LSA Trip: Understanding God is Very Challenging

[SQAAD]

Today i tripped on LSA. 

I realised that i am God dreaming up this present moment (this i've had in the past aswell).

The trip was not very intense but it was intense enough to shake the foundations of my Reality and make me question my sanity . After a certain point of the trip i  thought i gone insane and i was fearful of that. The freaky part about it was that this solid difference that i've had in my mind between sanity and insanity disappeared. There was no such solid difference anymore. 

The best way that i can explain it is that my anchor of what reality is just vanished. There was nothing anchoring my sense of what reality is anymore. All i knew was that it was God but i didn't know anything else after that. This was very very challenging. 

My mind really stuggled to make sense of what was happening. 

Understanding what God is, is really a challenge. And it can be super dangerous too. 

This experience has made me appreciate more how challenging tripping and understanding reality can be. It can be brutal and very difficult at times.

Now i respect more Leo's tripping because i got a taste of how challenging it can be for his mind to wrap around Awakening & God . You have to face your mind. And your greatest fears. At least thats my experience so far..

This was one of my most challenging trips so far. I could call it even traumatic to a certain extent. (Nothing too severe  though) Because it just left me very puzzled at the end.....Now i feel like i understand even less than before lol...

Also something else that scared me was that while i was tripping hard, my motor skills were kinda funny.. I felt like retarded because i would make some errors while typing and even peeling an orange with a knife was kinda challenging. Maybe this was a trick of my mind because that is actually one of my biggest fear. Being stupid and not understanding things. This was kinda traumatizing too...

I've felt stupid on other trips before but this was more pronounced. With shrooms i usually don't feel so stupid using my body to do stuff when tripping.. Also with shrooms my experiences tend to be more understandable..Less confusing..

 

 

Edited June 1, 2022 by SQAAD

[RMQualtrough]

Tbh not every drug trip is illuminating, some of them are just random bonkers shit... I had father time come out of a cliffside, then was sat at a picnic table with the grim reaper... Hallways of white with Simpsons characters repeatedly flying past me. It's just random fucking shit sometimes...

Psychs make a person very suggestible. So if you do go in all "God realization here it comes!!!" then it might just conjure up some BS like that even if it's not sensical.

To me whether you get the understanding you want or just random BS seems random to an extent, I never did find a way to make something reliable and repeatable. Basically I wouldn't worry about "understanding less than before", I might just chalk it up to a jumbled mess, bad luck at the craps table init.

[SQAAD]

@RMQualtrough 

57 minutes ago, RMQualtrough said:

Tbh not every drug trip is illuminating, some of them are just random bonkers shit... I had father time come out of a cliffside, then was sat at a picnic table with the grim reaper... Hallways of white with Simpsons characters repeatedly flying past me. It's just random fucking shit sometimes...

Psychs make a person very suggestible. So if you do go in all "God realization here it comes!!!" then it might just conjure up some BS like that even if it's not sensical.

To me whether you get the understanding you want or just random BS seems random to an extent, I never did find a way to make something reliable and repeatable. Basically I wouldn't worry about "understanding less than before", I might just chalk it up to a jumbled mess, bad luck at the craps table init.

For me the most difficult trip, is the one where at the end you are like ''wtf just happened''. Those are the hardest trips. You are left with uncertainty and fear... You are left with even more questions that before lol.

Maybe you are right about the random part. I don't know.

I don't feel that what i've experienced was BS but it was diffucult to wrap my head around what was happening...

Sometimes a trip can be very crystal clear. Other time its very confusing.

[RMQualtrough]

7 minutes ago, SQAAD said:

@RMQualtrough 

For me the most difficult trip, is the one where at the end you are like ''wtf just happened''. Those are the hardest trips. You are left with uncertainty and fear... You are left with even more questions that before lol.

Maybe you are right about the random part. I don't know.

I don't feel that what i've experienced was BS but it was diffucult to wrap my head around what was happening...

Sometimes a trip can be very crystal clear. Other time its very confusing.

