Upgrading To The Maximum Level In Life

[Extreme Z7]

<05-31-16>
Boop boop da Doop
 

Just in case you don't know, Here's the list of goals I want to accomplish for my 2-month semester break followed by what I managed to do for it.

1. Finish College Requirements
2. Moderate Entertainment
3. Make Progress On My Personal Indie Game Project
4. Do A Lot Of Reading Books
5. Practice Drawing Skills
6. Take A Break From Making Music
7. Meditate and Cultivate Awareness

 

1. I actually dealt with a lot of anxiety today from thinking too much about college work. So much so that I decided to do a very counter-intuitive thing and decided not to do anything about it. That's right, do nothing technique. Well, it was hardly do nothing because I just spent hours reading a book instead. And you know what, it helped me a lot! I came to a deep realization that my worry is largely unnecessary because the work isn't even that urgent. The mind is a very tricky thing to tame and I'm thankful for stumbling upon Leo's advice to help me fight my inner demons.
2. Binged watched "Gravity Falls" Season  1, yep.
3. I really enjoyed the progress I made on my game today even though it wasn't that much, I'm proud of what I accomplished today.
4. Like I said, I've been reading "The Road Less Traveled"
5. Damn, I forgot to do any drawing today. Too much distraction that there wasn't any space for it.
6. Tum tee tum . . . nothing to say here
7. Meditation was still difficult for me today but . . . meh, it was not bad.
   
   MYSTERY VIDEO!! It's a review a gamer youtuber made of the jam game I made a few months ago.
    

[Extreme Z7]

<06-01-16>
May Is Over!

Just in case you don't know, Here's the list of goals I want to accomplish for my 2-month semester break followed by what I managed to do for it.

1. Finish College Requirements
2. Moderate Entertainment
3. Make Progress On My Personal Indie Game Project
4. Do A Lot Of Reading Books
5. Practice Drawing Skills
6. Take A Break From Making Music
7. Meditate and Cultivate Awareness

 

1. Didn't work at all on any college project again. I'm being strategic here, it's not actually that important.
2. Still watching Gravity Falls
3. I started work on my game slightly earlier than I normally did today and also ended earlier. I kind of like being my own boss in this project. I can choose how much time I want to spend on it for the day depending on what I feel is best.
4. Almost finished with Chapter 2 of "The Road Less Traveled".
5. Finally! I managed to muster up the motivation to draw a new comic strip. I plan to upload it to my deviantArt account tomorrow.
6. Nothing to do here. Tum Tee Tummm. . .
7. I really exerted a lot of effort into today's meditation session and as a consequence, went through quite a bit of pain.

[Extreme Z7]

<06-02-16>
:-)

Just in case you don't know, Here's the list of goals I want to accomplish for my 2-month semester break followed by what I managed to do for it.

1. Finish College Requirements
2. Moderate Entertainment
3. Make Progress On My Personal Indie Game Project
4. Do A Lot Of Reading Books
5. Practice Drawing Skills
6. Take A Break From Making Music
7. Meditate and Cultivate Awareness

 

1. I'll be honest, I hate college. I really do. I was put into by neurotic parents who aren't aware of what they're doing and I'm still being nagged to do stuff by parents who have no awareness of what is going on in reality. Bottom line is I'm my own person and I get to exercise delaying some schoolwork where I find it strategically viable.
2. I'm actually a bit nostalgic for the old days when I used to spend time with entertainment for almost all of my waking hours. That's over now, I've moved on. But I can't deny I still love my cartoons and video games.
3. I'm still obsessed with finishing this game. I'm putting so much time, blood, and love into it. Especially love! <3
4. Yep, still reading the same book from the previous entries.
5. I didn't do any drawing today and I also forgot to upload yesterday's comic like I said I would do. Oh well! That's something for tomorrow.
6. @Soulbass sent me some wonderful free VST's that will probably help me a lot in the future. It's so cool of him, I can't thank him enough. If only I had something to give in return, though.
7. MEDITATION! FUCK YEAH! AWARENESS IS THE ONLY WAY, YEAH!

