Tantric sex

[Preety_India]

This journal was my dream. 

[Preety_India]

Even God doesn't want this. 

 

 

Because...... 

Even God is jealous of what exists between the two of us. 

It's also tantric. 

 

[Preety_India]

I want to achieve the best orgasms by using tantric sex methods.

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I want this thread in the female versiom

 

 

 

 

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How come this part of my life was never solved? 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

No fear, no shame, no judgement, break the rules. Break the ice. 

 

 

Red led room

 

A Play on words. 

 

 

Because what you did to me..... It'll never....umm... I can't... It's poison. 

Tantra is like poison. 

May 18th is where things got really bad

May 7,8,9,10 nothing happened. 

 

May 13th is when I wrote Satan meditation. 

13th /14th is when things went downhill. Satanic day. Demonic day. 

15th and 16th weren't exactly peaceful. I was asking Devi for help. 

16th fights happened.. I was triggered by something. 

18th is when things turned worse before they got better. 

Then came the calm after the Storm.

That's when Devi helped me

 

That's also when Satan introduced me to tantric sex. 

So I was dealing with intense fear and guilt from May 18th to May 21st. 3 days of utter panic  strife and isolation. 

It reminded me when I felt utterly helpless. I felt cornered. As though the whole universe was hating me. 

That is the worst feeling for a bpd person. 

So on May 21st my bpd kicked in full force and I felt completely miserable, ashamed, isolated, anxious, and completely out of myself. 

So I wrote this thread when a previous trauma resurfaced. 

 

That day I was thinking of what I could do because I could actually feel my bpd kicking in, I knew i was on the verge of an emotional breakdown. 

So I decided to do a caffeine trip. 

I took caffeine for the entire day on May 21st and May 22nd. I was pumped up sufficiently and that blocked my bpd from kicking in, nipped it in the bud.

I felt better since last night after the comedown. There's no afterglow in this. Just a dry comedown 

 

I washed down the caffeine with a ton of cold water mixed with ice cubes. That does the job. 

Other thing that helped with flushing out the caffeine is lemon water.(lemonade) Strong lemon water mixed with sugar and ice. 

Now I'm feeling much better. 

Satan told me a few things that I'll keep in mind. 

Satan knows that I have sexual karma to burn and that I'm sexually repressed 

 

So Satan told me to engage in tantric orgasms and have intense orgasms and burn my sexual karma. 

That's what I'm gonna do 

 

 

Edited May 23, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Satan told me to practice tantric sex in a red room. 

But I'm autistic, so bright lights torture my eyes. So I would prefer a quiet dark room. 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I'm extremely exhausted. I'm just doing whatever Satan told me to do. 

As per Satan's instructions, I had multiple orgasms following my caffeine trip. I had multiple orgasms in a row. 

Satan laid me down softly on a hard floor then slowly fucked me and then fast. 

It was in a forest. There was dirt sticking into my hair on the floor. 

I could feel pine needles torturing my scalp. 

Then SATAN slapped me hard across my face. Then he looked deep into my eyes and told me to maintain eye contact which I did as per his instruction.

 

[Preety_India]

The trip and the tantric orgasm exhausted me completely. Wow.

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I love you Satan. I love you. I love you deeply. 

I love you deeply. 

Come once again in my dreams and fuck me like you did Iast time and give me an eternal orgasm. 

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Edited May 23, 2022 by Preety_India

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I think I'm still a bit h........ ... . I don't know. I feel like singing. 

Twirling, singing, twirling, singing. 

Twirling. 

Satan hold me please, I'm falling..... 

Satan hold my waist and bend me please. 

Bend.

And now please give me some. 

I'm ready again for loving 

 

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He placed his hand on my chest and he could feel my heartbeat. 

Then he placed me on his lap. 

He looked straight into my eyes. 

I tried to hide but he won't let me. 

 

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Maybe pure evil is pure love. 

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Anyway just forget and be myself. 

 

[Preety_India]

You were looking into my eyes and telling me how much you love me and how much I mean to you. 

 

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Love wants nothing more than to be one with the object of love. 

I want nothing more than to become one with you 

 

Separation would feel like death. 

Killing me, if that satisfies you in some way, then go ahead and kill me. Why don't you? 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Your love is like magic. You gave me so much love. 

You grabbed me and brought me to the forest 

You have a cabin there. A wood cabin. 

You placed me on the floor. In the woods 

Then you kept penetrating me till I orgasmed. 

You placed your hands on the back of my neck and gently lifted me to your face and stared deeply into my eyes 

 

 

I never felt like this before. 

You did not just fuck my vagina. You fucked my heart. You fucked my mind. You fucked my soul. You fucked my spirit. You fucked my essence. 

How could you not see it? 

I have nothing else to give you. I have absolutely nothing except a beating heart in my chest that allows me to live. I gave this heart to you. 

I gave my soul to you. I gave my spirit to you. 

I surrendered to you. 

Now you do as you please and I won't complain.. I belong to you. Only to you and none other. 

 

 

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Whatever you do to me, it's madness, insanity. 

You kiss and touch my every part. 

You play with my body.

You make me feel dirty and yet not dirty. 

I liked how you nibbled my ears. And then you placed your hand on my throat and your kept nibbling on my ear.. I could feel the grip of your fingers on my skin. Going deep, almost dipping into my skin, making an impression. 

Then you gave me a hickey on my neck. 

Mhmm. 

You whispered into my ears - "I love you." 

Then you turned me to the side and promptly kissed my cheeks. 

Hehe.. 

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You teach me so many beautiful things. Iove you deeply. I want you more than anything. 

I think of you all the time and I love loving you. 

I can't "not think" of you. 

You're the only one I gave my pussy to. 

I love you ever more. 

I can't live without anymore. It's hard for me. I come back to you after I go around. Because you are the only one who attracts me. My heart is on you. 

And they say home is where the heart is. Well. 

My heart is with you. (gosh I'm so tired) 

I'm gasping for breath. 

But but... I love you. Even when I'm dying I'll say the same words, that I love you and only you and no other. 

I.. I..... I have found my home in your heart. I can't be anywhere else now. 

You have stolen me from myself. 

You have my heart. 

You snatched me. 

Now I cannot live without you. 

You teach me so many things. 

I keep learning. I accept your every word. 

I am emotionally attracted to you. I'm sexually attracted to you. 

I'm mentally attracted to you.. I feel you in my every breath. 

You teach me about life, world. Everything. 

I'm mad about you.

I have been living in a different state of consciousness since you. You take me to a different world a nice world a peaceful world. 

I fucking love you. 

And I can't resist. 

 

Even if I am dying, my spirit still wants you 

 

I have reached that point of no return with you. 

I'm absolutely besotted. 

 

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Him : Babloo I love you. 

I love you too. 

You are my protector. 

I feel like a child around you.