Yeah man, the thing especially with LSD (and hence I guess also LSA), if truths are presented they are very abstract... I believe that is why teens who use it at parties have a hard time communicating the ideas which come to them.

Some of the very abstract ideas I had on acid, made sense after I had my DMT breakthrough and learned about the existence of nondual tradition. Then I could see in some of the LSD trips (though not all) a lot that makes sense. And not shoehorning it to be right, but genuinely the ideas were accurate but presented in strange abstract ways. More symbolic, less direct.

But yeah there was still random nonsense. Right now I can't point to any acid realization that I think was definitely delusional BS, but some things which might have been. In all cases though, abstract and symbolic.

To add: IIRC LSD is the only psychedelic which looks to increase brain activity. This may represent how the mind is then working, drawing a LOT of connections across the board and hence very abstract, rather than the states of very low brain activity where the message comes through clear.

Edited June 1, 2022 by RMQualtrough

[SQAAD]

@RMQualtrough

10 minutes ago, RMQualtrough said:

Yeah man, the thing especially with LSD (and hence I guess also LSA), if truths are presented they are very abstract... I believe that is why teens who use it at parties have a hard time communicating the ideas which come to them.

Some of the very abstract ideas I had on acid, made sense after I had my DMT breakthrough and learned about the existence of nondual tradition. Then I could see in some of the LSD trips (though not all) a lot that makes sense. And not shoehorning it to be right, but genuinely the ideas were accurate but presented in strange abstract ways. More symbolic, less direct.

But yeah there was still random nonsense. Right now I can't point to any acid realization that I think was definitely delusional BS, but some things which might have been. In all cases though, abstract and symbolic.

To add: IIRC LSD is the only psychedelic which looks to increase brain activity. This may represent how the mind is then working, drawing a LOT of connections across the board and hence very abstract, rather than the states of very low brain activity where the message comes through clear.

This makes some sense.. When i trip on medium dose of shrooms my experience tends to be more crystal clear.. with not much confusion floating around.... Only problem is that shrooms are illegal in my country and i have to risk getting them while LSA is legal....

 

[Danioover9000]

@SQAAD

1 hour ago, SQAAD said:

Today i tripped on LSA. 

I realised that i am God dreaming up this present moment (this i've had in the past aswell).

The trip was not very intense but it was intense enough to shake the foundations of my Reality and make me question my sanity . After a certain point of the trip i  thought i gone insane and i was fearful of that. The freaky part about it was that this solid difference that i've had in my mind between sanity and insanity disappeared. There was no such solid difference anymore. 

The best way that i can explain it is that my anchor of what reality is just vanished. There was nothing anchoring my sense of what reality is anymore. All i knew was that it was God but i didn't know anything else after that. This was very very challenging. 

My mind really stuggled to make sense of what was happening. 

Understanding what God is, is really a challenge. And it can be super dangerous too. 

This experience has made me appreciate more how challenging tripping and understanding reality can be. It can be brutal and very difficult at times.

Now i respect more Leo's tripping because i got a taste of how challenging it can be for his mind to wrap around Awakening & God . You have to face your mind. And your greatest fears. At least thats my experience so far..

This was one of my most challenging trips so far. I could call it even traumatic to a certain extent. (Nothing too severe  though) Because it just left me very puzzled at the end.....Now i feel like i understand even less than before lol...

   Before the trip, have you prepared yourself well? Like relax yourself to reduce a potential bad trip? What was your mental/emotional/physical state prior to the trip?

   How much LSD did you take, dosage, and how did you take it to have this kind of experience?

   Also, were you diagnosed with any mental disorders? psychological/personality defects? What's your cognition like, like are you a visual/auditory/kinesthetic dominant/learner? What is your states of being like on a daily basis?

   

[SQAAD]

@Danioover9000

5 minutes ago, Danioover9000 said:

@SQAAD

   Before the trip, have you prepared yourself well? Like relax yourself to reduce a potential bad trip? What was your mental/emotional/physical state prior to the trip?

   How much LSD did you take, dosage, and how did you take it to have this kind of experience?

