Open to the possibility that Leo is not FULLY awakened

[RMQualtrough]

He can't be, any character is an appearance. When the character talks about the experience, every word and metaphor etc is an appearance too... I do think it can be described quite well, but when a person says a word that word is of course an appearance.

So when Leo comes down from his high (really, smoking 5-MeO-DMT would yield best results, but risky yes), he's the character again. The character is gone when one is """fully awake""". Really full awakening might be the death of the character, as even in extremely altered states breaking through on DMT or w.e., there's still finitude involved in the contrasting appearances. Rather than seeing literally everything in that infinity like sensory data other creatures have that we don't etc.