Having Fun With The Ego

[FirstglimpseOMG]

I seem to be much happier lately. I don't know if that's the same thing as 'less troubled' but I think so. It's really nice. I haven't been this excited in... well, I guess since I was a kid. I'm excited to be making a little headway with the consciousness work, and experiencing the joy of life like never before. 

Being in such an awesome mood lately, rather than being all wary of the ego, or all bunged up because I'm so egoic, I just seem to have fun with it when I notice myself being my little self. The self-talk itself is a lot lighter, a lot more often.

If I walk into another room and immediately forget what I went into the room for, it often goes like this.. 

"Well dipshiticus half-witicus, what did we come in here for.. do we need to retrace our steps now to remember again & maybe hold the intent for a little longer than 2 or 3 seconds this time, waddya think?"

Or, "Well isn't that special (after slagging some old perceived enemy in my head instead of being at all present), here we are all 'on the path' & can't seem to remember to be mindful and practice loving kindness for more than 8 seconds at a time. Beautiful.. just brilliant, halfwiticus."

Despite the elevated mood and lighter attitude toward the little me, I'm trying to reconcile knowing how ego-centric I am and feeling better treating it lightly rather than beating myself up, with the knowledge that any identification with the mind and ego is just more foolishness and illusion. 

This is all so very strange.

 

 

[Leo Gura]

As sure as gravity, what goes up will come down.

And when you're more aware, the fall hurts harder

A lot of awakeness is heaven, a little bit of awakeness is a bitch.

[Emerald]

1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

A lot of awakeness is heaven, a little bit of awakeness is a bitch.

I don't think I've ever heard any truer words uttered before.  

[FirstglimpseOMG]

Absolutely! 

Of course, it's the bitch you just can't stop thinking about & can't stay away from once you've had a little taste. 

That wasn't supposed to sound dirty.

[Dodo]

That which is not afraid of the going down is not afraid of going up