Should I take a break from Actualized.org?

[AndylizedAAY]

So there is this math program that I want to be consistent in but it feels like I am moving too slowly with the spiritual practices. I understand that survival comes first but I didn't work on the program yesterday. I can also take a break from Actualized.org by doing the spiritual practices but I needed Actualized.org to know where to get started. Should I take a break from Actualized.org or keep going?

[Thought Art]

Maybe just create a healthier relationship with it and use proper time management skills and personally accountability. Write out a weekly monthly schedule.

[Ananta]

@AndylizedAAY It doesn't have to be an either/or, it can be both. Perhaps just work on having balance. Your work life will typically take more hours in the day. I agree with @Thought Art it may take learning some better time management.

[AndylizedAAY]

@Ananta I think that time management is ultimately determined by my state of consciousness, what do you think? That does not mean I am avoiding responsibility but this could be an aspect of life being a maze or something. I could be overthinking this, but I think I am just applying what Leo said. 

[Ananta]

@AndylizedAAY No, I think it's about organization and prioritizing. Even grade school children can learn good time management. Just carve out a certain amount of time from your day, however amount of days you want to do a certain activity and stick to your schedule to stay on track. You can write it down on a calendar if you need it listed visually. 

[AndylizedAAY]

@Ananta I think that what you are saying is compatible with states of consciousness. Playing video games is a state of consciousness, working is a state of conscious and so is self-actualizing, organizing, prioritizing, etc. I think that this is the key here since sleeping is also an activity and a state of consciousness. I get it, you're giving me more basic advice, am I just being too abstract or am I actually on to something with making it practical?

[Thought Art]

@AndylizedAAY simplify and build habits and routine structures … 

[Yarco]

If you have to even ask yourself the question, the answer is yes.

I also don't even know what you mean by Actualized.org

6 hours ago, AndylizedAAY said:

I can also take a break from Actualized.org by doing the spiritual practices but I needed Actualized.org to know where to get started. 

Actualized.org is the spiritual practices. How much do you really need to get started? Watch a 2 hour video on meditation or whatever and you have practical steps you can take for months without coming back to it. This sounds like cope for the sake of maintaining an addiction.

How are you defining Actualized.org? Are you addicted to the videos? Are you addicted to the forum? If you have an unhealthy relationship with any of the material then you should take a break. If you find it difficult to take a break, that indicates 10x more that you need to take a break.

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I think that time management is ultimately determined by my state of consciousness, what do you think? That does not mean I am avoiding responsibility but this could be an aspect of life being a maze or something. I could be overthinking this, but I think I am just applying what Leo said. 

10,000% overthinking it. Pure cope, using spiritual devilry to avoid real responsibility in your life.

You don't need balance, you need to forget everything spiritual and go back to just being a normal human for a month.

Edited March 9, 2022 by Yarco

[AndylizedAAY]

1 hour ago, Yarco said:

If you have to even ask yourself the question, the answer is yes.

I also don't even know what you mean by Actualized.org

How are you defining Actualized.org? Are you addicted to the videos? Are you addicted to the forum? If you have an unhealthy relationship with any of the material then you should take a break. If you find it difficult to take a break, that indicates 10x more that you need to take a break.

10,000% overthinking it. Pure cope, using spiritual devilry to avoid real responsibility in your life.

You don't need balance, you need to forget everything spiritual and go back to just being a normal human for a month.

I think I mean Actualized.org as guidance for the spiritual practices.

So you say that I am overthinking way too much as a spiritual devil and that I should go back to normal life. I have 2 problems with that:

1st, I have an objection about me overthinking the maze of life. There was this solipsism video that Leo deleted. What does this have to do with the maze of life? Well, I subscribed to Actualized.org and I still didn't see the solipsism video that could have awakened me even though I could have sworn I check my subscriptions regularly. Life would no longer be a maze if I can just watch some solipsism video to awaken and THAT is the intelligence of the maze since I didn't get to see it. 

There is at least one problem with this idea that supports you in your favor with me overthinking this: Other people watched the solipsism video and awakened while it was still available.

This is not an objection to me having to take a break but to me overthinking since it's the explanation I have with making the video practical. Also, lacking a routine can be part of the maze because I am so lost. It could be because of lack of concentration due to heavy metals which are almost impossible to avoid and I think I am noticing symptoms of it. I can come up with more examples I have noticed but I want to move on to your next point:

I agree that I need to forget everything spiritual, I need to forget that Leo lives a happier life and the solipsism video he deleted. There is at least one problem with this: How do I forget about spirituality if my life feels empty? This emptiness is simply preventing me from living life how it normally was. That's probably how I started using Actualized.org in the first place. I think that the emptiness came before Actualized.org which means it is not the cause for emptiness or maybe it is causing more of it. I can't really fully explain it to you, but something happened even before me using Actualized.org if I remember correctly that caused emptiness to occur and I simply don't know how to forget about spirituality.

