Dealing With Addiction

[Rachityczny]

Hello there people

5 days ago I`ve made a resolution to deal with my computer games addiction. It`s going not that bad, at least I`m not playing. But i think i`m not advancing- i`m compensating addiction mostly with watching chess channels on Youtube. I`ve watched Leo video about addictions, so today apart from daily meditation (30 minutes of Do Nothing Technique) i made 28 minutes of just lying on bed with almost no move, break for dinner and then 1h 20 min of something close to do nothing technique- I wasnt that strict with moving so i changed position a little few times. I got some emptiness experience. But then I wanked once and watched chess for over 2 hours- so back to bad pattern. Can i consider it as good day? Or that chess and masturbation just ruined everything? And is there some blank activity in which i can sustain for a longer time than meditation- something to feel emptiness but no so heavily?

 

PS. If you got there thanks for interesting with my topic, i appreciate that

[Leo Gura]

2 hours ago, Rachityczny said:

And is there some blank activity in which i can sustain for a longer time than meditation- something to feel emptiness but no so heavily?

Notice what this is:

You avoiding emptiness.

It's kinda hard to solve a problem by avoiding its solution.

[eskwire]

Perhaps the solution is to truly confront the emptiness but not be discouraged that you didn't confront the emptiness for 5 hours in an early attempt. Keep at it. 

[Joel3102]

Just keep going. I've been working on similar issues by meditating a lot, slowly doing more and more. Over the last month I've gotten much more in touch with being, although I still can't sit motionless for an hour. But I was heavily unconscious and addictive before, so I feel I have to work hard just to get to some people's baseline level of awareness. 

If you break your streak, don't fall into the trap of thinking "oh fuck it, I've already broken my streak so I may as well binge on porn/internet/food ect". I've fallen into that trap many times. You can minimise the damage. 

Edited January 5, 2017 by Joel3102

[Hunter Arrington]

Checking out something that would possibly combat that addiction might be handy. Some of the ancient yoga texts and yoga material could give us advice in this area. They are all about sense control and management. I know I need it! 

[Richard Alpert]

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCiDz5W3Yemt3F0VqwL4Cj8Q

check out this guys channel.

[Rachityczny]

13 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

Notice what this is:

You avoiding emptiness.

It's kinda hard to solve a problem by avoiding its solution.

I thought about something like lying on bed with keeping attention, eyes open just to be awake. But your reply made me discover that it`s not fully emptiness, because that`s comfortable, lying position which interrupts the void. So thanks for wider understanding of the idea.  Anyway, i`m not that experienced with meditiation, so i would prefer to do daily 30 minutes at morning+ 60-80 minutes after school rather than to try to do nothing for 4 hours or so and next day to destroy everything. 

 

13 hours ago, Hunter Arrington said:

Some of the ancient yoga texts and yoga material could give us advice in this area. They are all about sense control and management.

I`ve never been interested in yoga, so could you me send some links or texts by which I can get to know about this? I don`t know what to start with.

 

 

13 hours ago, Joel3102 said:

Just keep going. I've been working on similar issues by meditating a lot, slowly doing more and more. But I was heavily unconscious and addictive before, so I feel I have to work hard just to get to some people's baseline level of awareness. 

If you break your streak, don't fall into the trap of thinking "oh fuck it, I've already broken my streak so I may as well binge on porn/internet/food ect". I've fallen into that trap many times. You can minimise the damage. 

I won`t stop and give up easily. I guess I can see the trap of breaking streak and going in the negative spiral, but it is always good to be reminded. And I wish you best luck on journey  .

 

6 hours ago, Richard Alpert said:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCiDz5W3Yemt3F0VqwL4Cj8Q

check out this guys channel.

Isn`t this almost all about masturbation, or I`m missing something? I just found this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFk8d66kW9k&ab_channel=AddictionExplained.

 

13 hours ago, eskwire said:

Perhaps the solution is to truly confront the emptiness but not be discouraged that you didn't confront the emptiness for 5 hours in an early attempt. Keep at it. 

Today (apart from morning 30 min Do Nothing) I`m going to do another 60-80 minutes of do nothing and then just lie on the bed keeping awareness. It must get me somewhere. 

 

Thank you all for replies. I didn`t really anticipate that many of them. After writing this post i`m going for 60-80 min meditation, wish me luck