? 

[NoSelfSelf]

Not even kundalini awakening could purge the pedestalization of a woman ?

[StarStruck]

50 minutes ago, Thought Art said:

@StarStruck Cool, I have no idea sounds like you both had it?? 

I don’t know. I was too overwhelmed and embarrassed by the emotions to ask her anything. In that moment and right after that I didn’t even know what was happening. 

[StarStruck]

9 minutes ago, NoSelfSelf said:

Not even kundalini awakening could purge the pedestalization of a woman ?

in the heart the male and female energies merge to create the hieros gamos so it is not weird a female was involved. I literally thought she was an angel. I was literally StarStruck. I really had to struggle tooth and nail to not lose myself in that moment (ego death). 

[Space]

@StarStruck Sounds awesome!

[BuddhistLover]

Sounds like a lot of fun to me pal.@StarStruck

[Holymoly]

Own the fuck out of it man that’s crazy 

[StarStruck]

On 22-7-2022 at 2:41 PM, Holymoly said:

Own the fuck out of it man that’s crazy 

How do I suppose to own that? It felt like being touched by God, and me trying to keep composure lol

Edited July 23, 2022 by StarStruck

[Ulax]

Sounds wild af!

[Visionary]

On 19-7-2022 at 10:09 PM, StarStruck said:

in the heart the male and female energies merge to create the hieros gamos so it is not weird a female was involved. I literally thought she was an angel. I was literally StarStruck. I really had to struggle tooth and nail to not lose myself in that moment (ego death). 

I actually experienced the same and went into a semi-psychosis. But after challenging the mental madness barrier it was relatively easy to step back from it.

But before the semi-psychosis it was as if something had taken me over. The way i touched her, my sensuality and energy were all from a perfect place of heartfelt intuition. My ego felt very unsafe to let go of that control. She said: "who are you"? 3 or 4 times out of awe.

But my ego really took that as: who the fuck am i indeed? Who is doing this all? Which made me paranoid and psychotic. But not for long thankfully ?