[Extreme Z7]

<06-03-16>
*yawn*

Just in case you don't know, Here's the list of goals I want to accomplish for my 2-month semester break followed by what I managed to do for it.

1. Finish College Requirements
2. Moderate Entertainment
3. Make Progress On My Personal Indie Game Project
4. Do A Lot Of Reading Books
5. Practice Drawing Skills
6. Take A Break From Making Music
7. Meditate and Cultivate Awareness

 

1. Actually had to do a bit of academic work here and there because of stuff I don't want to spend the energy to talk about.
2. Watched a few episodes of [adult swim]'s "Off The Air"
3. I'm still obsessed and I love it.
4. Oh damn, I didn't do a lot of reading today.
5. Aaand, I still forgot to upload my comic. If you're wondering why I can't do it at night, it's because taking a picture of it inside a fluorescent lit room gives it some glow that don't like in the image. It always works best taking a picture of it with daylight.
6. Tum tee tum . . . .
7. Tried doing a guided meditation today with help of an online video. Better substitute for the real thing than no teacher to help at all.

 

[Extreme Z7]

<06-03-16>

Tick Tock

Just in case you don't know, Here's the list of goals I want to accomplish for my 2-month semester break followed by what I managed to do for it.

1. Finish College Requirements
2. Moderate Entertainment
3. Make Progress On My Personal Indie Game Project
4. Do A Lot Of Reading Books
5. Practice Drawing Skills
6. Take A Break From Making Music
7. Meditate and Cultivate Awareness

 

1. I'm required to write a resume to send to this company so I can apply for an internship there. Did pretty good for a first resume if I may say so myself.
2. I tried to stay focused mainly on work and told myself I would only really take a break when I'm done/
3. Still working like crazy on this game, I can't stop thinking about it.
4. I read a bit less than I should have but I still read something.
5. I recently uploaded the comic I drew a few days ago and also drew a new pencil sketch of Dr. Neo Cortex's head.
6. Nothing to do here
7. Meditation finished a lot earlier than I thought it would. I guess my mind really drifted off into space where time flew by quickly.

 

Edited June 4, 2016 by Extreme Z7

[Soulbass]

Hey Lyle,

just to say hi !

Entertainment - Indie game  - Reading books - Drawing - (Music?) - Meditation. Isn't too many things on the same time ?

You try to do all in one day ? Or one week for entertainment, one week for making an indie game, one week reading books...

Are you in holidays ?

How do you manage your time ?

Sorry, I didn't followed your journal last days, I've certainly missed a lot of your "upgrade".

(About the VSTs I've sent you, just pick "Photosounder Spiral CM" and forget the rest, it's the most usefull & creative).

 

[Extreme Z7]

@Soulbass I don't try to do all of them in one day. The plan is to have significant progress in all the areas within the 2 months free time I have without having to worry too much about college work. So some days I might focus on one thing but others I may focus on something else.

As for music, I told myself that I probably spent way too much time on it during the previous months so I decided I wanted to spend more time on other things instead. Besides, I have my interests focused more on trying to learn a musical instrument rather than music production at the moment, although I still don't know when that's going to happen. I would really like to get myself to learn the piano but I'll cross that bridge when I'm ready.

[Extreme Z7]

<06-05-16>
Lazy Work Day

Just in case you don't know, Here's the list of goals I want to accomplish for my 2-month semester break followed by what I managed to do for it.

1. Finish College Requirements
2. Moderate Entertainment
3. Make Progress On My Personal Indie Game Project
4. Do A Lot Of Reading Books
5. Practice Drawing Skills
6. Take A Break From Making Music
7. Meditate and Cultivate Awareness

 

1. I really don't want to do college work. I am really not interested, it serves me no purpose.
2. I watched entertainment when I felt like it.
3. Didn't make much progress but I still got things done.
4. Almost finished with Chapter 2 of "The Road Less Traveled"
5. Didn't have the motivation to really draw anything.
6. I actually did practice a bit of Techno music because I felt like I wanted to.
7. My mind was pretty noise for the first half but I felt pretty good at the second half of my meditation.

