Adventures in Vegas 4

[yolosmoothie]

I just watched the video and something about it just strikes me as off. Props to Leo for putting himself out there, but I just get the sense that he is trying to fake having fun in order to get laid. It kinda smells pickupy, like you can smell the agenda. He doesn't really look like he fits in there. Not saying he should fit in, but why would you even want to spend your time in clubs with a bunch of drunk people you have so little interest in, other than as sexual objects? 

Edited April 3, 2022 by yolosmoothie

[Inliytened1]

@yolosmoothie I haven't watched this 4 part series yet but my guess is that its so he can get out the house and socialize.  At least he isn't getting wasted himself and then driving drunk etc.  If one can go to these places and stay sober than that's good I guess.   

But yeah I think it's a phase he will grow out of and then move on to other outlets that are more fulfilling then clubs and bars.  I've spent decades in them taking home girls - to the point where it's just not even that fun anymore to me.  Thats not to say i wont do it now and again - but he's still living out these years and getting it out of his system. 

[yolosmoothie]

I feel ashamed of this comment. Think Leo evoked something in myself that I have not yet embodied 

[yolosmoothie]

It is actually really really cool that Leo can go out completely sober and have a good time with girls. I can't do that. I have to at least have some alcohol and some friends with me when I go out. I have no chance talking to any girls sober on a night out. It is too much for my system. I get overwhelmed. All the people, the pretty girls, their jolly mood, and my painful contracted heart. Last week I met my colleagues/new friends for 1 hour sober and I couldn't socialize. I was just trying to meditate my way trough the experience until I could get some drinks to soothe my overwhelmed system and contracted heart. 

Edited April 3, 2022 by yolosmoothie

[yolosmoothie]

Yeah filming like that here would be sooo funny. If I just imagine someone doing that to me ????

Edited April 3, 2022 by yolosmoothie

[yolosmoothie]

I used to be into puastuff. I did a lot of day game, but I'm literally laughing out loud imagining that I used to do that. I could never do that now. OrI don't want to do that. I want things to be more natural. I trust that life will bring what is best for me as long as I do what I love. 

[yolosmoothie]

I am ashamed of that part of my life. I feel like I have to hide the reality of doing that. A lot of things I did during that period of my life, I don't tell anyone about me. I was not trying to hurt anybody, but I  was very insecure, stil am, but a lot less. I feel so weird and compassionate about my mindset and what I was doing back then. The pain that drove me. Trying to get a higher laycount was part of my motivation, literally, like wtf. Because I was so ashamed about how few girls I had slept with. It must mean that I'm not good enough, unlovable, disguieting, alone (deficiency stories ;)) 

Edited April 3, 2022 by yolosmoothie

[Vincent S]

16 minutes ago, yolosmoothie said:

It is actually really really cool that Leo can go out completely sober and have a good time with girls. I can't do that. I have to at least have some alcohol and some friends with me when I go out. I have no chance talking to any girls sober on a night out. It is too much for my system. I get overwhelmed. All the people, the pretty girls, their jolly mood, and my painful contracted heart. Last week I met my colleagues/new friends for 1 hour sober and I couldn't socialize. I was just trying to meditate my way trough the experience until I could get some drinks to soothe my overwhelmed system and contracted heart. 

What is it specifically that makes you overwhelmed? Do you feel like they are superior to you? Do you feel less in their presence?
What if you were actually talking to a mirror when you were speaking to them? What if these girls are just you? Would you be overwhelmed if you were speaking to yourself in front of a mirror?

Try being in the moment, let go in of the mind, and enjoy yourself, love yourself and no matter how others react, its not the end of the world.
Because you still have Yourself.

[yolosmoothie]

@Knowledge Hoarder good for you man that you can do that. Go get. Have fun. I had too. Maybe I have a little too much faith in the universe ;p

Edited April 3, 2022 by yolosmoothie

[yolosmoothie]

@Vincent S thank you for the advice I know its coming from a good place. I've been struggling a lot with very uncomfortable body contractions in my chest, belly, and sternum. In fact I feel them now and it is uncomfortable. I do a lot of meditation practice where I rest and allow them in awareness and inquire deeply into their origin. I find like trauma commands, deficiency stories, repressions that are connected with dense, tight, contracted areas in my body. So I'm kinda working on healing my body from the inside by clearing unhealed psychological conditioning. So that I can more naturally flow in life without those blocks and unhealed stuff. 

