roopepa

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This is one of those things that keeps coming back to mind, and it keeps me 'stuck'.

So basically I don't see what I want to do for a living, and I don't even see any hobbies or things that truly inspire me.

I believe I need to do something in order to live, I need to have a job. But I can't find any carreer options that feels right to me.

I could do pretty much anything. I could become a doctor, a lawyer, a politician, a philosopher, a journalist, a musician or a freakin energy healer if I wanted to. But none of those truly makes me want to give what I got.

I envy people who has clear interests and passions. I'd like to have a thing what my life is about, a thing I'm passionate about and what everything else would build on. Like music, poetry, stuff like that. All these people building their carreers and living their passions. And I'm stuck here.

The only thing that comes close would be some kind of communal living. I'd like to simply hang out somewhere in beautiful nature and have fun with people. Like a monastery for beauty and fun times. But that seems too far away, I don't know where to even begin.

As of right now, the only thing I really enjoy doing, is watching movies, listening to music and walking around the city. But that won't pay the bills.

I'm probably running from something to these thoughts. What am I running from?


Everyone is waiting for eternity but the Shaman asks: "how about today?"

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Your ideas don't seem pragmatic. Although coming from a good place. Most communes have cult like mentality. Simply doesn't work. 

You need to figure out a way to survive and pay your bills. There is no escape unless you are running a business. But handling a business is no less stressful than wage slavery.

Come out of your illusions. See reality. 

 

 


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12 minutes ago, roopepa said:

This is one of those things that keeps coming back to mind, and it keeps me 'stuck'.

So basically I don't see what I want to do for a living, and I don't even see any hobbies or things that truly inspire me.

I believe I need to do something in order to live, I need to have a job. But I can't find any carreer options that feels right to me.

I could do pretty much anything. I could become a doctor, a lawyer, a politician, a philosopher, a journalist, a musician or a freakin energy healer if I wanted to. But none of those truly makes me want to give what I got.

I envy people who has clear interests and passions. I'd like to have a thing what my life is about, a thing I'm passionate about and what everything else would build on. Like music, poetry, stuff like that. All these people building their carreers and living their passions. And I'm stuck here.

The only thing that comes close would be some kind of communal living. I'd like to simply hang out somewhere in beautiful nature and have fun with people. Like a monastery for beauty and fun times. But that seems too far away, I don't know where to even begin.

As of right now, the only thing I really enjoy doing, is watching movies, listening to music and walking around the city. But that won't pay the bills.

I'm probably running from something to these thoughts. What am I running from?

I think the only way to pursue a passion in a sustainable way is to have a compelling vision about what you want to achieve. Once you find a vision that compels you, I believe consciousness itself will move heaven and earth to make your vision a reality.

Starting a retreat is a very realistic and practical idea, especially nowadays. Many people are looking for an escape to refresh themselves and gain new perspectives. I have been looking into vipassana retreats the past few years and the waitlists are always insane, there is incredible demand. If the vision of running your own retreat really compels you, then I think it's worth taking time to reflect and write some thoughts down about what that would look like and how you would feel there etc.

And don't feel bad about doing what you naturally drawn too. I love this video about values, he really touches on this idea well. Don't worry about how people judge your interests, the only thing that matters is what you are authentically drawn too.

 

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@roopepa I’d give the Actualized.org Life Purpose Course a shot. It did wonders for me in figuring out my passions and interest.

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Try not smoking weed ;) Take it from an ex- full-time stoner.


Intrinsic joy is revealed in the marriage of meaning and being.

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You seem a little hung up about having a job, needing money to pay the bills, needing something in order to live.

Joining a commune is an option, I find the idea pretty romantic myself. But I would ask yourself if that's sincerely what you want, or if it's just a way to run away from traditional jobs, capitalism, and that sort of thing. Watch some Youtube videos about communes and see if it appeals to you. There are several across US and Canada that will accept pretty much anyone on a trial basis.

If you really have no idea what your passion could be, all you can do is pick a few things and start trying them. As a starting point, think about what subjects you enjoyed in school and what hobbies you had as a kid.

I second the LP course as well, although I've heard some people here with 0 interests/passions struggle a bit.

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5 hours ago, Carl-Richard said:

Try not smoking weed ;) Take it from an ex- full-time stoner.

I quit weed over a year ago


Everyone is waiting for eternity but the Shaman asks: "how about today?"

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I'd like to let go the wheel. I'd like to go with the flow. I'd like to literally just do what I want, nothing more and nothing less.

I resonate a lot with Ryokan Taigu:

" The number of days since I left the world and
Entrusted myself to Heaven is long forgotten.
Yesterday, sitting peacefully in the green mountains;
This morning, playing with the village children.
My robe is full of patches and
I cannot remember how long I have had the same bowl for begging.
On clear nights I walk with my staff and chant poems;
During the day I spread out a straw mat and nap.
Who says many cannot lead such a life?
Just follow my example. "

His way of life was very interesting. What I see through his poems is something so simple and beautiful the mind can't grasp it.

I wish I had the balls and the guts to follow the example.


Everyone is waiting for eternity but the Shaman asks: "how about today?"

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@roopepa  Thank you for giving me the idea for my next video.

In short: sense of purpose, that clear sense of "this is my thing", only comes after people have thanked you for something you love to do for them.

That's because our hardwired sense of purpose is tied into being useful in a community.

So no idea will feel real until real people have said "thank you for doing this for me".

There are some variations on this, such as getting real life feedback in other ways that what you did was useful, such as people leaving good reviews, buying and using your products, or even just watching their lives improve in some way as a result of what you did.

To get to that place, you need to make small bets.

Trying stuff out and getting to that place of feedback, is a much better strategy than just thinking about the perfect idea.

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29 minutes ago, roopepa said:

I resonate a lot with Ryokan Taigu

"The number of days since I left the world and
Entrusted myself to Heaven is long forgotten.

There's your answer.


I simply am. You simply are. We are The Same One forever. Let us join in Glory. 

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