 

Leo's newest video recently got released, if you're reading this and therefore visit this forum, you probably already know about it.

[Extreme Z7]

<06-06-16>
My First Enlightenment Experience?

Just in case you don't know, Here's the list of goals I want to accomplish for my 2-month semester break followed by what I managed to do for it.

1. Finish College Requirements
2. Moderate Entertainment
3. Make Progress On My Personal Indie Game Project
4. Do A Lot Of Reading Books
5. Practice Drawing Skills
6. Take A Break From Making Music
7. Meditate and Cultivate Awareness

 

1. My college is requiring me to take an internship at a recommended company. I'm sort of excited for it. It beats working on my boring college requirements that I haven't passed yet.
2. Had very moderate entertainment today so that's good.
3. Little by little, I inch my way towards success. Little by little. . .
4. Already at Chapter 3 of "The Road Less Traveled"
5. Didn't feel like drawing anything today.
6. Neither did I feel the need to really to do anything musical.
7. I think I just had my first enlightenment experience. Damn. . . it was so weird. It felt like I finally saw reality for what it actually is. I really really really don't want to describe it because I feel it will be a distortion of what it actually was like. But I'll give the basic gist of it: I saw the 3-dimensional external world as an illusion inside this 2D screen we label as "vision". I also felt a presence that was not anything but was there and was aware. I also felt like this "presence", was not located anywhere, it just. . . "exists" I guess.
   I'll stop here because I don't want to keep describing it. The more complex the description, the more it strays away from the shear simplicity of how the experience was actually like. Damn it. . . that's another description.

[Extreme Z7]

<06-07-16>
Trying to Get Back To The Disciplined Mindset

<I'm not going to do a list entry like I have been for the past weeks for today because I don't feel like it>

So lately, mainly because of Leo's "Lifestyle Minimalism" and "Rant on Morality" videos, I've been subtly trying to ease myself and become less neurotic towards traditional values like discipline and let life flow more freely. The "Lifestyle Minimalism" video taught me that I really must not be pushing myself all the time to get things done. Aside from spending more time, trying to be aware of reality and existence, I also tried easing myself a bit more and actually getting back to some ego desires that I would normally try to avoid because I kept telling myself to keep working on this or that and only take a break when you've finished everything.

Which brings me to the "Morality Rant" video. A video that let me decide to try to just lay back and let anything that happens happen. If I wanted to work, I will work. If there was work I didn't like to do but is not very urgent, I take up a lazy activity. If I feel bad, I should feel bad. etc. etc. It helped me in some ways but ultimately, I actually find that I've been getting less things done in a day because of this attitude and I've been getting really sleep deprived because this practice has me ignoring my "sleep at 9:30pm" rule that I tried to ignore for the sake of getting rid of my "should" statements. And I HATE feeling sleep-deprived.

I think a commitment to balance is in order. A moderation of my pleasures with a strong but not neurotic discipline. I really want to get back to my mindset of feeling excited with getting things done while at the same time mixing that with slow deliberate mindful awareness. It's going to be a really big challenge but I'm up for it.

[Extreme Z7]

<06-08-16>
Got Back On Track

Just in case you don't know, Here's the list of goals I want to accomplish for my 2-month semester break followed by what I managed to do for it.

1. Finish College Requirements
2. Moderate Entertainment
3. Make Progress On My Personal Indie Game Project
4. Do A Lot Of Reading Books
5. Practice Drawing Skills
6. Take A Break From Making Music
7. Meditate and Cultivate Awareness

 

