How do you deal with negative interactions in social situations?

Illusory Self · June 8, 2022

I have been trying to get out of my tiny little bubble the last few days & actually talking to 'others' which I am finding challenging is when I seem to be explaining things my mind tends to drift of into thinking such things as 'I am boring them' 'it will be better if I stop talking' etc.. especially if the other person looks away or something.

Almost like I am so unsure of myself... I tend to feel incredibly lost in social settings, overanalyzing everything, never knowing what to say, how to be, what my personality is.. should I do this or should I do that.

Will this correct itself with more socializing? will I just naturally get better at explaining things in certain contexts the more I practice.. right now I feel like I suck at talking about things & very bad at leading a conversation. Also very bad at telling stories

Just by practicing socialising the last few days, it has become apparently obvious to me how bad I am at talking to others or expressing myself - it feels like it has shined much more consciousness on my deficincies. This goes to even texting & journaling, writing on here. I find it so incredibly hard to just be. I overanalyze everything in my head 10x.