45 Min Meditation A Day / 2 Months

[Soulbass]

Day 36 & 37 : Meditation went right.

Few insights I had last night, while REM :

1) I was in a dream where few people with psychic/energetic abilities where helping me to figure out hidden part / dysfunctional parts of my psyche. At first, they thought it was all right. But then, something get noticed, a sort of demon where hidden down, and it was hard to notice it because it come from nowhere. It was a demon which is associated with "addiction" and which I named "rush" because it's like the rush to open an email, the rush to eat, the rush to go to work, the rush to do something quicker than necessary. I was first person view of the demon (for few seconds, then I woke-up). I also learned that this "demon" or "psyche" came from my grand-mother (mother's side). I don't know if these people in the dream where real, but it put light on something that I "felt" before, but haven't put words on it.

2) At the middle of the night, while not sleeping (short awoken state between sleep cycles) I felt asleep while thinking "What do I really want ?" & "Follow your bliss" sorts of mantra. The result where a dream where the answer was "Rediscover / Reconnect, with the beauty in ourselves" by beauty I mean the beauty in human being / life form, in general. I also remember Leo's video on 10 things we want but that we don't know that we want : it connected immediately with "existence to feel magical again" (while the previous insight was more about "slow down" or "slow life"). This dream almost shed tears to my eyes.

3) This one was more like a fictional story, like a movie, similar to Interstellar. Here is the plot : in 1972, a nasa team went to Mars. Once they are on the planet, the communication between Earth & Mars was about 4 minutes latency. Then an accident happen, they all died (on Mars). Then, nowadays, nasa receive message (radio frequency / video) from Mars again, the same team, exept that they say living in 1973, one year after the accident (we are in 2017 now). The strange thing is that the communication is in real time, it is because the guys from the 70' traveled through time/dimension, and they had seen this moment (the communication ha penning) before it happens, and it's a pre-recorded message (but it feel like a direct - real time communication for us, living in 2017, because we ask things, and they answer directly, all simply. Dunno if that's clear^^. A funny thing was that the guys from the 70, on Mars, after the accident, appeared in the message/video without equipment, and had the typical hippy look, like in this picture. Hey @Loreena I've seen this picture yesterday from thread "Al-lad Response" :

On 3/2/2017 at 4:53 AM, Loreena said:

                                

Edited March 5, 2017 by Soulbass

[Loreena]

9 minutes ago, Soulbass said:

A funny thing was that the guys from the 70, on Mars, after the accident, appeared in the message/video without equipment, and had the typical hippy look, like in this picture. Hey @Loreena I've seen this picture yesterday from thread "Al-lad Response" :

On the basis of the above incident, it can be safely assumed that the team sent to Mars in 1972 consumed soup accidentally laced with LSD. 

[Soulbass]

What, I've lost the count of days I haven't meditated, and it's not going to happen today, cause I said to friends I'll go to poker after work.

So, I decided to make a list of (daily) things I'll definitely not do, after work :

- To do not check emails, Facebook, Reddit... too much hooks in there. Even this forum (once a week is enough).

- If I want to chill, I'll listen to some music, instead of watching the latest Pewdiepie.

- Thinking twice before saying "yes" for hanging out...

- Experiment more with 3x 20 minutes with guided audio (I haven't tried at day time).

edit: just noticed the latest Leo's insight on meditation "What's The Best Time To Meditate?" it's cool.

Edited March 8, 2017 by Soulbass

[Soulbass]

Summary of this journal : after 37 days of meditation, I've lost track and haven't meditated for a week.

Tomorrow's monday, I'll be back on track until 60 days.

Day 38 : Meditation went right.

Edited March 14, 2017 by Soulbass

[Soulbass]

Day 39 : Meditation went right.

Day 40 : Meditation went right.

I contemplate how reality is self-constructed, and the idea of inner & external world.

Day 41 : Meditation went cloudy, but ok.

I discovered on my own a technique : relax and breathing with the stomach.

For few years I had a constant little pain in stomach, annoying, daily, but didn't known what it is.