Edited March 9, 2022 by AndylizedAAY
I wanted to cut out some extra points.

[AndylizedAAY]

@Yarco Also, Leo said that anything that happens is how it must be. I didn't get to see the solipsism video and that is how it must be because it could mean that I am not ready for awakening. Therefore, it gives me another reason to take a break. After my break, I will try to read more books because my reading may not have been enough if I am being a spiritual devil through misinterpretation. NOW is the time for my break.

Edited March 9, 2022 by AndylizedAAY

[Phil King]

39 minutes ago, AndylizedAAY said:

Well, I subscribed to Actualized.org and I still didn't see the solipsism video that could have awakened me even though I could have sworn I check my subscriptions regularly. Life would no longer be a maze if I can just watch some solipsism video to awaken and THAT is the intelligence of the maze since I didn't get to see it. 

One video would not make you any more noticeably awake then you are right now. Maybe it would help guide you 0.00001% of the way there. 

[Applegarden8]

yes

 

[Loba]

You do what you think is best for you. <3

[Yarco]

6 hours ago, AndylizedAAY said:

1st, I have an objection about me overthinking the maze of life. There was this solipsism video that Leo deleted. What does this have to do with the maze of life? Well, I subscribed to Actualized.org and I still didn't see the solipsism video that could have awakened me even though I could have sworn I check my subscriptions regularly. Life would no longer be a maze if I can just watch some solipsism video to awaken and THAT is the intelligence of the maze since I didn't get to see it. 

Wtf is the maze of life lol

Still way way overthinking

1. If the last 500 videos didn't do it for you, why do you think the solipsism video is going to instantly awaken you and solve all your problems? More cope. There is no magic pill, the solipsism video isn't a magic pill. I caught it in full before it was pulled down and I'm not enlightened.

Presumably you already watched the videos titled: Spiritual enlightenment - the most shocking truth, What to do after learning about enlightenment, Spiritual enlightenment part 2, enlightenment part 3, how to become enlightened - the exact step by step process revealed (he literally has a video called this lmao, if this didn't do it for you, I don't know what will.) Enlightenment FAQ 1 and 2. How isn't that enough for you?

2. The solipsism has been reuploaded multiple times, you can do a really basic search and find it if it's that important to you

6 hours ago, AndylizedAAY said:

This is not an objection to me having to take a break but to me overthinking

You need a break and you're overthinking

6 hours ago, AndylizedAAY said:

It could be because of lack of concentration due to heavy metals which are almost impossible to avoid and I think I am noticing symptoms of it.

Mega overthinking and also probably hypochondria. If you ate anything containing wheat or corn or refined sugar today there is probably a whole list of things to worry about before heavy metals.

6 hours ago, AndylizedAAY said:

There is at least one problem with this: How do I forget about spirituality if my life feels empty? This emptiness is simply preventing me from living life how it normally was. That's probably how I started using Actualized.org in the first place. I think that the emptiness came before Actualized.org which means it is not the cause for emptiness or maybe it is causing more of it. I can't really fully explain it to you, but something happened even before me using Actualized.org if I remember correctly that caused emptiness to occur and I simply don't know how to forget about spirituality.

Most people live empty meaningless lives, with or without Actualized.org. If you've been at this for a year or more without seeing an improvement, obviously it's not working and maybe it's time to try something else instead.

Lots of non-spiritual people also live extremely meaningful happy lives without ever thinking about spiritual stuff. How much time do you think Elon Musk or MrBeast have devoted to enlightenment?

[Ananta]

11 hours ago, AndylizedAAY said:

@Ananta I think that what you are saying is compatible with states of consciousness. Playing video games is a state of consciousness, working is a state of conscious and so is self-actualizing, organizing, prioritizing, etc. I think that this is the key here since sleeping is also an activity and a state of consciousness. I get it, you're giving me more basic advice, am I just being too abstract or am I actually on to something with making it practical?

To me,  "states of consciousness" have different meaning for different ppl. Just Google it and scroll, you'll see how many definitions there are.

I don't use the term unless I'm also defining what I mean by it. For example, I may mean that "states of consciousness" means simply- waking, dreaming, deep sleep and altered consciousness. Then, of course saying "I am consciousness/awareness" in the absolute sense. 

To be honest, I don't know if I'm understanding your usage, since you are stating individual activities while awake as being different states of consciousness. To me, they are just the waking state of consciousness. 

 

Edited March 10, 2022 by Ananta

[AndylizedAAY]

@Phil King That's what I thought too about Leo's content and awakening, but apparently Leo verified the reports on awakening to be valid and that he deleted the video to "not spoil the dream".