1. Wow, I'm really holding off college work a lot longer than I thought I would. It's not too bad though because I've gotten to have lots of progress in other areas of my life that I'm genuinely happier about.
2. I've had urges to play Minecraft that I haven't had in months. I realized yesterday that I probably loved Minecraft more than I originally thought. Unfortunately (or fortunately?), playing it is not an option. My laptop is no longer in any condition to play it since its cooling system got significantly less efficient. Probably won't get to play pretty much most games until I get a new computer. 2D games mostly still play fine on my laptop, though. Otherwise, I wouldn't be able to work on my 2D Platformer indie game, speaking of which. . . .
3. Anyone want a sneak peak of my game? I talk about it a lot but I've never actually showed any game content on this journal or to anyone. I'm planning to upload early builds of the game that people can try out so at least the game does not remain completely invisible. Not today though BUT it's possible I'll show you guys something within this week. I really want to impress you guys.
4. "The Road Less Traveled" is really getting good at Chapter 3 and I also decided to read the introduction to the "Analects of Confucius"
5. I DID IT! I've gotten back to drawing and letting my mind flow when it happens again. All I needed was a clear organized scheduled to time my drawing practice. The reason why I wasn't able to draw for the past few days was because I mostly got off track from trying to get things done by organizing myself with a schedule. I kind of experimented with denouncing it since I watched Leo's "Lifestyle Minimalism" but I found moderation is in order because it just made me get less done and only slightly more mindful.
6. Nothing to do here.
7. Pretty regular meditation session. And by that I mean, noisy, chaotic monkey mind. You know, the usual.

[Extreme Z7]

<06-10-16>
I Was Gone For A Day. Miss me?

I deliberately skipped writing yesterday's journal entry because I was experiencing too much stress and frustration from things that were actually pretty petty in retrospect. Long story short, I thought I could try something with my game (try to draw background art), realized that I couldn't draw something that I could approve and I wasted a lot of hours just worrying about how to draw the best looking tileset to make a background for. So anyway, I decided to spend the afternoon with a no-laptop time out. So I decided to spend most of the afternoon just reading books and I felt so much better than I expected.

So anyway, that was yesterday,  now for today. . .

Just in case you don't know, Here's the list of goals I want to accomplish for my 2-month semester break followed by what I managed to do for it.

1. Finish College Requirements
2. Moderate Entertainment
3. Make Progress On My Personal Indie Game Project
4. Do A Lot Of Reading Books
5. Practice Drawing Skills
6. Take A Break From Making Music
7. Meditate and Cultivate Awareness

 

1. God, my college has this required internship program and they keep clawing on my back for all these requirements. I guess I spent a lot of time today trying to comply but sheesh! I still have to submit them as soon as possible. Living in modern society makes it really difficult to do self-actualization work.
2. Watched a couple episodes of Gravity Falls. It's my new favorite show, why didn't I watch it when it came out?
3. Pretty bland day for my game work today. Nothing special, just level design work. But hey, it was so much smoother than yesterday. Yesterday was awful.
4. Almost done reading "The Road Less Traveled".
5. I plan to draw after I write this. I plan to do another "No Laptop" time-out again to see if I could get the same sweet and peaceful connection to reality I did like I got yesterday.
6. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention. I decided to try starting and getting foundation of the music I'm going to put into the game. I really wish I had more time to focus on my own personal external goals. But you know what? It's better than living in North Korea.
7. I had a Do Nothing session today. It was easy. It's supposed to be, it's freakin' 'do nothing'.
    

On an unrelated note, I can't help but think about what Leo's next episode is going to be about. It comes the day after tomorrow. It could be anything! The mystery. . .

[Extreme Z7]

<06-11-16>
Had A Lot of Free Time Today

I had a lot of free time today, I don't think I spent it in a great way but I still spent it well. Maybe I should just lower my standards?

Just in case you don't know, Here's the list of goals I want to accomplish for my 2-month semester break followed by what I managed to do for it.

