Initiating self destruction in 3… 2… 1…

[King Merk]

After years of work, it’s happening…

Every time I take a psychedelic now, I feel my reality falling apart.

I was sitting there analyzing my entire life.

Realizing that everything “I” am is a collection of attachments.

Just gunk stuck to the field of awareness that I call myself.

I go back to this place every time.

I roll on the ground wondering what in the fuck is going on.

I can’t even discern what’s real any more.

It’s all a facade and I see it so clearly.

I am nothing, yet everything. 

And then I come down from the trip…

I recollect the broken pieces of my self identity and move on.

But I move on less stuck than before.

Less attached to the gunk on the wall.

I’m becoming more & more “free” of myself & all my finite attachments.

It makes me think of a child playing with blocks.

Building this fantasy creation up just to knock it all down again.

Is this the enlightenment process?

This must be deconstruction right?

Hard to wrap my thoughts around it when I’m in this “normal” human form?

[Leo Gura]

Good, keep going deeper. You ain't done yet.

[Scholar]

8 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

Good, keep going deeper. You ain't done yet.

This is interesting. How do you know this? How do you know whether or not to encourage this when you don't truly know what he is experiencing? I mean, all you have is a bit of text, could it not be that in actuality there was something else going on that could be harmful to this individual?

For example, what if this person did go deeper and it lead to their suicide. What if your encouragement would lead to that? How do you prevent that from happening when you give advice and even direct commands to people you have no oversight over?

Edited February 11, 2022 by Scholar

[Leo Gura]

@Scholar God works in mysterious ways

[Scholar]

Just now, Leo Gura said:

@Scholar God works in mysterious ways

How do you know whether or not you just use this as an excuse to be able to avoid contemplating this? I doubt you have direct insight into the state of mind of this person. This person could have all sorts of issues that you are unaware of, they might even be deluding themselves in some form. Think of what happened to that Conor guy.

[King Merk]

3 hours ago, Scholar said:

For example, what if this person did go deeper and it lead to their suicide. What if your encouragement would lead to that? How do you prevent that from happening when you give advice and even direct commands to people you have no oversight over?

Funny enough, going deeper did lead to my suicide in some ways.

With Leo’s encouragement I’ve went very deep with things like 5-MeO and self inquiry that have helped me “kill myself” via the expansion of consciousness beyond the finite confines of my ego.

LOL  

Edited February 11, 2022 by King Merk

[Girzo]

8 hours ago, Scholar said:

This is interesting. How do you know this? How do you know whether or not to encourage this when you don't truly know what he is experiencing?

Texting through PMs with that person in the past, my guess.

[VeganAwake]

22 hours ago, King Merk said:

After years of work, it’s happening…

Every time I take a psychedelic now, I feel my reality falling apart.

I was sitting there analyzing my entire life.

Realizing that everything “I” am is a collection of attachments.

Just gunk stuck to the field of awareness that I call myself.

I go back to this place every time.

I roll on the ground wondering what in the fuck is going on.

I can’t even discern what’s real any more.

It’s all a facade and I see it so clearly.

I am nothing, yet everything. 

And then I come down from the trip…

I recollect the broken pieces of my self identity and move on.

But I move on less stuck than before.

Less attached to the gunk on the wall.

I’m becoming more & more “free” of myself & all my finite attachments.

It makes me think of a child playing with blocks.

Building this fantasy creation up just to knock it all down again.

Is this the enlightenment process?

This must be deconstruction right?

Hard to wrap my thoughts around it when I’m in this “normal” human form?

Just be aware Awakening doesn't necessarily mean that all attachments or long going habits will immediately fall away or even fall away at all.

It's the realization that there isn't a real YOU within the body in which HAS these attachments/habits....it's an illusion of self.

When this is recognized clearly this dense sense of self usually starts collapsing on its own.... or better yet its recognized to have NEVER been real from the start.

There's really no need to keep taking a lot of psychedelics or what not.

Awakening is wild & crazy enough without them.

❤ 

[King Merk]

1 hour ago, VeganAwake said:

There's really no need to keep taking a lot of psychedelics or what not.

There’s really no need to do anything  

Thank you for the comment❤️