Finally did 5 MeO last Sunday

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Hi, 

I finally did 5 MeO last Sunday. From the toad blessed by Mexican elders. 

Ahh… so yeah… I have been searching for it for like 5 years (on and off) I tried and experimented with a lot of “medicine” in between. 25 grandmother (aya), 5 grandfather, acid, shrooms. and a lot of Breathwork. 

nothing really prepared for me that. 
i feel like the mental masterbation and speculating about what it would be like is a form of suffering. i don’t really watch videos about medicine anymore. If you don’t know how to find it. Go befriend people in the spiritual community and be resourceful. 

Honestly I heard about 5 from Leo. So grateful for that intro. 

Look, as for the experience. You hear about when someone talks about love of the exascty of existence etc … that’s fine. But they are honestly just words, once you surrender on this stuff it’s really something else… 

Just being in the energy field wow … I really lost all sense of myself. Consciousness was doing its thing and celebrating itself forever. At one point I became some sort of eternal energy it issue is none of your darkness or selfishness can exist in that place so you purge a lot … 

You don’t need to worry about finding it if your not experienced as I believe you need to do the reps and sets with other things before your ready for this.

ill learn how to surrender more into the experience next time I do it. But I can’t really believe in going back into it. My heart pushes me back despite the intense energy awaiting me 

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Okay so had 3 sessions in one sit

he was using  a vape 

1st one I held on: I felt like I was heavily in the force but my mind came up with this sneaky story I think was “holding the energy” like when you go for a tough run. 
 

no non sense that was me not letting go 

 

2nd. He upped the dose. 
I fully let go. 

I remember almost like being under a literal wave (in the ocean) of energy.  I also completely disappeared. Consciousness was like digging itself (consciousness) forever. 

Parts were hard and like nothing I’ve experienced before. I think one stage I was purging majorly. 

Meanwhile “in the real word” I was rollIing Around wildly screaming. Ha 

3rd my mind shut off and didn’t want to experience that again to protect myself 

— going back in two weeks. Stay courageous warriors