This breathing technique allowed me to relax, and I discovered that the problem was tensions in the muscles (stomach is a muscle).

Maybe a constant stress I have accumulated, or "restricted" in my body / energy.

Maybe what I perceive in the external world, is the cause of my pain in stomach.

For example, if I see society as "evil" and don't allow myself to be part of it, and enjoy it, it would create a problem in my structure (this is subtle in the subconscious, ofc).

Edited March 17, 2017 by Soulbass

[Soulbass]

Day 42 : Meditation went right.

The habit is taking root : even if I'm tired, and it's late, I still want to meditate 45 minutes.

It was cloudy this time, again.

Day 43 : Meditation went ok.

Now that the habit is taking place, it let room for "practice" and "quality consciousness".

I notice sometimes it goes mechanical meditation.

About the breathing relaxation technique I've found 2 days ago, here is how I could explain it :

Explore the pain with consciousness, and breath with it. Go into it, and live it. Allow it to be "pain" and use breath to dissolve it (in this case, pain in the stomach, which is linked with psyche).

It's like non-resisting to the pain, and embrace it fully, then let it go.

Day 44 : Meditation went right.

Edited March 19, 2017 by Soulbass

[Soulbass]

Day 45 : Meditation went right.

[Soulbass]

Day 46 : No meditation.

Day 47 : Meditation went really well. It was outside this time, sunny day. I had to close my eyes a little bit because of the sun, so I stayed focus on the ground near me. A lizard went on me, like if I were a rock. I feel more synchronicity & wider spectrum of consciousness (subtle).

Day 48 : Meditation went cloudy, but ok.

Edited March 23, 2017 by Soulbass

[Soulbass]

I realize that doing "45 minutes meditation a day" is not enough, but it's all my energy that daily need to be put into consciousness work.

Health, food, sleep, work, habits, meditation, contemplation... all that kind of stuff.

I can't be low-self all the time and suddenly do meditation, it's no sense.

Day 49 : I failed meditation again, because of backslash.

Someone said on the forum that to simply wake-up early and do exercise is enough to feel "strong" and continue the day that way.

I notice to wake-up early, I need to go early.

I remember the time (few years ago) when I was happy waking-up with the sun, it was very powerful moments.

Now I've lost track of my spirituality, and all I do is fake-spirituality (attempting meditattion is nothing if I'm not 100% engaged, I mean all day long).

I want some changes in my life.

The "power of intention" let's talk about that.

I don't decide for myself, but the subconscious does. Why did I decided to be here?

Lack of lucidity? Yep.

Edit: I'll do one week of meditation without posting in this journal, I'll do a summed post at the end of the week.

Edited March 25, 2017 by Soulbass

[Soulbass]

I haven't meditated much this week.

Someone on this journal told me that I have to customize my meditation practice a lot, to make it fit my life (and sustain this habit over time).

I haven't noticed until recently, but it's true that things are highly customizable.

Last week I ranted against my "fake-spirituality" which means "forcing myself to meditate" but in fact, all I have to do is following my intuition and do it my own way.

I haven't figured out the life-style of meditation I want to implement yet, but I'll keep you in touch in this journal.

Thanks @Zane for suggesting 3x 20 mins / day, morning, noon & evening. I'm happy it works for you. It's maybe a coincidence, but I was using a lot guided visualization/meditation past months. I'll look towards this direction now.

Edited March 31, 2017 by Soulbass

[ctro]

Suggestion, remove distractions from your home so that you get bored and then meditate (I dont have a working internet connection at home)

[Soulbass]

On 4/1/2017 at 3:09 PM, ctro said:

Suggestion, remove distractions from your home so that you get bored and then meditate (I dont have a working internet connection at home)

A minimalist life-style is inspiring.

I noticed a busy environment makes a busy mind.

I plan to apply abroad within the next few months, my suitcase will be all I have.

I'll take care of what to bring, and what to bring not, in the suitcase and in the mind.

Thanks

Edited April 5, 2017 by Soulbass