Story of my Awakening and Miracles

[Jowblob]

So it all starts with my hobby being psychology for like 6 years, i started playing in virtual reality where you're using an avatar in the game using full body vr technology to interact with users in different (gaming) reality. I started doing alot of tests and discovered myself 100% how female psychology/biology works unconsciously. Consider this like Michael Newtons past life regression technique that the discovered. (We humans can discover alot of things by doing things on our own, these things that we discovered will be unknown to people) Basically reaching a higher level of consciousness in certain real life subject.

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For many years i was always thinking about our life purpose or what the purpose of life is, i discovered that the only real purpose of life on this planet is to reproduce. I discovered that low conscious female human brain subconsciously is mostly looking for good genetics, so she mostly will go for males that will show her good genetics in behaviour. The behaviour in male will mostly be based on survival, the main aspect of this is : If i reproduce with him, will my genes survive for thousands of years? This is just a very very small part of female subconscious.  I was always thinking that the purpose of life is to reproduce because there is nothing else important to do here on earth, i was thinking about our ancestors. They have been reproducing for thousands of years just to get me here into this future, so i must not dissapoint them and reproduce myself???? Being a man with 10 children is more important then to be a billionare with 1 child??? 

Oh boy, i was wrong. ( You will know later)

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With my knowledge about female psychology/biology and knowing the purpose of life i applied to a sperm donor clinic, sending them consciously a very narcissistic e-mail. In the e-mail i bragged how much i earned, how good looking i was, that i fighted many times and had 0 losses, told them i achieve everything easily without doing much. After this, they called me for a donation appointment to see how good my sperm was and if they needed it. It was good enough and i could progress further, After sending my donor pasport i got called by a gynaecologist, he said due to corona he couldnt speak to me and sent me straight away to clinical psychologist. He would say things on the phone like : And you are good at fighting?  I realized that he was being very judgemental and because of this e-mail he didnt want to talk to me and sent me straight to clinical psychologist but i also realized that it was a test he specifically said: And you are good at fighting? But ignored the sentence next to it where i said: I can achieve everything i want easily. His last sentence on the phone was: If you can pass clinical psychologist you can become a sperm donor.

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I was hoping that the clinical psychologist would be a female, this would be an ultimate test of the knowledge i have. She called me on the phone and started talking to me in a condescending voice like i was a little beby boy. During this phone call i was aware that she was talking to me like this because i sent a narcisstic email to the clinic and that this was a test. But i didnt know which test it was because it can be a test for many things that i was aware of.

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So after a month or so i went to the appointment with the clinical psychologist. She called my name and i walking behind her, first thing my intuition told me is that she had this narcissistic energy about her. When i walked into the room she asked me : Are you gay? I said: No is this genetic? She said: Some are born gay and some become gay. She said: Can you take off your mask we're sitting 2 meters from each other so there is no danger from Corona. I realized she said this so she can watch my mouth and see things more clearly in behaviour. I said: It doesnt matter to me and throwed the mask on the table. She was looking at the mask with a wtf look because i throwed it. After i throwed it she says: So how did you come to the idea becoming sperm donor? In a very condescending voice like i was a little beby boy. I was 26 at that time and she was 51.  The only option i had from all the options on female psychology/biology is to stand up for myself and pass the assertiveness test, i started telling the story in a very heavy manly pitch with non squinting eyes to the point that she had to look down like she submits. I instantly stopped , she lifts her head up high and looks down on me (Then suddenly a random picture in my thoughts got sent to me out of nowhere the picture showed me a person in virtual reality that had exact her personality, it showed me by this what actions i should undertake to pass this interview against this person)  and then left its back to the normal position and asks: What are your educations?  (I said: Nurse . I said this to show her empathy and to let her know that i was probably an empath and also because this was my first education but i quit it during first year.)  She looked surprised and shocked from my answer.

