Freeing myself from Delusions(practicing self honesty).

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Can I face my worst fears? 

Can I be totally self honest? 

Lets see if I can. 

A journey towards liberating myself from Delusions. 

This is already hard for me. 

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Edited December 26, 2021 by Preety_India

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I can give you an example. If I wanted to be a millionaire, I should be ready to put in the work that is needed to earn those millions. If I have to be honest and humble enough to admit that I cannot work that hard or do what it takes, then I should stop thinking/dreaming of becoming a millionaire and accept my current state of conditions and live a low budget life. 

 

It's almost like champagne taste on a beer budget, if you don't want compromises in life. 

 

On one hand you want what guys with infinite confidence end up getting - a high value woman. 

 

On the other hand, you aren't willing to cultivate that confidence because you find it unnecessary and fake. 

 

In that case since you wish to remain humble, you have to go with the tradeoff that comes with your territory, and accept the woman that you will win at your level of confidence, which might be an average woman or below average. 

 

You have to settle for what's given to you if you cannot do what higher goals demand of you. 

 

I have to settle for a humble life if a high value life means I have to compromise with my principles. And that's exactly what I did. I left a high paying Wall Street type of job (I was working as a financial analyst at the time for 2 months), because it meant I had to compromise on my core values and cheat people into investments because that's what my boss was doing. I resigned and quit the job because I didn't want to scam people out of their hard earned money. Now that guy who was the boss had fast cars and big homes and big toys because he did all this unethical stuff as a Financial broker. I didn't want to be a part of it. So I don't regret not having that kind of lifestyle because I at least have my principles, I get good sleep at night,because I didn't do what I fundamentally found unethical.. 

 

You want something you go get it. If it feels fake, then you do things that are not fake or insincere. Any outcome that occurs is a natural consequence of your actions and you will deserve it. You will have to settle for it because that's how the world works. 

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Edited December 26, 2021 by Preety_India

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The thought about self honesty popped up in my mind today. 

It's December 27.

I really don't know where this is going 

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I feel like if I had a true guide/therapist they would deconstruct me little by little, like peeling the layers of an onion. 

 

 

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I think the traps that I usually set myself into are generally idealogical traps and self denial. 

I'm looking forward to these things that I wanna do for 2022. 

• Spiritual work. 
•  Emotional and psychological work 
• Stage Orange Productivity stuff 

I want to combine all the above. 

 

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Edited December 26, 2021 by Preety_India

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I can sometimes be very ideological. 

In the sense I hold on to things. 

Certain ideas are important to me and I feel like certain things have to be a certain way. 

 

For example I consider myself to be an SJW. 

This is very ideological. Because it's an identity built around a body of beliefs. 

The problem with the SJW mindset is that it clashes with reality. 

My SJW mentality or mindset means the lack of ability or simply the inability to accept things as they are. In this sense, I need to be able to free myself from this self delusion. Free myself from  illusions. I have to be honest with myself. I have to see for what works and what doesn't.. 

Who am I deluding other than my self? 

 

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@Marcel I am sorry, I'm not able to understand your post. 

What was the confusion? 

 

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@Marcel I hope you slept well 

 

 

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@Marcel ahh I see.. So sweet though. I am in a dream simply reading your words 

You definitely have some magic going on. 

 

I forgot to show you flowers. I collected some cute flower pictures online. I thought of ideas of what I could gift you like a flower.. I was thinking about ideas. I want to gift you some cool flowers. 

Throws blumen at your face darl. 

 

 

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1 minute ago, Marcel said:

*Throws some back and creates a cute and soft flower throwing war 

I'm crying right now. This made me feel so much better. I really want this. 

 

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On 13/08/2021 at 2:51 AM, Marcel said:

I´d add.

Integrity

High level of consciousness

Open Mindedness

Sets clear boundaries and enforces them

Independence

Goal oriented

Seeks Harmony

Holistic thinking

Tries to remind myself of all of these points.