1. Finish College Requirements
2. Moderate Entertainment
3. Make Progress On My Personal Indie Game Project
4. Do A Lot Of Reading Books
5. Practice Drawing Skills
6. Take A Break From Making Music
7. Meditate and Cultivate Awareness

 

 

1. Did some boring but required paperwork.
2. Yeah, I didn't have that much entertainment but it was slightly more than usual.
3. What more do I have to say? This is where I'm spending the majority of my time right now. I keep thinking about how it will be like after I actually finish it and I have to adapt to a new time management strategy. Because right now, I'm basically managing my time to get the most out of working on this while at the same time, not getting too neurotic about it.
4. Almost done with "The Road Less Traveled". Who knows? I could finish it by tonight.
5. I drew something! Two things! A skull and tombstone. The skull was, well . . . a skull, it was okay. I learned from drawing it. I'm really starting to get the point of my drawing practice. It's less about drawing things to achieve greatness, it's more about simply learning and enjoying it. And I'm really glad I'm finally getting to that point. Anyway, I draw the tombstone with the text "Here Lies YOU, you are going to die at some point. you do realize that right?". Just my attempt at drawing a death reminder to keep myself motivated in life and bla bla bla ramble ramble ramble, good night and much love! 

[Extreme Z7]

<06-12-16>
Another Day Where I Did Stuff

 

Just in case you don't know, Here's the list of goals I want to accomplish for my 2-month semester break followed by what I managed to do for it.

1. Finish College Requirements
2. Moderate Entertainment
3. Make Progress On My Personal Indie Game Project
4. Do A Lot Of Reading Books
5. Practice Drawing Skills
6. Take A Break From Making Music
7. Meditate and Cultivate Awareness

 

 

1. I was supposed to do something academics-related today but I forgot it. Oh well, I can still do it tomorrow.
2. Yep, pretty good here.
3. I'm close to finishing a quarter of the work required for the game, I guess. I feel that the more assets I create and the more scripts I write that I get to reuse, the faster the creation of the level goes. Finishing this game is going to be one of the greatest challenges I'll ever experience in my life especially as a single game developer. I've had many doubtful thoughts on whether or not to keep working on this game or to stop because it may be wasting my time. It's been a real challenge for me trying to get rid of all the worrying thoughts about this that are causing me a lot of stress and anxiety. I need to keep being mindful, it seems my mind secretly doesn't want me to finish this game.
4. I'm really really REALLY close to finishing reading "The Road Less Traveled". I can probably finish reading it by tonight.
5. Didn't draw anything today, a shame because I actually felt like I wanted to. You know what? I can't help but think about the main theme of Leo's newest video "Meditation for Beginners", that being that it's  all about commitment and priority. If I can just commit myself to having a drawing habit and prioritize it properly, then finding motivation for it will be a non-issue. Right now, I find it hard to prioritize drawing above working on my indie game, meditation, and even entertainment, no wonder I feel like I'm having so much trouble trying to draw consistently. Ultimately, this is something I'm going to have to think about more. Hopefully, I can make some real progress in the future. (And I probably will)
6. I actually did spend a bit of time messing around with sound FX because I promised to collaborate with someone I met in another forum who wanted to make a FNAF fan game. The guy was looking for someone who could do sound effects and I just couldn't resist volunteering.
7. My meditation session today started from struggling to stay in my uncomfortable posture to transitioning to a more comfortable sitting position to deciding to lay back and relax my aching back. I'm sure glad Leo released his latest video because otherwise I would have felt really bad about it. If you haven't watched it yet, go do that NOW! It's called "Meditation for Beginners" but I actually find that anyone no matter how advanced they are in their meditation practice will find the video helpful and motivation towards those who already do meditation.

Edited June 12, 2016 by Extreme Z7

[Extreme Z7]

<06-13-16>
Kymatica

I'm currently watching this documentary online that's just blowing my mind. It feels so deep that I feel like I want to keep re-watching and analyze it a bit more instead of watching it just once. I highly recommend you watch it, it has some very profound insight that I can't even begin to describe to you.
 

 

[Extreme Z7]

<06-14-16>
Confession.

*sigh* Okay, I have to confess something I've been hiding for the past month. This goes against not only what I think you expect about me but what I expect me as well. You might think it's stupid, but I believe revealing it will help me to move on. . .


Here goes. . .

