Welcome to reality

[Gabith]

Welcome to existence, if you read me it is that you exist too, in the only and same Reality which "is" without beginning nor end.

You have a human body, what a pain in the ass! You must spend your life suffering physically and mentally. You get sick almost every year, if not every year, you have to provide security, work, please people to have friends or sex, a sense of love which is conditional. And if your essential needs are not met, hello negative emotions and the descent into hell

I would like so much that death would free me from this burden but bad news, even that I can't believe anymore because after "spiritual" awakening I realized that there is no possibility of non-existence, we live for eternity through forms. For eternity we embody fucking bodies, no way out of suffering.
Some people call it paradise, I call it hell.

Paradise would be to have no consciousness of being, we would be free of all thoughts and sufferings. We would no longer exist. Peace. Nothing more to do, no more resistance, fear, or suffering..

[Kksd74628]

@Gabith

If you don't like the life you are having right NOW it may seem pure hell to continue that life forever, but the thing is that, if you ask the one who is enjoying their life to the fullest, they will say that they want to live as long as possible. The point I am trying to make is that you will have infinite amount of dreams, but what is the problem, if you enjoy many of these. We could dive deeper to the topic by me asking you what is the saddest/most horrible thing in your life? 

[Vincent S]

1 hour ago, Gabith said:

You have a human body, what a pain in the ass! You must spend your life suffering physically and mentally. You get sick almost every year, if not every year, you have to provide security, work, please people to have friends or sex, a sense of love which is conditional. And if your essential needs are not met, hello negative emotions and the descent into hell

What if these were attachments, and could be worked on?

1 hour ago, Gabith said:

I would like so much that death would free me from this burden but bad news, even that I can't believe anymore because after "spiritual" awakening I realized that there is no possibility of non-existence

How can you be so sure that what you are experiencing right here/right now, isn't non-existence?

1 hour ago, Gabith said:

Paradise would be to have no consciousness of being

Of course paradise is here right now. We just need to remove the attachments and barriers seemingly "separating us" from it.

1 hour ago, Gabith said:

we would be free of all thoughts and sufferings. We would no longer exist. Peace. Nothing more to do, no more resistance, fear, or suffering..

You are free from thoughts. You are not your thoughts. Thoughts are like clouds, passing by your Infinite awareness.
Thoughts are "your" mind's reflexes to what is happening within the realm of the dream of the separate self.
You programmed and are programming this dream on the go. Maybe you have created a dream too hard in difficulty for you to bare.
Lower the difficulty and enjoy what life is right now. Focus on creating a better now.

Edited April 4, 2022 by Vincent S

[Gabith]

1 hour ago, Vincent S said:

Lower the difficulty and enjoy what life is right now. Focus on creating a better now.

I've already lowered the difficulty, I hate to work I never work all I do is making videos on youtube but I can't do this because it's too cold outside and always raining, it's been 6 months that we have low temperatures in this shitland Belgium there is no more seasons like when I was younger.
Creating a better now ? I have enough of this, always working on myself, always trying to love / accept the present moment, it's horrible I don't want to do anything anymore I hate all of this 

[Kksd74628]

@Gabith

What negative thoughts and feelings accpeting present moment as it is gives to you? Also what kind of videos are you making usually to youtube?

[Gabith]

@Kksd74628 Too much thoughts and feelings, too much reasons why I can't bare existence anymore 

street interviews 

[Kksd74628]

@Gabith

That's why we meditate when we are feeling overwhelmed, because we need relief when there is too much stress. Also you could interview me on whatsapp when we get it working on, but I don't want to be recorded though.

[Vincent S]

3 hours ago, Gabith said:

Too much thoughts and feelings, too much reasons why I can't bare existence anymore 

Try to sit and meditate like @Kksd74628 said, and find the part of you who is Balanced, Still and Unshakable in every situation, thought or mental activity. This Centered-Still-Point is what you are, this is your true force. Whatever it is you are going through, this too shall pass my friend.

[Kksd74628]

@Gabith

Power of letting go is not running away things until you survive, but to face these things until you see their true face which is not as scary as you thought in your mind. Life can feel exhausting when you have tried so much - based on your own internal analysis - but you still haven't reached the calm zone. The thing is that you haven't tried the right approach and you have exhauted yourself with your own deseptions. It is weird that when people are feeling negative emotions that they don't just start doing nothing; I mean I would and that is also called as meditation. Don't try to actively run away your sorrow, but surrender, feel it deeply until it dissolves.

[Gabith]

thank u