Scared of burn out

[Illusory Self]

For someone who has no sense of work ethic & has relied heavily on there parents for basically all of my life, I am terrified of burning out & collapsing. I am 26 & it has been a recurring theme of laziness within my life, I will tell myself I need to be this better version of myself & on some days I just lay in bed all day doing nothing. This has been happening for weeks, like a recurring theme in my life. 

After watching Leo's recent video, it has evoked a spark within me to stop wasting my life so I have been trying to meditate, work on my own business for an hour a day, journal, read for 1 hour a day, working on my social skills ect...  I am on a high with the momentum currently because I have been consistent with it for around 4 days now. 

I guess a part of me is terrified that I am going to slip back into my old ways of doing which is laying in bed all day wasting life, watching yt vids & social media just to pass away the time so I can go back to sleep. I have a lot of time on my hands because I mainly work for my Dad's business & he does not really expect me to do much for him. 

Honestly though I find even 1 hour of focused work on my own business challenging, shall I start with that? I guess a part of me wants to put like 5 hours a day in on the business but I am scared that will lead to a burn out. 

I guess I am so intertwined with my family situation that it feels somewhat toxic towards my personal growth. There is this huge fear of doing things for myself. 

 

Am I doing to much at once ? Ideally I want to do loads to get out of my situation sooner rather than later but I know myself & have backslided so much in the past without any growth.

I know what where I want to be say in 5-10 years - it took a lot of questioning throughout the day but I have a roadmap in my own mind. It is a matter of how much to do in the day to get from point A to point B. 

Every single week in my past I have layed in bed all day for 2-3 days feeling the worst form of depression after trying to grow for around a few days. I guess a part of me is terrified of that happening again. 

 

What is a healthy way of going about this for someone who basically has no work ethic but has a vision on what they want in life. Is it possible to do all of this at once to reap the most benefit? 

Or just start small & count the small wins? Shall I give myself a daily time out from working/personal development?

Building a work ethic feels challenging but I know I must do it in order to grow. I feel like my family giving me everything in life has not helped.

Imagine just being born but being 26, that is kind of what reality feels like to me. Plus some childhood trauma that I need to work through. 

 

Would appreciate what you would do if you were in my situation. 

 

I am trying to mix meditiation, socializing & business work in order to live a more balanced life and to grow in a balanced way 

[Mikey]

@Illusory Self I know I just created a topic of basically the same thing but tbh just start small. The most important part of good work ethic is just being there. That's what my mom always told me. You don't have to be productive, but just be there. Just sit in a chair instead of laying down. Then maybe stand up if you feel like it. Just put your intentions on being present instead of on escapism. You say you haven't grown, but everyone grows. Even if you do backslide, you gain perspective. You have more "inner game" this way. You want the "outer game" but you're not focusing on within. You have to be okay with just being.