Can anyone relate to this?

[Someone here]

I notice that the more I  grow up ..the less "real " things seen to me .this results in an extreme fascination of reality .like I am walking in the street and everything seems blurry and mysterious and dream-like.

 I guess I'm going through a Derealization period. Although it's mild. Not so intense. But basically I feel that something fishy is going on here with this existence .like I might be stuck in a cosmic  conspiracy against Me . When I walk down the streets..I can't hold eye contact with people because I'm afraid that all these  people are conspiring against me. 

I know these ideas have underlying causes that I have yet to work on them. But for Me right now just sharing an update in my path .

Any advice or thoughts appreciated ?

Edited May 10, 2022 by Someone here

[Kksd74628]

@Someone here

So called derealization is good thing, because you stop assuming "world" to be certain way over someting different. Existence should feel dream like, because that is what is left after all major assumptions are taken away. Thinking that "other" people are having conspiracy against you is just more thoughts and imagination. End of the day it is just best to quiet your overworking mind and relax into silence.

-joNi-

[mostly harmless]

The older you get, the more you know the place. A tendency to not pay as much attention to the world seems logical. 

I don't know if that is what you are experiencing. 

[Osaid]

I think Leo said in his stage Yellow or Turquoise video that reality might seem more like a "video game" or "cardboard cut-out", and I think I notice that as well. I don't know if I like or hate it, it just feels weird. Back when I didn't discover spirituality things felt much more "real", because I was imagining and believing in so many different stories when I would perceive everything, but now I'm very aware that I'm imagining those things. I'm not sure how to make reality seem so "real" again. It doesn't feel as alive anymore, I guess. I get that there is nothing wrong with imagining stories, but it's become a habit to not imagine as much, I think.

 

[VeganAwake]

Maybe you subconsciously feel guilty about something. Possibly religious disobedience?

Just a thought!!

❤ 

[Mu_]

3 hours ago, VeganAwake said:

Maybe you subconsciously feel guilty about something. Possibly religious disobedience?

Just a thought!!

❤ 

Wait who is this imposter.  The real veganawake would of said there is no you and there for no one to have a subconsciousness to feel guilty about.

[Inliytened1]

@Someone here

14 hours ago, Someone here said:

. But basically I feel that something fishy is going on here with this existence .like I might be stuck in a cosmic  conspiracy against Me . L

How could this bother you if you have awoken to the fact that you are alone as God and others are projections of your mind?

So..as @Kksd74628 said - these are ALSO projections of your mind.  Go meta on those thoughts- step outside of them and see them for what they are.  That should bring you some peace as you move through this stage.

[gettoefl]

my take is, everything is stacked in my favor every event is for my development every person is on my team

despite mind interpreting everything around me as going to hell

mind is flat out deluded

i know unquestioningly this is where i am meant to be this is what i am meant to receive all this is for maximum benefit

[Loba]

Keep beautiful things in your environment to align yourself to a higher place.  Things that are aligned are good for you, because they serve as a "stamp" to remind you that there is a bigger picture going on - and to aim to understand and embrace it.

This is where bhakti yoga comes in, from my understanding - a humility and reverence for the other side and all that it entails, and then a jumping in without knowing. 
I find that pictures, looking at them to 'see' that I am aligned is helpful when dealing with the dysphoria that sometimes comes with spirituality.

As above, so below.
Reality is magick.

Reality is like a clay, almost - everything is "alive".

Edited May 10, 2022 by Loba

[VeganAwake]

5 hours ago, Mu_ said:

Wait who is this imposter.  The real veganawake would of said there is no you and there for no one to have a subconsciousness to feel guilty about.

Hehe love it & glad to still see you around here and there ❤ 

Exactly, there isn't a real someone that experiences feelings of guilt....thats the dream story.

Enlightenment isn't exclusive, it's inclusive. Feelings & emotions still arise, there just recognized as having never been arising for a someone. 

So feelings just come and go with ease & without getting caught up on the sticky illusion of self taking ownership of them.

A lot of the feelings do change drastically though as there is no longer this personalized self agenda which needs to be met.

It's freedom from no one & for no one!

❤