   Also, were you diagnosed with any mental disorders? psychological/personality defects? What's your cognition like, like are you a visual/auditory/kinesthetic dominant/learner? What is your states of being like on a daily basis?

   

I did not take LSD. I took LSA. I don't know the exact dose because it was in capsules. 

I consider myself quite ''normal'' and i was in a decent state prior to the trip.

 

Edited June 1, 2022 by SQAAD

[Maka]

What is a medium mushroom dose to you?

[SQAAD]

@Maka

6 minutes ago, Maka said:

What is a medium mushroom dose to you?

3 grams.

With 3 grams of shrooms i get a decent trip with no weird visuals and 'hallucinations'. Just pure Consciousness. Anything more and things get more and more confusing...

Edited June 1, 2022 by SQAAD

[Maka]

8 minutes ago, SQAAD said:

@Maka

3 grams.

With 3 grams of shrooms i get a decent trip with no weird visuals and 'hallucinations'. Just pure Consciousness. Anything more and things get more and more confusing...

Ah, what is the Max you went for?

[SQAAD]

@Maka

1 minute ago, Maka said:

Ah, what is the Max you went for?

Max i've done was like 5 grams.

[Danioover9000]

@SQAAD

19 minutes ago, SQAAD said:

@Danioover9000

I did not take LSD. I took LSA. I don't know the exact dose because it was in capsules. 

I consider myself quite ''normal'' and i was in a decent state prior to the trip.

 

   Excuse me, not LSD but LSA. How much is in one capsule? If one capsule is one low dose, then any amount less than one capsule is a micro dose. However, is the capsule a powder or liquid? It's much more difficult to micro dose liquids than dry powder.

   Were you referring to LSA as psilocybin mushrooms?

[Danioover9000]

@SQAAD

14 minutes ago, SQAAD said:

@Maka

3 grams.

With 3 grams of shrooms i get a decent trip with no weird visuals and 'hallucinations'. Just pure Consciousness. Anything more and things get more and more confusing...

   what is the low dose for you?

[Razard86]

7 minutes ago, SQAAD said:

@Maka

Max i've done was like 5 grams.

What did you see on 5 grams?

 

[Dazgwny]

2 hours ago, SQAAD said:

with a knife was kinda challenging

Cut the use of that type of equipment out whilst tripping mate ??

[SQAAD]

@Danioover9000

12 minutes ago, Danioover9000 said:

@SQAAD

   Excuse me, not LSD but LSA. How much is in one capsule? If one capsule is one low dose, then any amount less than one capsule is a micro dose. However, is the capsule a powder or liquid? It's much more difficult to micro dose liquids than dry powder.

   Were you referring to LSA as psilocybin mushrooms?

These are the ingredients for one capsule: Hawaiian Baby Woodrose 75 mg, L-tryptophan 50 mg, E959, caffeine 40 mg, L-tyrosine 30 mg, theobromine 15 mg, vitamin B6 10 mg, magnesium stearate, calcium dioxide, hydroxypropylmetylcellulose (vegetarian capsule).

 

I took 4 capsules in total. Mind you, this is not a very heavy dose for me. It gave me a good trip though. I've taken the recommended dose which is 1-2 capsules before but the trip was always too weak....

No i was not referring to LSA as psilocybin mushrooms.

 

Edited June 1, 2022 by SQAAD

[SQAAD]

@Dazgwny

8 minutes ago, Dazgwny said:

Cut the use of that type of equipment out whilst tripping mate ??

Yes you are right. But i was not tripping too hard...

[SQAAD]

@Razard86

12 minutes ago, Razard86 said:

What did you see on 5 grams?

 

Basically on 5 grams all distinctions begin collapsing. Its very hard to distinguish sounds from sights and etc. Forms start breaking down too. I can imagine that if i were to take more than 5 grams i would not be able to distinguish anything anymore which is very freaky..

[SQAAD]

@Danioover9000

18 minutes ago, Danioover9000 said:

@SQAAD

   what is the low dose for you?

Low dose for me is 1-2 grams.

[Leo Gura]

@SQAAD Good. Some progress.

Stay away from knives when tripping.