Curing bpd(figuring it out)

[Preety_India]

Methods. 

 

Edited May 4, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Who will know you other than the all knower? 

This is how I think about things. 

You have to let go and surrender to the all knower.

[Preety_India]

Love doesn't happen by a decision. Love just happens. 

If everything had to happen by decision, then we can't call it love. 

At least it's not called Fallin in love then.

Love never happened by decision 

 

 

[Preety_India]

This is the end of my journey on the forum. 

I'll forever sink into anonymity. 

 

[Preety_India]

The world will never understand me. Tough realizations.

Those who belong to my soul family and soul space will eventually walk with me. 

 

[Preety_India]

I will call myself.. Ahm... A puppy. A lovesick puppy. 

A paranoid puppy. Bah. 

OK I thought about Cuppy. Then I thought... Hmm..... Puppy. Alright. Puppy. 

Hello Puppy, 

So this person who is talking to me is me. I call it Entity Me. 

 

 

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Entity Me was talking to me.....

Entity Me - why are you excited Puppy? 

Me - what the fuck do you mean? 

Entity Me - laughing 

Me - why the fuck are you laughing? 

Entity Me - because you are so silly Puppy. Nobody gives a damn about you. You are dancing at a party that you weren't even invited to. Look at you 

Me - shut the hell. I am doing fine. I wasn't doing anything wrong 

Entity me - you are a certified nut 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Entity D that I invoked during Satan meditation had helped me a lot 

 

Now I have an imaginary character Entity Me who talks to me. 

Entity Me calls me a puppy 

 

 

Edited May 4, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

I feel so free 

[Preety_India]

Talking to myself. 

Puppy, 

Entity Me is like a self critical voice inside of me. It's refreshing to be able to criticise myself. 

This will me unpack and process my emotions better. 

With my emotion disorder 

I need to do the following steps 

1. Be aware of the emotion. Realize. 
2. Unpack the emotion. (figure out why I'm feeling or the root cause of the emotion) 
3. Process the emotion, vent about it and let it be properly addressed and dealt with, resolution. 

 

 

Edited May 4, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

I have three entities here. Entity D that I invoke during Satan meditation. 

Entity Me that self critical voice inside of me. 

Entity Ak or all knowing entity. 

These entities help me understand the world around me and myself. 

 

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Puppy, nobody will understand you truly. It is what it is. 

There will always be good things in life. 

There will always be projections and assumptions about you puppy and you will never be able to fix it and as usual you'll always be attracted to narcissists and all other kinds of people and you will never be able to find peace with them. Because they will never fill that hole. 

I have understood that the only person who will truly understand me will be someone who unconditionally loves me till the end and nothing less and puts a mega effort in understanding my every emotion or state or feeling. Such a person is rare. 

It's like you want a red car but everywhere you go you only see yellow cars. So you just don't have that option. 

And yes humanity sucks although there are decent people out there too. 

The person who loves you unconditionally shouldn't be someone who plays mind games or ego games with you Puppy. 

 

 

Edited May 4, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Only the all knower will understand you. 

Because they know you and so they don't judge you or assume things about you. 

Entity D

Entity Me 

Entity Ak 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Moh is a hindi word that means attachment. 

I have a condition of moh

 

[Preety_India]

I'm in love with Jim. I can't believe it. 

[Preety_India]

Time for me to sleep. I'm in a dream. 

A beautiful dream. 

 

 

 

May this dream never end. 

 

[Preety_India]

Woke up and now I got stuff to do. 

 

[Preety_India]

Music is slowly healing my brain. 

Music brings comfort to my mind and heart. It always has. 

Music keeps me in a good mood that is crucial to my mental health. 

I had fever breakdowns since listening to music. 

 

[Preety_India]

Right now I'm just angry. I feel like punching a wall. 

I don't know why. 

 

[Preety_India]

I feel a bit confident today. But I'm so done with theeeeeeee worlddddddd omg