Should i break up with my GF

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On 25/06/2022 at 6:22 PM, evgn said:

Almost one year ago i would say that i found a GF that i was thinking that we will have very long future with her. I thought that i found the girl of my life, i hadnt had serious relationship before that. I thought that i will never have a chance with a girl like this but i took a shot and the things happend, we became a couple.

Everything was great in the beggining but after couple a months i started to feel that i dont want a GF. I feel that my life is better without one, i feel like i am in prison even thoug she is not obsessive at all. She is aware of my situation and she is very supportive. Also she never pushes me for anything. She loves me alot and i can see that, she could do everything for me. Also she is model looking girl and have a brith future as a Doctor. 

I don't enjoy the sex with her eventhough she is very hot. Eveything apart from that is great. 

I dont know why i am so misrable and unhapy with this relationship. I am thinking for breaking up every day but i know that i will never ever find a girl like her.

Yesterday i told her that i am not happy with my life and my relationship with her. She was very upset and start crying. I told her that we are not breaking but i am just saying that i am misrable and depressed.

I dont know what to do.....

@evgn Your unhappiness is not caused by your girlfriend.

You can break up with her now but you'll just add to your misery later.

It's about how much of a rock bottom you need to hit, in order to get the motivation to fix what really needs fixing, which is:

On 26/06/2022 at 7:42 PM, evgn said:

i havent found what i want to do with my life

At a certain level of consciousness, you can not be happy whilst this statement is true.

The question is: do you need to lose your relationship too, before you actually do something about it?

[evgn]

Quick update:

I left my gf two weeks ago and i feel so much better, yes sometimes i miss her but i know its better for her and for me. I am commpasionate towards her and she knows that, but i have problems in my life that i have to overcome and i want to be alone. She is a great person and deserve love from somebody that i am not able to give her

(I am not saying that because i feel sory for her i really believe it. She deserve someone better than me but she don't know it, someone who doesnt have mental disorders.)

I have healing to do and also i need space to develop myself and being able to get out of that hole of desparation that i am right now. 

Thank you for all of your comments. 

Edited July 10, 2022 by evgn