How to fix hyperactivity/procrastination?

[EugeneTheSage]

There are such evenings when I've done everything and ready to preapre to sleep, but the finger falls onto YouTube icon. I can waste few hours watching videos. Then I can't sleep because I have tensions in my eyes. And in the morning I can't wake up.

So i can't fall asleep, I can't wake up - that feels really terrible, exhausts me, makes me less efficient, ruins my vision, sometimes triggers other addictions such as PMO, eating what I wouldn't normally do. That is one of the major obstacles to happiness (sometimes when I manage not to behave in such a way i feel genuinly happy).

When I decide to read a book I find it troublesome because my dopaminergic system is burnt out and simple tasks are not as exciting. 3 years before I was much more disciplined and focused than now.

Another aspect that irritstes me: at evening I feel more energy to do something, but I want to restore regimen, so I don't allow myself to work on a project, so I sneak on these YouTube videos. Then I wake up late, work for 3hrs and then the day ends and I can't work, so I watch videos instead. It doesn't happen every day, just occasionally

Right now I am doing yoga, Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya meditation and these practices help, but my sleepless nights sometimes interfere with these habits so they are less efficient, so the pattern perpetuates hindering to resolve it.

Can you reccomend some materials, books, lifestyle changes that could help me?

I'm more interested in a long term solutions.

Maybe I just need to take 1 month off work and spend time walking in the forest the whole week but I couldn't allow myself because I'm so eager to build a portfolio of a 3D designer

[John Paul]

Be firm with boundaries with yourself before bed, no bullshit. Lay on the floor on your back or just in bed and just feel your body and emotions, deal with it.

Wake up to an alarm every morning at the same time and don't take a nap. When you wake up FORCE yourself up, drink a black coffee or something then go for a run or go straight to the gym or something WAKE UP. No nap. 

Keep it up with your yoga etc.

Repeat.

Consider that maybe you are actually hungry, you didn't eat enough in the day, or drink enough water in the day. 

Maybe jerk off in the shower or something before bed, i don't know. Sometimes if I didn't jerk off without porn in a while it feels good/reality check for me.

[EugeneTheSage]

@John Paul 4 years ago I was very disciplined and waking up was really easy. Right now I just can't force myself.

Yeah, maybe I can drink more. But here is the problem with the food: I eat 2 times per day and don't have much flexibility with it because you need to wait 4 hrs before yoga nad Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya or do them first thing in the morning. Or wake up earlier and then your 'useful day' is longer. But the problem is that I can't wake up)

[EugeneTheSage]

Another example: right now i watched videos, ate (foods that are not aligning with each other), then drank water, then ate again - now I guaranteed to have a big heavy belly so I don't even consider to try to sleep, and also I am resistant to meditate because it I feel tooo heavy to put any awareness in the body

[EugeneTheSage]

Again: I have an intuition that I should stop any computer work for a month and work out all the excessive energy: have a lot of walks, jogging, yoga, but I can't allow myself to because it would lenghten my time working on a dead-end job

[John Paul]

It's like you are trying to trick yourself that you are more disciplined you are because you are attached to the image of you being a yogi(?) and then you are crumbling in your daily live outside of your practice because you haven't worked up to that level of seriousness actually(?) 

If i'm wrong I can guess again, i don't know if this is helpful. I'd say slow down on yoga and let yourself be more of a normie but more of a balanced normie.

[EugeneTheSage]

When I overwatching especially bad, I usually wake up very early, don't need to beg myself to wake up and feel refreshed. I wonder how does it even work?

Maybe I'm doing some reset through this addiction?

I think contemplating about the fact that this habit doesn't serve me, could help. Sometimes I have a gap between impulse to go to YouTube, and pressing the icon, I stop and understand that it doesn't serve me, there is nothing new I can find.

Or read a book. As after reading EasyPeasy I found it easier to stop porn, so the 'deepen your understanding' principle can change the current habit