Everything hurts (Acceptance)

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I was imagining someone loving me deeply. 

Would that make me feel accepted? 

 

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I just want to call it space. I don't know what kind of space but it's space, some kind of space. 

In that space, I'm being loved on all sides of me. 

Umm. That feels amazing. 

 

[Preety_India]

I just want to call it space. I don't know what kind of space but it's space, some kind of space. 

In that space, I'm being loved on all sides of me. 

Umm. That feels amazing. 

 

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I need somebody who can love me at my worst

No, I'm not perfect, but I hope you see my worth

'Cause it's only you, nobody new, I put you first

And for you, girl, I swear I'll do the worst

 

 

 

 

Oh, oh, oh, don't

Don't you worry

I'll be there, whenever you want me

 

 

 

I need somebody who can love me at my worst

No, I'm not perfect, but I hope you see my worth

'Cause it's only you, nobody new, I put you first

And for you, girl, I swear I'll do the worst

 

 

Oh, oh, oh, don't

Don't you worry

I'll be there, whenever you want me

 

 

I need somebody who can love me at my worst

No, I'm not perfect, but I hope you see my worth

'Cause it's only you, nobody new, I put you first

And for you, girl, I swear I'll do the worst

 

 

 

 

Oh, oh, oh, don't

Don't you worry

I'll be there, whenever you want me

 

 

I need somebody who can love me at my worst

No, I'm not perfect, but I hope you see my worth

'Cause it's only you, nobody new, I put you first

And for you, girl, I swear I'll do the worst

 

 

 

 

 

Oh, oh, oh, don't

Don't you worry

I'll be there, whenever you want me

 

I need somebody who can love me at my worst

No, I'm not perfect, but I hope you see my worth

'Cause it's only you, nobody new, I put you first

And for you, girl, I swear I'll do the worst

 

 

 

Oh, oh, oh, don't

Don't you worry

I'll be there, whenever you want me

 

 

I need somebody who can love me at my worst

No, I'm not perfect, but I hope you see my worth

'Cause it's only you, nobody new, I put you first

And for you, girl, I swear I'll do the worst

 

 

 

Oh, oh, oh, don't

Don't you worry

I'll be there, whenever you want me

 

I need somebody who can love me at my worst

No, I'm not perfect, but I hope you see my worth

'Cause it's only you, nobody new, I put you first

And for you, girl, I swear I'll do the worst

 

 

 

 

Oh, oh, oh, don't

Don't you worry

I'll be there, whenever you want me

 

 

I need somebody who can love me at my worst

No, I'm not perfect, but I hope you see my worth

'Cause it's only you, nobody new, I put you first

And for you, girl, I swear I'll do the worst

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

This song is my new anthem. 

 

 

https://youtu.be/LKbzXBEU-lg

 

[Preety_India]

This space loves me 

This space tells me what to do 

This space knows me inside out, knows every part of me, every fiber, every cell, every strand. 

 

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This space connects with me karmically and physically. 

 

Edited March 22, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Someone called this place heartless and they left. 

I now understand why. 

This place is truly cold and heartless. 

How can you be so heartless? 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Your masculinity should have protected me. 

Your femininity shouldn't have betrayed me. 

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Masculine should be protective 

Feminine should be loyal

[Preety_India]

 

It's like the masculine saying to you 

"hey I'm loyal to you. See I'm here. I can take your anger. You can say whatever the fuck you want and I can take it. I can possess you. I can own you. I will never leave you." 

But then you have your rules. You put too much pressure. Your love has conditions. You are rude. You are hurtful. And then you say you are only being honest. 

But that's not what I want. 

So fuck your masculinity

 

The feminine has other issues.. 

She is a cold heartless bitch 

The feminine says 

"hey I love you. You are perfect. I love you. I want you. Baby everything is going to be alright. You are cute as fuck. I love you. My darling. Hugging you. Sweetheart."

And then she disappears in the middle of the night like a heartless faceless guileless shameless creature. 

Or she acts cold and doesn't own you. 

 

 

Edited March 22, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

This space

This space 

This space

This space 

This space

This space 

This space

This space 

 

[Preety_India]

This space is a combination of masculine and feminine. 

The feminine is loyal and caring Empathetic and gentle. 

The masculine is protective, owning, claiming, possessive, (of course a bit of negging for sexual tension), fierce, forceful but not controlling.. and it is  primal like Rarakrumi. 

This space loves me and I love it 

This space craves my affection. 

This space can act both masculine and feminine. 

This space conquers my femininity. 

This space wishes to own me completely. 

It wants me to be my best self 

 

 

 

 

Edited March 22, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Children are beautiful. 

 

           

 

[Preety_India]

This sad realization that I will never be accepted by the world no matter what. 

I just have a stronger need for accepting and bonding than most other people is how I can put it. 

 

I'm slowly healing now. This space is healing me. 

At least I'm not heartless. 

My own heart can heal me.

This space can heal me.

 

 

 

 

Edited March 22, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Sometimes you just feel like you're out of touch or out of place and it's okay to feel that way. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

There should be acceptance. 

 

 

 

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Life can be beautiful even in the darkest times. 

 

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I just feel awful. I wish I had never. 

But maybe you judged me just the way everyone else does. You never wanted to look at me from a neutral perspective. If all had to get was only judgement then why did I open up to this world? 

 

 

 

 

Edited March 23, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Yes conflicting emotions. 

If a person really loved you then they would have been with you. 

People who care will stay 

Don't worry. 

 

Be a free bird. Don't think too much. 

Thinking is masculinity. Feeling is feminine. 

 

Unresolved stuff hurts the most. At the end of the day, we are all good people. 

 

Edited March 23, 2022 by Preety_India