General Life Purpose Journal

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General Life Purpose Journal. Feel free to comment on and partake in my journey. 

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Edited January 18, 2022 by Thought Art

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My current project and my "One Thing" is The Effortless Workweek. An online business focused on teaching and coaching busy professional with skills for relaxation, more energy, mindfulness and greater physical comfort to enjoy their work weeks with joy.

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I've got this vision... I am a sailer... I must prove my ability to navigate the seas of life. Find that balance.

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To be successful my must learn to overcome my fears through love. 

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Here’s to a thicker skin

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Success is a long term strategy.

Go slow, be strategic, keep learning from mistakes and correct but don’t quit. 
 

there’s nothing else to do.

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Feeling some vulnerablility today. Feeling a bit of self doubt. 

I've had a lot of success this past year, graduating school, finding a job that pays higher than I initially thought possible.

I've invested in some online courses I hope they will pay me dividends. 

About to graduate my Qigong program

Can afford to live on my own...

Overcoming limiting beliefs. 

Putting Leo's "Life is imaginary" bullshit in proper perspective...

Quiting smoking week

Things are looking good. I am getting older, I experienced some big failures over the past few years. Just gotta keep going. Set backs will happen but I am still alive, still have opportunities if I am willing to work. 

Work.Work.Work.Work.Work.

Edited January 21, 2022 by Thought Art

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Can't wait to look back on where I am in 5 years... Still sober, successful, financially free. Ill be 31... Older and older we go. Can't go back in time.

Have to no longer identify as the young man I was, with the opportunities I had.

I wish I could be 20 again with the knowledge I now have. However, I obviously simply have to make due with the life I have.

I would like more friends who are interested in Yoga, Qigong, meditation, music and wellness.

No more stoners and losers. As my past few roommates were. I only want leaders, creators and great people in my life.

I felt like for awhile I was meeting a lot of these people but I was pretty under developed.

Life can be really beautiful, but it can also be hellish. 

I want to make something beautiful. I don't need to be famous.

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I can't get younger but I can age well, and create a mature beautiful and balanced life.

I still have some subtle dark thoughts, suicidal thoughts. I have suffered greatly in my life.

However, I know many others suffer as well. So in that case I am a warrior. 

I have come a long way. I am smart and capable. I have the vision. I am taking action every single day.

Let's making something work. So many people fail. Failure is the norm. 

I must overcome all my challenges and limitations.

I want to help to destress the world.

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I am realizing I am not special, I am getting older and I am not wise. I am going to get a second job, cut my losses and focus on building a normal career. Fuck life purpose. That is for rich people or people who started young. I will enjoy my life, but I am not here to do anything special.

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I don't think I am strong enough...

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Experiencing some suicidal thoughts and self doubts. I’m very foolish. I don’t know how many more days I can take the bus to jobs that mean nothing. 
 

everything I pursue scares me and I want to quit 

Im weak as fuck

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Sometimes I don’t want to be here.

I think about suicide but realize it would hurt those around me.

I spent too much money on an online course and I’m regretting it. Bad strategic move. I’m getting older… why am I here? 

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“I care for myself. The more solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained I am, the more I will respect myself”

- Jane Eyre

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“In fact, feelings are best regarded as roadside pointers toward lessons we need to learn on our path. Each time there is something we are really angry about or scared of, there is a powerful lesson to be learned. It is usually something we have withdrawn from in the past that we are now getting the opportunity to embrace” - Gay Hendrix, Learning To Love Yourself

Edited January 23, 2022 by Thought Art

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I am going to feel all my emotions, good or bad, healthy or unhealthy, harmonious or discordant. 

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People who judge my flashbacks or regressions are simply uneducated.

Edited January 23, 2022 by Thought Art

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I have many times feared this would happen and often do. 
 

my father used to scream at me for forgetting to wash the dishes. I had ADHD growing up and would forget everyday.

Edited January 23, 2022 by Thought Art

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I feel a lot of pain at this time. I will go home, meditate and do Qigong. Drink herbal tea and go to bed.