Why do you live?

[ShardMare]

Why you havent killed yourself? What is your thinking why should one live?

[Ones]

Why haven't you killed yourself?

1. Killing yourself takes next level balls, also your pain has to overwrite the strongest human instinct; to survive. 2. The pain you leave behind you is taken on by all of your loved ones. Everyone will have to live with the fact that they will never get to see you again, they will want to know why you did it but it will be unanswered for the rest of their lives. 3. I think the hell you have to be in to actually do it is a much deeper hell than just thinking about it. I think about it everyday, but I have never attempted or planned to do it. 

Why should one live? 

There is no answer to that. Every answer will be shallow and meaningless. But just because there is no why, doesn't mean that you shouldn't live. Life is just life, and it needs no why. It isn't a thing, it is in which everything appears including" why's". Some would say that is a cruel universe, but actually it is neutral, it doesn't care if you're depressed or happy. That is why depression is so lonely and hopeless, because you realize that there is no help to get from the universe, unless you have the security blanket of believing in some separate God that will save you some day. 

[PepperBlossoms]

I guess because there is hope that things will get better and that I don't know what is going to be around the corner.

Because I don't like pain and killing oneself may be super painful.

Because I like epiphanies, attention, and food and if I die, I won't get any more.

Because I see myself crying horribly but also can see that I am making my own misery and choosing to act like that and question if I am being authentic or what exactly I am doing when I am crying and blaming my siblings for not giving me any attention and parents for being critical and how much of this mess is my doing.

[Cathal]

i did actually try when i saw no other solutions to my suffering

but then i saw what i was missing out on and i was like yeah now i  see why i wanted to kill myself, suffering is just confusion. i think what we're looking for is stillness and that requires truly beginning to understand what is the noise in your mind trying to show you. when you can truly feel that stillness through being these questions don't make sense anymore

[Yarco]

So many good new TV shows and video games to come out that I can't even imagine right now. So many more times that I can eat my favorite foods before I die. So many mind-blowing new technologies in the next 30 years. I might find that porn video tomorrow that's my new all-time favorite.

I have an infinite amount of time to not exist, and in all probability, only one lifetime to exist.

Plus I'm a coward. It'd take crippling chronic pain (could be physical or mental) to push me to a point that I'd consider it a viable option.

I'd rather just be alive. It's an innate survival mechanism. I'd rather be sitting alone in solitary confinement for the rest of my life than dead. As long as I'm not being tortured, pretty much anything is better than death.

Because most people who attempt will regret it once they reach the point where it's too late to turn back.

[lostingenosmaze]

21 hours ago, ShardMare said:

Why you havent killed yourself? What is your thinking why should one live?

You say that like literally everyone who visits this subforum has wanted to kill themselves, Jesus Christ

[ShardMare]

@lostingenosmaze yeah i should have asked the question in a different way. 

Life just seems constant suffering while outside it seems that there is no problem with my life.

I miss something in my life that i cant really pinpoint at. What is my problem with life?

[Blackhawk]

On 2022-02-13 at 10:54 AM, ShardMare said:

Why you havent killed yourself? What is your thinking why should one live?

Survival instinct.

Fear of death.

Consideration of my parents.

A small belief that maybe we are here to learn. So suicide would disrupt the learning process.

[Loba]

I love everyone's answers here and agree with them.

Fear of death, I don't want to harm my family or anyone I know by doing that, I don't know what happens afterwards and I'm a predictable creature and prefer to know things beforehand, I feel like it is my mission in life to learn as much about death as I can before I die and that there is great wisdom in being open minded enough to let consciousness guide me to the answers - I want to have a peaceful death where I feel like it is 'meant to be' and that I did what I came here to do.

I think coming here involves finishing some sort of process.

[Nahm]

@ShardMare

Make a dreamboard. 

What you write will manifest. 

You’ll be like, ‘oh, ok, wow, damn, I thought life was something altogether different’. 

Consciously creating, it all make sense. ?

[tolo]

On 13.2.2022 at 11:54 AM, ShardMare said:

Why you havent killed yourself? What is your thinking why should one live?

Because existence is beautiful

 

[PurpleTree]

3 minutes ago, tolo said:

Because existence is beautiful

it can be horrible and frustrating and it can be beautiful and blissful

but the hope is that the beauty wins 

[tolo]

12 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

it can be horrible and frustrating and it can be beautiful and blissful

but the hope is that the beauty wins 

Life can be horrible and frustrating, I totally agree. But just being able to experience this world, this reality is mind blowing in my eyes.  

[PurpleTree]

8 minutes ago, tolo said:

Life can be horrible and frustrating, I totally agree. But just being able to experience this world, this reality is mind blowing in my eyes.  

oh yes ?

[vizual]

I pledged to at least outlive all my haters and everyone who has done me dirty. To not give them the satisfaction of my demise. So i basically run on spite, and I can piss on their graves when the time has come. I am a simple man