[Vincent S]

16 minutes ago, yolosmoothie said:

@Vincent S thank you for the advice I know its coming from a good place. I've been struggling a lot with very uncomfortable body contractions in my chest, belly, and sternum. In fact I feel them now and it is uncomfortable. I do a lot of meditation practice where I rest and allow them in awareness and inquire deeply into their origin. I find like trauma commands, deficiency stories, repressions that are connected with dense, tight, contracted areas in my body. So I'm kinda working on healing my body from the inside by clearing unhealed psychological conditioning. So that I can more naturally flow in life without those blocks and unhealed stuff. 

I understand. Thank you for clearing that out, and good for you that you are clearing these conditioning's.
Do you experience a lot of muscle pain as well? Like back-pain and such? I was having a lot of issues with my back out of nowhere, or so I thought.
Until I had all my muscle-knots unraveled. So much childhood trauma was released, I was purging a whole lot. Specifically areas of most pain, was linked to the toughest and deepest of traumas. All of these get trapped in the body, ever since a very early age. Children are like sponges, sucking in everything in their early years, all the way up to early adult life. Most often things that don't really have anything to do with them.
Traumas often get deeply buried in the back. The left side being your emotional side, and right being your mental.
These emotional roots go way deep.

I can recommend getting some physiotherapy to clear them out for you, if you have got those.

Edited April 3, 2022 by Vincent S

[Lyubov]

The only thing awkward about those videos is how awful the electronic music is in the US / Vegas clubs and the people nodding and smiling like it’s good. I know edm sucks in the US but at least go to a Carl Cox show or something Leo, I think After Life / Tale of Us does shows in Mexico and LA? Some decent DJs there from Europe but they ain’t playing in one of those table heavy monstrosities in Vegas! End of my pretentious rant.

Edited April 3, 2022 by Lyubov

[yolosmoothie]

@Vincent S ♥️♥️♥️ why I have some tears in my eyes. That was beautiful. What a cool journey. That's what I'm currently doing as well. I'm doing this thing called Kiloby inquiries and training one on one with Scott Kiloby, the founder. I'm freaking excited, but it is also challenging soemtimes to do because of the pain and feelings that get evoked. Quite overwhelming at times. But also very insightful, healing and freeing as I evoke and deconstruct old programs.  Looking into things like traumas and repressions, currently working trough anger repression that is connected to my heart contraction and past trauma. 

Edited April 3, 2022 by yolosmoothie

[yolosmoothie]

@Knowledge Hoarder tha k you brother ♥️♥️

[yolosmoothie]

@Lyubov ???

[Vincent S]

4 minutes ago, yolosmoothie said:

@Vincent S ♥️♥️♥️ why I have some tears in my eyes. That was beautiful. What a cool journey. That's what I'm currently doing as well. I'm doing this thing called Kiloby inquiries and training one on one with Scott Kiloby, the founder. I'm freaking excited, but it is also challenging soemtimes to do because of the pain and feelings that get evoked. Quite overwhelming at times. But also very insightful, healing and freeing as I evoke and deconstruct old programs.  Looking into things like traumas and repressions, currently working trough anger repression that is connected to my heart contraction and past trauma. 

Thats amazing! Hope you get well soon, and trauma-free
Check out EFT-Tapping on Youtube, you dont really have to go pay someone to do this with you, best thing is that you can do it with yourself.
For helping the body releasing old programs and trauma.

[yolosmoothie]

Thank you. That sounds interesting. We also do some tapping in the Kiloby inquires thing too as a tool. I may check out eft tapping. I am curious about it. 

Edited April 3, 2022 by yolosmoothie

[something_else]

Remember that you have a very particular image of Leo in your head and it probably isn’t him going out and partying

99% of what you’ve seen of him is a floating head talking about super serious topics, now you’re seeing him in literally as far away a scenario as possible from that, but the original image in your mind of him is still there

That makes you feel like he is out of place even though everyone else there just sees him as another dude having a good time since they don’t have those same preconceptions

[yolosmoothie]

@something_else hahahaha you live up to your trippy image. Very good catch. I didn't see that before. 

[Vincent S]

8 hours ago, something_else said:

Remember that you have a very particular image of Leo in your head and it probably isn’t him going out and partying

99% of what you’ve seen of him is a floating head talking about super serious topics, now you’re seeing him in literally as far away a scenario as possible from that, but the original image in your mind of him is still there

That makes you feel like he is out of place even though everyone else there just sees him as another dude having a good time since they don’t have those same preconceptions

Good one