To believe in omens? & Guardian angels

[KatiesKarma]

This really happens rarely, but sometimes you can literally sense when something really bad is about to happen. Missing a flight you paid a lot of money for by a minute, or an actual terrorist attack. 

(On that note I remember one day walking down the road with another person, we crossed the street and they were unbelieveably close to being killed by an 'emergency car'.)

So, now I'm seeing small signs for something good to actually occur, but maybe it's really foolish to believe in fate, and just remain doomed the way I am.

Hope I make sense

[Fearless_Bum]

@KatiesKarma

I say this with love you do not make any sense right now. 

But what's more important than making sense is your own well-being.

Are you okay?

[KatiesKarma]

6 minutes ago, Fearless_Bum said:

@KatiesKarma

I say this with love you do not make any sense right now. 

But what's more important than making sense is your own well-being.

Are you okay?

Oh well

Literally made a thread called "I'm fucked", so no. Was just tested for psychosis which came out negative, which is good, but other than that my state is pretty much continous despair and depression.

 

[Fearless_Bum]

@KatiesKarma where does the despair come from? Genuinely curious. 

Give me the summary ?.

[Fearless_Bum]

Oh I saw your post and read it. 

Honestly you wouldn't like what I have to say. 

I don't like to give away to much about myself on this forum but I've been down some rabbit holes before and know the stubbornness that comes with it. 

The question is are you hungry enough to save yourself?

No one can give you that hunger. Only you can find it. You can only hurt yourself for so long, I know soon enough you'll realize it's better to keep your head up for no reason at all but to just be happy, and that people will be inspired by you. 

I wish you the best my friend ❤?. 

Oh also: there are people who want to help you out there, just ask.

Edited January 8, 2022 by Fearless_Bum

[KatiesKarma]

9 minutes ago, Fearless_Bum said:

Oh I saw your post and read it. 

Honestly you wouldn't like what I have to say. 

I don't like to give away to much about myself on this forum but I've been down some rabbit holes before and know the stubbornness that comes with it. 

The question is are you hungry enough to save yourself?

No one can give you that hunger. Only you can find it. You can only hurt yourself for so long, I know soon enough you'll realize it's better to keep your head up for no reason at all but to just be happy, and that people will be inspired by you. 

I wish you the best my friend ❤?. 

Thank you.. ^^;

[BlueOak]

Not fate but spirit and/or the subconscious depending on your belief. I want to say they are one and the same. It all comes from you. Every sign, every signal. Nothing outside of what you are. You have the power there right now and can choose how you want to not only use it but perceive it. 

Small clues that give a gut feeling. So much information is held by what I will call the subconscious, that I get warnings ahead of time sometimes. It can't know everything that is going to happen and even if I do, I usually ignore the feeling anyway in favor of what I personally want to do consciously. 

For what to believe in. Believe in whatever gives you strength. If believing in something works for you then use it until or unless it doesn't.

Been in despair, I used to call it that to. I used to grade my depression based on how bad it was that day, and despair was just above powerlessness or lingering in powerlessness too long. A bit like anger coming out of fear. If you ever want to talk about what it is making you depressed, with someone that went through that for a few decades feel free. I am sure I'm not the only one that can help but I do have a lot experience with it, if not here then locally find someone worth your time to speak to.

It sounds like to me you are reaching for things to give you some hope or power, you can give those to yourself right now, you really can. No matter how bad it is. I hope you find them inside yourself and wish you the best. 

[BlueOak]

I had a repeating thought. Seek out real life guardian angels if you feel you need support. There are people that are extremely giving and that spend much of their lives to support us at our lowest. Despite what some say, there is nothing wrong with healthy support through our entire life, in fact its extremely beneficial to get people that support you in your life around us.

I don't know if this will help. Her videos used to help me when it was videos on individual emotion. It doesn't go far enough, but it touches on a couple of things that might help.

 

Edited January 8, 2022 by BlueOak