Weird Phenomena While Dissolving Emotions

[Afonso]

So, yesterday I was watching Leo's video on How To Deal With Strong Negative Emotions.

As I breath fully, and focused my awareness on my physical sensations on Chest, Solar Plexus and Heart, something weird happened. My vision got a little distorted, and my heart rate sky rocketed. I mean sky rocketed. I could feel it beating inside my chest. I continued to focus my awareness on the sensation that was most present. First it was on the Solar Plexus, then heart, chest, Solar Plexus again, heart, etc. When I thought it was over, I went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. Then, I stood there, and did the same thing. I focused my awareness on the sensations that I felt the most. I can't explain it, but I felt I wasn't entirely in control of my body. My hands would move symmetrically and end in prayer. I would show facial expressions without my real intervention. I was like something watching all that, yet aware of all thoughts and sensations.

I was scared and went to bed. After waking up, I now feel a shift in awareness. I don't really know if this is a shift in awareness. But I don't feel I have much control. It seems my body and mind do what they're supposed to do. It's like I'm me without effort. I can't put it into words, it's weird.

Did any of you have a similar experience? It's worth noting that I've done 5-MeO twice, the 2nd time was 4 weeks ago.

[Toby]

What is your sense about yourself? How does it feel?

[Afonso]

1 hour ago, Toby said:

What is your sense about yourself? How does it feel?

I'm not clear about how it feels. I don't want to make the false assumption that I'm in a higher consciousness state.

[Toby]

Well, I ask because it's important to discriminate if you are in a state of dissociation/depersonalisation (which is a compensation when the intensity is too high) or if you are in a real and authentic place of reality.

[PureExp]

@Afonso These experiences are very common. Its called Mudra (Sanskrit: A Pose, Google it for more details and similar experiences of others).

IMO, these are indications that some changes are taking place in the central nervous system (aka brain) and some depersonalization/purification is taking place. There are various explanations/theories on why that can happen. But it is normal and expected for those who are into energy work or energy manipulation paths.

All the best

[cetus]

5 hours ago, Afonso said:

I was like something watching all that, yet aware of all thoughts and sensations.

@Afonso Yea, this is important. When you get this feeling again try and surrender to it. I know it feels freaky but that is a good thing.

Awareness may be trying to become liberated from it's confinement of being at your body location only. In other words what is you is expanding.

Think of awareness being like a bird hatching out of it's shell and into the light. Your body and mind are the shell that must be broken.

 

 

[Arman]

Yes, emotional purging can be very physical. It can get weird, very, very weird. I have had lots of different kinds of sensations and experiences during emotional release. The sensations can get indescribably strange but usually come with a vague sense of familiarity. From my experience, oddities during release either occurs from sudden energy flowing as a result of now loosened blockages, or as a result of the charge acting itself out. Sometimes it seems that within certain emotional charges, there are certain kinds of behaviors, actions or muscular programming locked into them. 

Sometimes it may feel as though your face is contorting into a mask - like an expression that feels like it is cemented on your face. I think that is because the muscles are still partly hard coded to the unreleased trauma or energy.  Hand gestures may very likely be an automatic mudra like PureExp suggestion - that can be common in energetic openings within certain spiritual practices. 

I have also experienced sudden heart rate increase. You can also experience severe itching, nausea, sudden fatigue, sudden emotional flare ups, extreme thoughts, just to name a few things, but anything could happen, really. In my experience, as mild or intense as the symptoms can be, there has never been any danger for me. When these things occur, I suggest you don't resist them and allow them to play out. 

Nothing to be worried about. You are doing well and making progress. Get used to strange experiences, as I think for you that may happen often if you choose to continue with emotional releasing. There will be cycles of release, then shifts in awareness. The shifts in awareness may not always last but of course your overall consciousness 'increases in baseline' so to speak.

This kind of work is some of the most insightful things you can do. 

5 hours ago, Afonso said:

It seems my body and mind do what they're supposed to do. It's like I'm me without effort. I can't put it into words, it's weird.

Bit of a sneak peak. Body and mind are mostly autonomous forces. When you become more aware of the energies of the body and release the stagnant ones, you begin to realize that you are not these forces and so you shift into becoming aware of the awareness in an interesting way. 

Edited February 5, 2017 by Arman