Family And Fear

[Green Warrior]

I stay at home with my children and a lot of the time my husband is traveling. I have a couple of fears, well my ego has a couple of fears regarding this since a lot of my meditation occurs when I am alone and responsible for the lives of others.    

If I have an enlightened experience, I will continue to watch and protect my children, right?  This probably sounds silly but I have a fear of having no self and then letting go of the fear and anxiety that I think is currently protecting them.

One of the harder things for me regarding ego death is letting my mental grip on them go. It always comes back to them.  I can't let go because I feel like they need me.  Any advice on this would be greatly appreciated?

I love my family and I do fear that may change because I do not know what higher consciousness is going to bring me.  Is that normal?  

Thanks in advance for any advice.  

[Prabhaker]

The whole idea that children are your possession is wrong. They are born through you but they do not belong to you. You have a past; they have only future. They are not going to live according to you. To live according to you will be almost equivalent to not living at all. They have to live according to themselves in freedom, in responsibility, in danger, in challenge. That's how one becomes strong.

Once you understand that your children do not belong to you that they belong to existence, you have been just a passage you have to be grateful to existence that it has chosen you to be a passage for a few beautiful children. But you are not to interfere in their growth, in their potential. You are not to impose yourself upon them. They are not going to live in the same times, they are not going to face the same problems; they will be part of another world. Don't prepare them for this world, this society, this time, because then you will be creating troubles for them. They will find themselves unfit, unqualified.

4 hours ago, Green Warrior said:

If I have an enlightened experience, I will continue to watch and protect my children, right?

If you have enlightened experience, only then you can watch and protect your children, only then you will know how to raise children. 

[Aware]

9 hours ago, Green Warrior said:

I do not know what higher consciousness is going to bring me.

It brings you nothing, don't worry.

[Green Warrior]

@Prabhaker Thank you for your guidance.    @Aware You are right.  Thank you.