I've been downloading the entire Gravity Falls series through torrent and watching it almost every night for the past months. I haven't watched it for a long time ever since I gave up watching TV completely 2 years ago. Even though I have thoughts that keep telling me that all that time could have spent building the perfect routine, I let myself continue to spend 22 minutes an episode just sitting there and enjoying myself. And you know what? I don't feel guilty about it one bit. In fact, I love that I've chosen to watch it. Gravity Falls is now easily my favorite cartoon and I just love everything about it. The characters, the humor, the suspense, the deep emotional roller coaster that is the show and, of course, the mystery. I actually feel it made me happier and more alive than anything else that's going on in my life right now.

Today, I just finished watching the final episode (Gravity Falls stopped running after 2 seasons), and I feel like it has reawakened creative drive within me that I haven't felt in weeks! . . . or no I mean . . years!  . . . oh wait I mean. . . I've never felt this way before! I feel like I just have an infinite supply of love I want to give it that I can instead channel on my life purpose: . . . creating my own fictional realities.

Ever since I was a kid I've been a rampant daydreamer. I used to take random stuff on my school desk like a pen and notebook and create all sorts of short random stories with them, and that's when I was like 5 or 6! My pre-teens are kind of a blur. At high-school, I watched cartoons on TV a lot and my mind was rampant with random ideas for TV shows but in retrospect, none of them were actually good ideas (SERIOUSLY, they were bad). And in my first year of college, I got super addicted to games and the internet and things sort of went really downhill from there, and then I sort of just blindly stayed in a constant low point for 2 more years until the event happened. The event I mentioned a few times in this journal and also at the very first entry. The evening I had my first existential panic. I've already talked a lot about it but long story short, I needed to change and I discovered Leo. Since then I've had all sorts of new ideas and visions ranging from "mediocre" to "too ambitious". Not to mention the profound realizations about reality, sheesh! I feel like I'm way too young to know all of this stuff. Even old people I meet just seem completely clueless now (but that's a tangent).

My mission now is to take what I learned from Gravity Falls and everything else I've learned so far from this self-improvement journey. Leo's videos and other similar YouTube videos, books I've bought, and my meditation practice. And use to create my dream projects. If Gravity Falls taught me anything is that reality has a weird way of encouraging fantasy. But what I don't think most of the people who watched Gravity Falls does know is that mastery of reality could possible bring fantasy into existence.

The stuff I'm talking about right now is so deep that I probably seem like rambling crazy nonsense right now from the words I'm using. Language just isn't a good communicator for what I actually want to communicate right now. Maybe I don't need to? I believe art has the power to reveal the true depth of one's life message to other people and I believe the people who worked on Gravity Falls did just that with their amazing short-lived show. Now it's my turn to communicate my life message, or life purpose, or dream or whatever you want to call it, words don't matter.

What's important is that I stop writing now. This journal entry is getting out of hand even for my standards. I'm going to watch a random YouTube video then fall asleep now. Buh-bye. . .

[key]

I in no way wish to diminish the meaning of your post, I also do not know the situation well. But noticed something, so a little self reflecting can never hurt, and fucking right on for getting passionate and creative, I see nothing but positivity.

53 minutes ago, Extreme Z7 said:

<06-14-16>
Confession.

*sigh* Okay, I have to confess something I've been hiding for the past month. This goes against not only what I think you expect about me but what I expect me as well. You might think it's stupid, but I believe revealing it will help me to move on. . .


Here goes. . .

I've been downloading the entire Gravity Falls series through torrent and watching it almost every night for the past months.

Yet.

On 31 May 2016 at 11:35 PM, Extreme Z7 said:

 Binged watched "Gravity Falls" Season  1, yep.

On 1 June 2016 at 10:45 PM, Extreme Z7 said:

Still watching Gravity Falls

Warm Regards 

Edited June 14, 2016 by Kenya

[Extreme Z7]

@Kenya Oh yeah, I've already mentioned it a few times, haven't I? I guess I just wanted to sound more dramatic.

But I feel like the first times I mentioned it didn't really reveal the true emotion of how I felt watching it. They more quick and subtle mentions. This entry was more dedicated to a more in-depth talk.

