Trip report: Awakening together

[Vynce]

Notes before reading: Just skip to Trip report, if you are already experienced with tripping together.

I never bothered to write here about awakenings, mainly because Leo does this job quite well, and just talking about it really contradicts my goal of becoming more conscious. Talking and writing is contrary to being conscious. Especially in regards to non-dual topics, because you can get this false sense of spiritual improvement with knowing and talking about it. Also no amount of trip reports and ever describe what the essence of a trip really was. 

But since I have not seen many trip reports about simultaneous awakenings with a partner or a friend, I thought someone would be interested in reading about that. In this report I want to focus on the quality of being together in a trip, not how tripping itself feels or what awakening is.

First of, I’m super unsensitive to psychedelics, so I and my friend Jordan both took 700 micrograms of 1V-LSD, which directly metabolizes into LSD (without weakening or adding the usual LSD effect), once it’s in your body. Its completely the same.

!! Please find your personal dose and don’t mess around with other people. There are not your toys to fulfill some fantasie while tripping. We planned this long ahead and have both had awakenings by our own, which is super important for tripping together. !!

You should not be bothering about the well being of others, while you still have to deconstruct reality by your own. Clarify this with your partner beforehand. Dont expect anything from each other. Talk about about the probability, that you both will want to be alone during the trip. 

Trip report:

We were at my home and had wonderful weather and mood conditions. Nothing unordinary to say about that.

20 minutes after taking the substance, I withdrew myself from our living room to focus on my body, which felt quite nauseous. It was also important to not speak or communicate with each other during this fragile comeup of a trip, because intellectual activity has a deadening and corrupting effect on consciousness.    

I dived into “deconstruction mode” and saw bit by bit how direct experience was made up by God-mind, right in front of me, including my friend Jordan. God consciousness was happening. The beauty and infinite intelligence of consciousness was graspable in any form. So I treated Jordan the same as every other figment of consciousness, with love and presence. No talking or human bullshitting.

Jordan seemed happy and in Love as well. It looked like, he as a part of my consciousness directly adapted my state. If I felt love, he felt it. If I was confused, he was confused. We really were just the same being. We also played like children again.  Which we, stripped away of our egos, are. Just children playing.

Holding and touching another human body can be such an intelligent way of communicating. Words cannot hold up to this "super-communication" during a trip. It was crazy how good we understood what the other felt, with direct body contact. 

Then something happened, which completely took me of guard.

I saw myself in him!

I saw every part of me in him. I saw the connection between infinity and love in his face. His face has parts, which my ego would call “beautiful” and “not beautiful”. But in God-consciousness, these duality collapse and form SUPER-BEAUTIFUL. UNIVERSAL-ALL-INCOMPASSING-BEAUTIFULLNESS. 

The sudden burst of infinite love was not bearable. I had to stop looking in his face, because this love felt like I would lose my body and “myself-ness”. Defintely something I want to try and bear for longer. 

Also, in this moment I decided to have a “together-trip” with a female, just to see what levels of love and beauty might rise from opposite sex trip experiences.

Important note at last:

Please don’t share your experience with words and mental abstractions to the other. Let the other be! If he/she wants to talk, just be present, and invite him/her to be present with you. Don’t talk with words. Hold him/her as a sign of peace and good-will. If he/she has a hard time with the trip, words will not help. Peacefulness and presence will. 

Talking and thinking will stop God-consciousness as the trip goes on. And usually you wont come back to it, when your ego has established itself again.

That’s it, thanks for reading ?

Edited June 20, 2022 by Vynce

[Matthew85]

@Vynce Very interesting report. Thank you Vynce! Did Jordan share any of his insights from the trip with you later?

[Vynce]

1 hour ago, Matthew85 said:

@Vynce Very interesting report. Thank you Vynce! Did Jordan share any of his insights from the trip with you later?

I never saw him so joyful and happy, as he was during his awakening. But, to be honest, he has far less experience with god conscious states. So it was really difficult for him to integrate the trip, as his ego mind came back on board. 

This was suuuper interesting for me to witness. I could relate so much with his struggle to regain his sense making abilities. His thinking corrupted his state so much, that he seemed depressed as ordinary consciousness came back. He clinged to the freedom of no ego, while clinging to thinking about how this all works. Which is a battle you can't win. 

It was probably his realisation how little he cared about the beauty of god and reality, and how his life decisions were not aligned with love and consciousness in many points.

This was shocking for him. His ego had to run many extra miles that day. 

I would be interested in his POV now. But you know how hard it is to talk to an ego about the problem with the ego. But in general he is on a good path. Probably the only one of my friends, who could handle such a trip at all. 

Edited June 20, 2022 by Vynce

[Matthew85]

9 hours ago, Vynce said:

I would be interested in his POV now. But you know how hard it is to talk to an ego about the problem with the ego. But in general he is on a good path. Probably the only one of my friends, who could handle such a trip at all. 

Very true. 

Tripping with a partner offers a lot of potential to provide many new insights that solo trips don't don't. I hope you continue to explore this and share your discoveries.