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So basically she was asking me all sorts of questions and doing tests, i was aware of every test and question and why she was asking them. I could pass everything easily, during this interview i felt that her consciousness wasnt on a very high level but that it was high and that i didnt meet anyone like her before. Because i was aware of everything she was doing to me and what  purpose these tests/questions had. So i decided to take it a step further and apply my knowledge on her and see the results. I was answering all her questions and tests specifically that will make me look good to her subconscious. I noticed that during this interview it felt like i was being lead by higher power or maybe i was in a state of superconsciousness, the higher power was aware that i had this knowledge so it told me exactly what to do. ( it was also sending me pictures randomly to what to do) For example: It showed me a picture of the most beautifull girl that i have ever seen in real life, she was smiling at me without breaking eye contact and saying anything. What i got from this picture was: I have to smile to her without breaking contact until she smiles back. Then i looked into her aroused red lips when she smiled back like i really wanted her really badly making her feel good etc. So to make it short: I was in a state of superconsciouss and was definitally getting helped by something during this interview. At the end of the conversation i was doing short giggles to show her that there is more to this life because i could sense that i passed this easily and i could also see that she was hypnotised. When she said her finale sentence because the time was up, i stand up very fast consciously. (I did this because i knew if i would stand really fast she would experience a breaking connection miracle where she would feel that we disconnect/ her soul is coming back) I don't know how to describe this. So i stand up really fast specifically for this purpose and walk towards the door, my thoughts randomly tell me : She will experience this too look back. I look back and i see that she is staring into nothingness like she was hypnotised the suddenly she lets out a moan of pleasure (because her soul came back/disconnection was felt. She walks towards me and stands really close to me, when she walked into my space for the first time in my life i could feel an energetic field around a human body. It was like 8 inches from her body , it felt like very strong loving heat energy . It felt so strong to me that i felt like i was being burned by love and warmth, i got overwhelmed and was in total bliss. I was also seeing the world in Full HD felt like this was the worlds full color spectrum that looked like Golden Light all the dull colors were much lighter 

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3-4 weeks later i got called and they told me i was accepted as a Sperm Donor. Months after this incident i started awakening and many more miracles happend: Like going out of body 4 times, or seeing the future during conscious dream. In the dream for example they showed me a map of Ukraine and Russia on this map the east side of Ukraine was red they showed me that Russia is going through Ukranian border thats why it is red colored. After this i wake up and my thoughts told me that it was going to happen. I went to work and 6 hours later and i see breaking news Russia is invading Ukraine.

So because i reached a new state of consciousness, i realized what the real purpose of life is ; The real purpose of life is: It doesnt matter just be yourself and develop your consciousness. We are here just for fun learning things and playing the game and developing our consciousness since we are god ourselves being split into different ego's/souls. So we are basically mini gods you can call god our Father.

Abilities that i gained:

-Going out of body if i really put my intent into it.  ( it doesnt really matter anymore, i had this experience and know how it feels like there is no purpose of this)

-Seeing future events , i only had this one time after awakening and it also doesnt really matter. By showing me this future event the lesson was: There is more to this life/develop your consciousness

- Seeing/feeling how developed someones consciousness is in real life is a major one and how to respond to them to fit their level of consciousness.

-Materializing holographic picture in total white color: to clarify - If i look at the picture of the clinical psychologist and after that i look at the wall of my room it materializes on the wall the same as she is on the picture and then it starts floating on the wall to the sides. Lesson for me from this: There is more to this life/develop your consciousness

 

In 2 months i also have my first ayahuasca/psychedelic trip i wonder how all this will apply to what i will see!

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if you took your time to read through all of this, thank you and know that there is more to this life!

 

 

Edited May 22, 2022 by SpermDonor

[Fernanda]

@SpermDonor I really enjoyed reading your post. I had some crazy experiences too. This state of superconsciousness seems to be available whenever we have a strong intention and a total complete attention to what is happening in the present moment. Attention is an incredible super power. Usually people have no idea what they want (lack of intention) and are super distracted even by a bug or anything. I have these experiences when I am making sales pitch. I know which clients I want and those I don't want and why, because I can read people intuitively. And when I do want a deal, I just get them to consent by saying the exact words they want to hear. I have an open script. When I don't have the intention to close the deal for some reason it doesn't happen. I can also forsee exactly what I need to do to get what I want. I always "use someone to talk to" to get answers for myself, as if I was really talking to myself. And I do get the answers. Then, I am left with my own decision: am I willing to do what it takes to get what I want?

It happened to me once that I was listening to a song abd thinking about soneone and then I got a message from this person: "I am inside a White car 500 meters from you. I knew you would be here. Get inside."

Totally crazy stuff. For me, that's when lifr feels real and surreaaaal!

Thank you for sharing so many details of your experience. I appreciate that.

[Preety_India]

What's going on with your name? 

I don't know who you are. 

And i am mentally disturbed after meeting you. 

