Preety_India

March 9

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So where does all of this lead me? 

To self love...... Somehow all of this always collapses into self love. 

I didn't love myself. I didn't love my own mind. 

When you love God, you grow in yourself. You grow in psychic intelligence. You understand who you are better. 

 


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I didn't sleep all night and I feel extremely emotional. 

Crying right now. 

 


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I went through some serious contemplation for the past 10 hours and I felt like I glimpsed the ultimate TRUTH. 

The ultimate truth is INFINITE LOVE. AND INFINITE INTELLIGENCE. 

And infinite love means its like time and space, there is no beginning or end to this love, there is no expansion or contraction to this love. It is what it is. It exists. It's infinite. 

It's INFINITE Love. That's it. 

There is no other truth than INFINITE LOVE. 

 

There's only this and only this. 

 

 


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I feel like dying and burying myself. 

 


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9 hours ago, Preety_India said:

I want to find a spiritual partner. But I don't know how to go about with it. I want to love a man spiritually and I want him to love me spiritually. I want to share my life and journey with him. With spiritual sharing and intimacy. 

But where can I find such a person? 

Any ideas or tips? 

 

 

6 hours ago, SamC said:

Tinder:P

 

 

 

JK.

 

I think your best bet is honestly talking to lots of people and screening them for spirituality and then choosing them over other more attractive guys. Another good thing might be going to yoga clases, spiritual circles and stuff like that. Ultimatly - do what you as a spiritual person would like to do and you will find likeminded people.

 

5 hours ago, Spence94 said:

The way I see it, there are two components: The spiritual vibration one is on and the lifestyle that one lives. They are both connected.

By doing the work to raise ones conciousness and actualize their highest Self, they will have a higher vibrational output and increase the chances of attracting a partner who they vibrationally resonate with on a higher spiritual level.

By adapting and engineering ones lifestyle to cater and nurture a higher spiritual vibration of living, one would increase the chances of meeting a higher resonating partner.

Actualizing the highest Self may result in engineering a more spiritually healthy lifestyle and engineering a more spiritually healthy lifestyle will help actualize the highest Self. They feed in to eachother.

Actualizing the Highest Self? That's the whole journey. You probably already understand what that is personally for your Self.

Engineering the lifestyle? For me personally what that looks like is the following: A spiritually oreintated lifes purpose where I am engaging with people in person directly. Attending meditation and journalling type support groups. Having a circle of friends who are also into yoga and taichi and who regularly host such events. Going on Taichi retreats. Attending group life coaching and personal development events where spiritually minded people attend. Being open to meeting people randomly and remaining open to the idea i could meet spiritually minded people in areas I might not have intially thought I would find them.

Ultimatley the lifestyle is done for my Self, which will also certainly increase the chances of finding a more spiritually resonating higher partner who wants to Actualize their Highest Self. I couldn't be with a  LT partner who I didn't resonate with on a deep spiritual level and who didn't share a similiar lifestyle to me.

 

3 hours ago, Flowerfaeiry said:

Read the book “Calling in the One”

 

53 minutes ago, Lyubov said:

To me every relationship is spiritual in some way. What you’re asking for to me is someone who has an interest in discussing this stuff or sharing in some sort of practice. It’s not for me but you could maybe meet someone at a meditation center. It won’t make your relationship any easier though most likely. 

 


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9 hours ago, Preety_India said:

Is having children a real biological need or just a social illusion? 

Can this need be transcended or is it even valid to transcend it. 

 

 

8 hours ago, Preety_India said:

You could even love your neighbor's child. 

Why would you need to have children of your own in order to love a child? 

Is it selfish to have your own child? 

 

 

5 hours ago, puporing said:

No it's not necessary though I've contemplated this a long time - even despite feeling everyone can be/is literally 'my children'/aka me. 

I guess having or not having are the same in the absolute, but in your own personal view you may have a preference for one over the other.

 


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25 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

I went through some serious contemplation for the past 10 hours and I felt like I glimpsed the ultimate TRUTH. 

The ultimate truth is INFINITE LOVE. AND INFINITE INTELLIGENCE. 

And infinite love means its like time and space, there is no beginning or end to this love, there is no expansion or contraction to this love. It is what it is. It exists. It's infinite. 

It's INFINITE Love. That's it. 

There is no other truth than INFINITE LOVE. 

 

There's only this and only this. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. 

 

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2 minutes ago, Benton said:

You might find Sadhgurus Devi practice to be very beneficial in connecting with femininity.

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Just try to be calm. 

 


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I'm slowly getting pushed into solitude mode.. 


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I need to focus on whatever I need to do next. 

It's best if I remain in my shell.

 

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It's best if I lose my memory. 

On 16/03/2022 at 7:54 PM, Preety_India said:

After contemplating for hours, my mind came up with these insights. 

 

Never trust anyone completely 

Never be too attached to human life, life can change on a dime. 

Never be too attached to human love 

Only be attached to one thing - that is your own mind, that's the only thing within your control and the only thing where you will eventually find peace. Cultivate a garden in your mind, that's the only thing that will stay forever other than your heart. Cultivate a garden in your mind and in your heart. This is the wisdom that came to me today. 

 

 

 

 


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I'm an introvert. I like to stay in my shell, in my cocoon. In fact that's what I'm going to do now. I have found that being in a shell makes me calmer as a person. 

Another thing I need to work on is dopamine addiction. 

 

 


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I also do not want to interact on the forum much anymore. It's mostly been harmful for my health. 

But my mind is too inquisitive. 

Anyways I found a ton of answers to many things. 

 


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I had some shoulder pain on March 12.

 


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I have always exposed to a very masculine environment where it's always push push push push 

It never allowed me to be gentle with myself. 

 


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Lately I have been too hard on myself. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

One big word - acceptance. Don't try to change anything. It creates great conflict and stress. 

 

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A lot of things are coming together I feel. 

 

 


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