Truthful thinking

[Manusia]

This journal is about some kind collection of my own random contemplation. 

Edited February 11, 2022 by Manusia

[Manusia]

I found weird investigation about me. I dont know how much I don't know about me so far. I assume too much, seeing too little. Light! 

When the light is too bright, its natural to raise your hand in order to prevent so much light entering your cornea. 

When the light consciousness is too bright for my ego. My ego naturally close the door and even slam it. 

And I accept the door open for this time. Hearing my friend talk the truth about myself. At first there is heated debate! My ego slam it, hold it so tight so I am covered! Eventually I know something is wrong with the conversation. It is just heated and never ending, I am stubborn and so she is. I don't give a fuck! But hey, my self trying to calm down. I accept if I am lose and trying to be tolerate. Back in my mind, there is blindspot! I cannot see this! Then you know I tried to open the door of consciousness? My ear low and my self start hear the unhearable truth! I found a beast in the mirror! I cannot differentiate between this beast with.. Me??? 

Thats huge shadow. Potent. 

Maybe this is what Carl Jung call the unconscious. It is literal. Make it conscious is pure pain. Or this is the true power of the knowledge? Can I employ my dark self? 

It is warrior. Convinced to oneself truest belief. Don't give a fuck about people feeling. Agessive and argumentative. See what need to see. Don't need to validated because it is always validated by oneself. Pure ignorance.