 

 

[Jowblob]

On 24-5-2022 at 2:43 AM, Fernanda said:

@SpermDonor I really enjoyed reading your post. I had some crazy experiences too. This state of superconsciousness seems to be available whenever we have a strong intention and a total complete attention to what is happening in the present moment. Attention is an incredible super power. Usually people have no idea what they want (lack of intention) and are super distracted even by a bug or anything. I have these experiences when I am making sales pitch. I know which clients I want and those I don't want and why, because I can read people intuitively. And when I do want a deal, I just get them to consent by saying the exact words they want to hear. I have an open script. When I don't have the intention to close the deal for some reason it doesn't happen. I can also forsee exactly what I need to do to get what I want. I always "use someone to talk to" to get answers for myself, as if I was really talking to myself. And I do get the answers. Then, I am left with my own decision: am I willing to do what it takes to get what I want?

It happened to me once that I was listening to a song abd thinking about soneone and then I got a message from this person: "I am inside a White car 500 meters from you. I knew you would be here. Get inside."

Totally crazy stuff. For me, that's when lifr feels real and surreaaaal!

Thank you for sharing so many details of your experience. I appreciate that.

@FernandaThank you, i've also missed alot of important details unfortunately. One of the important details is after she looked down on me and asked the question and i started talking again i had my hands laying on the table in this position after defending myself from the condenscending behaviour while i was talking and my hands were in this position they randomly started moving to the right bending my wrist. I tried pushing them back to the normal position but i couldn't do it and  my hands started shaking because i couldn't control my hands and then she  kept staring at my hands. This never happened in my entire life once, it was like another force was controlling my hands.

Edited May 26, 2022 by Jowblob

[Maka]

When you do nutmeg and use new age spirituality from Reddit.

 

[Jowblob]

7 hours ago, Maka said:

When you do nutmeg and use new age spirituality from Reddit.

 

Mocking my awakening, being judgemental about someones awakening even though you didnt have my perspective says alot about your general level of consciousness

[Maka]

2 hours ago, Jowblob said:

Mocking my awakening, being judgemental about someones awakening even though you didnt have my perspective says alot about your general level of consciousness

Please don’t make this funnier

 female biology isn’t an awakening

[Jowblob]

5 minutes ago, Maka said:

Please don’t make this funnier

 female biology isn’t an awakening

You're making a clown out of yourself for not reading the whole story. It's not about female biology or psychology.

[Maka]

6 minutes ago, Jowblob said:

You're making a clown out of yourself for not reading the whole story. It's not about female biology or psychology.

I actually read the whole thing twice

 

”I look back and i see that she is staring into nothingness like she was hypnotised the suddenly she lets out a moan of pleasure”

 

 

I was hesitant to call you out in my first reply like that but you gave it no choice, I couldn’t resist not laughing especially at stuff like this and then you say I’m the clown? Oh God. 
 

 

and oh, actually I did pass through a brief phase like yours so I had your perspective and once I finished reading the first time I was like to myself “this is one of my past selves”

Edited May 27, 2022 by Maka

[Batman]

From your story, it is clear you haven't awakened. Awakening is a lot simpler and deeper than all your stories.

Ayahuasca will take you on a ride, but there is no guarantee you will awaken on it.

[Jowblob]

10 minutes ago, Maka said:

I actually read the whole thing twice

 

”I look back and i see that she is staring into nothingness like she was hypnotised the suddenly she lets out a moan of pleasure”

 

 

I was hesitant to call you out in my first reply like that but you gave it no choice, I couldn’t resist not laughing especially at stuff like this and then you say I’m the clown? Oh God. 
 

 

and oh, actually I did pass through a brief phase like yours so I had your perspective and once I finished reading the first time I was like to myself “this is one of my past selves”

You're totally oblivious to the context if you're quoting that, i could easily tell that your consciouaness is not on good level since your ego is soaring so badly. It seems that you also hold peoples awakenings to your own perspective and standard. There is no point in talking to people like you, just gonna suck my energy out of me

[Raptorsin7]

Why didn't you have sex with the psychologist 

[Maka]

6 minutes ago, Jowblob said:

You're totally oblivious to the context if you're quoting that, i could easily tell that your consciouaness is not on good level since your ego is soaring so badly. It seems that you also hold peoples awakenings to your own perspective and standard. There is no point in talking to people like you, just gonna suck my energy out of me

LMAO

[Fernanda]

14 hours ago, Jowblob said:

I tried pushing them back to the normal position but i couldn't do it and  my hands started shaking because i couldn't control my hands and then she  kept staring at my hands. This never happened in my entire life once, it was like another force was controlling my hands.