Edited June 14, 2016 by Extreme Z7

[Extreme Z7]

<06-15-16>
Maintaining the Daily Routine

<I'm changing up the way I write my list today to hopefully create less confusion>

 

1. College Work
   I haven't worked on college stuff in a very long time but I actually plan to get back to them this Friday. And I'm serious this time, I can't procrastinate on these projects forever. The reason why I'm just now deciding to get back to work on unfinished college requirements is because I feel like I've worked really really hard on the my indie game project which was taking a lot of my time and I think I want a break from it.
2. Entertainment
   Not much entertainment today. Today had one of the least amount of time spent on entertainment than I've ever had. Kind of proud of it actually, after yesterdays binge on Gravity Falls, I think a good moderate day is necessary
3. Personal Indie Game Project
   Like I said, I've been working really hard on this. But unfortunately, I cannot work on both this and my college projects at the same time. Tomorrow will probably be the last day I spend working on my game before I start another hiatus on this project. The last time I had a hiatus was for a similar reason, this time won't be any different. I'm surely going to miss working on it again for several weeks but this is necessary. I better goddamn enjoy tomorrow's work session. Oh Yeah! 
4. Reading
   I plan to re-read Robert Greene's "33 Strategies of War" again. I confess I didn't actually finish reading it the first time. Now I plan to get back to the beginning because I feel a new mysterious interest to get back into it again. Maybe it's because the past events in my life have made me feel like I need it more. But, I guess I should mention I didn't do any actual reading today.
5. Drawing
   Bought a new sketchbook. . . actually 2 new sketchbooks, one large, one small. . . and also a new pencil. I planned to draw something when I brought them home but I ended up not having enough time. I'll do it tomorrow. On the bright side, earlier this morning I discovered this free course online for people who want to get into drawing and need to start at the basics.
6. Music/Sound Design
   You may have noticed I didn't just day music, I put "slash" Sound Design. This is because today, I did something Sound Design-related but nothing Music-related. I'm collaborating with somebody making a FNAF fan game. Just a half hour ago I finished distorting a yelling vocal sample to create a noisy distorted jumpscare fit for a FNAF game. You know what? I actually felt kind of happy after finishing it. Just one of those "creative" moments I suppose
7. Meditation
     I tried a bit of Zen Meditation today 

[Extreme Z7]

<06-16-16>
A Refreshing Break from a Monotonous Routine

 

1. College Work
   No college work today, I promised myself I would really start tomorrow, didn't I?
2. Entertainment
   Hmmm. . . I kind of wish I spent more time with having more fun.
3. Personal Indie Game Project
   Okaaay, so today marks the last day I work on my game for hours everyday consecutively. When I picture the near future in my mind from this decision, it actually feels slightly more liberating. Mostly because my indie game work mostly feels monotonous. I'm not saying I regret working on it or that I never feel any sense of joy, but it does feel a lot less immediately stimulating compared to drawing or producing music.  Speaking of which, because of my decision to have break from working on my game, I will probably dedicate more time to music practice and drawing, mostly drawing, though. I will also not include this category on the list starting tomorrow until I get back to working on the game.
4. Reading
   I read nothing today. . . again. Well, there's always tomorrow. Until, I approach death, of course.
5. Drawing
   Oh man, I've been wanting to draw in my new sketchbook with my new pencil. I feel good after spending about an hour just drawing whatever came to mind.
6. Music/Sound Design
   I did nothing related to this category.
7. Meditation and Awareness
   Today, I tried to do a Strong Determination Sitting style and managed to sit motionless for about 47 minutes before my mind gave up, pretty good considering most people don't even want to begin meditating for 20 minutes everyday. As for awareness, today was a very boring day for me, and I had no choice but to deal with it with mindfulness. At first, it felt like I was trying to feel a sense of enjoyment but couldn't, then I remembered that mindfulness is supposed to be effortless. Result: Still really boring but for most of the time, deep down I felt no need to actually change anything. If life felt really boring, then I just lived the boredom.