*TRIP REPORT* of going to hell, to the point of suicide.

[LSD-Rumi]

Oh God, I am waiting the day I could take acid again like a child waiting for Christmas.

I want something like this. Fuck others, I want to see my real self. I want God to rape my mind to pieces. I want the universe to fuck me personally. I can take it.

But soon It will happen and I am patient enough.

[Razard86]

5 hours ago, integral said:

I'm not getting what is the big deal, for everything to be me and created by me, hand crafter every detail would not surprise me in the slightest.

If this is all awakening is its child play.

What you guys are doing here is learning how to walk for the first time and being shocked by it.

This is the beginning but also the end of the old framing.

Its because its happening against your will, so its with out the egos consent. Maybe this is the the differentiating factor for why some people cant handle the truth and others can. Some people ground themselves in reality being a specific way, in away thats comfortable for them.

If your mind is comfortable with the ungrounded then tripping is for you, if not don't trip.

Some people have no business taking psychedelics and we have no protocol to identify good candidates and no education to help be assess if tripping is right for them. 

Powerful wisdom here. Self-Love pure and simple. If you cannot accept reality for what it is, then don't trip or pursue Spirituality. Spirituality is not materialism. It's not even the end of suffering as many try to put it. It's the mastery of acceptance of what is.

If I get my arm chopped off tomorrow, I must accept all the ramifications that come with it. Can I love myself enough that losing an arm makes no difference? This is the test. People should realize that fear of death is just fear of impermanence. Can you accept that your human character is impermanent? That the theme of its entire life/dream is learning to accept impermanence? If you can realize that the whole point of life is to accept the beginning and the end....then you can realize that you are that which has no end. But you have to take the test of accepting impermanence and facing possible annihilation to realize this.

It's why I said if you are pursuing Spirituality to end suffering you will never awaken which 99% pursue it for. Now I am not saying you are bad for having this desire, but the only desire that will take you through is the desire to realize the TRUTH of what you are and the OPENNESS to ACCEPT whatever ARISES in that moment.

Edited June 5, 2023 by Razard86