Yes. I see. When we have this kind of presence there is this perception that things are moving and taking shape by itself,  the hands, the feet, the smile, the words are just happening, right?

[Jowblob]

16 minutes ago, Fernanda said:

Yes. I see. When we have this kind of presence there is this perception that things are moving and taking shape by itself,  the hands, the feet, the smile, the words are just happening, right?

@FernandaYes exactly, it was like fully automatic even though i was in a superconscious state that i have never experienced before all the thoughts came of nowhere it was like i was getting told what to do. It came out to be perfect like it was supossed to be like that

Edited May 27, 2022 by Jowblob

[Fernanda]

8 minutes ago, Jowblob said:

exactly, it was like fully automatic even though i was in a superconscious state that i have never experienced before all the thoughts came of nowhere it was like i was getting told what to do. It came out to be perfect like it was supossed to be like that

Yes. Sometimes thoughts and actions become pure unbiased INFORMATION.

[Arthogaan]

@Maka @Batman  Wheter he makes someone moan by talking with him or not is irrelevant for his awakening. But the fact is for some people with psychic talent weird shit starts to happen when they awaken. So it is ignorant for you to assume wheter he is awakened or not by his external world story. Because awakening is felt inside. And you don't know his direct experience. So it would be cool to raise your openmindedness for a newcomer of the forum and do not assume he is lying when you simply do not know.

[Michael Jackson]

@Jowblob Although your writing was interesting to read, I have to interrupt you for a second.

Apart from your egocentric views and perhaps even narcissism, (and I am not the only person here who will tell you that, think about it!) nothing what you wrote above has even the slightest thing to to with awakening.

You have no idea what God is, and you have not awakened. Stop conflating relative experiences with awakening.

[Jowblob]

30 minutes ago, Michael Jackson said:

@Jowblob Although your writing was interesting to read, I have to interrupt you for a second.

Apart from your egocentric views and perhaps even narcissism, (and I am not the only person here who will tell you that, think about it!) nothing what you wrote above has even the slightest thing to to with awakening.

You have no idea what God is, and you have not awakened. Stop conflating relative experiences with awakening.

30 minutes ago, Michael Jackson said:

@Jowblob Although your writing was interesting to read, I have to interrupt you for a second.

Apart from your egocentric views and perhaps even narcissism, (and I am not the only person here who will tell you that, think about it!) nothing what you wrote above has even the slightest thing to to with awakening.

You have no idea what God is, and you have not awakened. Stop conflating relative experiences with awakening.

You're projecting hard my friend, you don't need to tell me that it sounds narcissistic when i'm more then aware of every behaviour i display consciously. There is also nothing wrong with people that are being narcissistic consciously, in fact its very important for your health. Who are you to claim or assume that i don't know what God is or if i'm awakened or not when you don't even know me? It's not even important to me how people view me or see me, whats important to me is that people are acting out unconsciously without thinking about their own behaviour they display. Learn to be accepting of others peoples experiences without projecting your own views from your own perspectives and standards. Like @Arthogaan@Fernanda

[Michael Jackson]

3 minutes ago, Jowblob said:

You're projecting hard my friend, you don't need to tell me that it sounds narcissistic when i'm more then aware of every behaviour i display consciously. There is also nothing wrong with people that are being narcissistic consciously, in fact its very important for your health. Who are you to claim or assume that i don't know what God is or if i'm awakened or not when you don't even know me? It's not even important to me how people view me or see me, whats important to me is that people are acting out unconsciously without thinking about their own behaviour they display. Learn to be accepting of others peoples experiences without projecting your own views from your own perspectives and standards. Like @Arthogaan@Fernanda

@Jowblob

On 21.5.2022 at 10:19 PM, Jowblob said:

look back and i see that she is staring into nothingness like she was hypnotised the suddenly she lets out a moan of pleasure

Even if she gave you a blowjob after her "moan", it still wouldn't be awakening. You have a large ego and I understand that you want to satisfy it by thinking of yourself as "awakened" but you simply aren't. Everything you wrote above is a testimony of narcissism and egotism, which has nothing to do with God. Grow up!