The Challenges of Making Bold Life Changes

[Raphael]

I have the feeling that this forum will be dead in 1 - 2 years or maybe I'm just projecting here...

[Etherial Cat]

Je me reconnais tellement dans ce que tu écris ces derniers jours. C'est flippant!

Lire tes posts me donne l'impression qu'on a pas mal des mêmes traumas, problèmes et vues. Aussi, je trouve qu'on est pas mal au même stade de développement.

[Raphael]

@Etherial Cat

Oui, j'ai remarqué ça aussi. Perso, j'ai l'impression d'avoir sérieusement "level up" au cours des deux derniers mois. On a tous les deux supprimé nos images de profil et informations personelles. On n'a plus aucun besoin de se montrer pour se prouver

Edited December 21, 2021 by Raphael

[Etherial Cat]

2 hours ago, Raphael said:

@Etherial Cat

Oui, j'ai remarqué ça aussi. Perso, j'ai l'impression d'avoir sérieusement "level up" au cours des deux derniers mois. On a tous les deux supprimé nos images de profil et informations personelles. On n'a plus aucun besoin de se montrer pour se prouver

Il semble qu'il y ait un fort phénomène de vase communicant sur ce forum, et une certaine perméabilité des idées. C'est assez intéressant. 

Je sais pas si ca vient du fait qu'on réalise tous les mêmes chose de manière plus ou moins organique ou bien si on s'influence en lisant les postes d'autrui.

J'imagine que c'est un mix des deux? 

[Raphael]

Enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough...

[Raphael]

ENOUGH

[Raphael]

• Enough fighting
• Enough being competitive
• Enough being passive aggressive
• Enough dishonesty
• Enough lying
• Enough not admitting what I want to admit
• Enough denying myself everywhere that I see myself
• Enough pretending to be self-accepting where I'm not self-accepting
• Enough seeing people as inferior as me
• Enough pretending that I cannot interact a minimum with people who are different than me
• Enough denying my feelings
• Enough denying the mind
• Enough making myself sick from not being authentic
• Enough hiding from myself
• Enough being impressed by anybody: being impressed comes the rejection of a part of myself which comes from the fear of admitting my similarities
• Enough pretending to be a kind and caring person where I'm not
• Enough pretending to be responsible when I'm irresponsible
• Enough pretending to be irresponsible when I am responsible
• Enough denying my worth
• Enough creating a fake story about myself
• Enough fakery
• Enough recluding
• Enough pretending to be superior to other people because I spend time on an online forum about self-actualization and reaching my full potential
• Enough pretending to be smart
• Enough pretending to be dumb
• Enough pretending that I'm a hard or smart worker
• Enough denying all the efforts that I put it
• Enough denying feminity
• Enough denying masculinity
• Enough pretending that I want success in my life or want to have an impact on the world
• Enough pretending that I am not interested in people and relationships
• Enough pretending that I don't want any friends
• Enough bragging
• Enough thinking that I am advanced
• Enough denying how developed I am
• Enough pretending that I know something
• Enough pretending that I don't know something
• Enough not expressing myself fully even if it's ugly, even if it's dirty, even if it's disorganized, even if people doesn't like me
• Enough not caring about people
• Enough with the pressure to perform
• Enough denying the value of work, discipline, organization, planning, goal setting
• Enough blaming myself or others or my environment. I am everything, whatever I blame I only blame myself. The only thing to do is to recognize what is happening and adapt in consequence
• Enough entertaining so many internal dialogues within different parts of myself: by doing this self-acceptance is very partial and limited. Full self-acceptance isn't something that we tell ourselves but something that we are
• Enough denying my love for life

Enough. Just enough. I'm sick of all that.

[Preety_India]

1 minute ago, Raphael said:

• Enough fighting
• Enough being competitive
• Enough being passive aggressive
• Enough dishonesty
• Enough lying
• Enough not admitting what I want to admit
• Enough denying myself everywhere that I see myself
• Enough pretending to be self-accepting where I'm not self-accepting
• Enough seeing people as inferior as me
• Enough pretending that I cannot interact a minimum with people who are different than me
• Enough denying my feelings
• Enough denying the mind
• Enough making myself sick from not being authentic
• Enough hiding from myself
• Enough being impressed by anybody: being impressed comes the rejection of a part of myself which comes from the fear of admitting my similarities
• Enough pretending to be a kind and caring person where I'm not
• Enough pretending to be responsible when I'm irresponsible
• Enough pretending to be irresponsible when I am responsible
• Enough denying my worth
• Enough creating a fake story about myself
• Enough fakery
• Enough recluding
• Enough pretending to be superior to other people because I spend time on an online forum about self-actualization and reaching my full potential
• Enough pretending to be smart
• Enough pretending to be dumb
• Enough pretending that I'm a hard or smart worker
• Enough denying all the efforts that I put it
• Enough denying feminity
• Enough denying masculinity
• Enough pretending that I want success in my life or want to have an impact on the world
• Enough pretending that I am not interested in people and relationships
• Enough pretending that I don't want any friends
• Enough bragging
• Enough thinking that I am advanced
• Enough denying how developed I am
• Enough pretending that I know something
• Enough pretending that I don't know something
• Enough not expressing myself fully even if it's ugly, even if it's dirty, even if it's disorganized, even if people doesn't like me
• Enough not caring about people
• Enough with the pressure to perform
• Enough denying the value of work, discipline, organization, planning, goal setting
• Enough blaming myself or others or my environment. I am everything, whatever I blame I only blame myself. The only thing to do is to recognize what is happening and adapt in consequence
• Enough entertaining so many internal dialogues within different parts of myself: by doing this self-acceptance is very partial and limited. Full self-acceptance isn't something that we tell ourselves but something that we are
• Enough denying my love for life

Enough. Just enough. I'm sick of all that.

 

 

 

You basically said everything I wanted to say. 

This feels like I'm talking to myself. 

Thank you. This post is helpful to me

 

[Raphael]

Be, just be

[Preety_India]

Sometimes I feel like I am mixture of both INTP and INFJ. 

Because I constantly resonate so much with INTP, it's mind boggling to me. 

Plus last year when I did the test it was INTP as the result. 

This year the result was INFJ-T. 

Honestly I feel like I constantly switch between INTP and INFJ-T. 

 

[Raphael]

By being I am everything. I can do everything, I can relate with everyone, I can achieve anything gracefully, effortlessly without any pressure because there is not the pressure to not be, there is only being

[Raphael]

@Preety_India

I'm currently integrating parts of myself when I see them. I'm integrating you, you are a part of me.

[Raphael]

@Preety_India

I feel like a mixture of mostly INTP - INFJ - ENFP - an even ENTJ sometimes.

Currently, all these models are breaking down for me.

[Raphael]

7 minutes ago, Raphael said:

By being I am everything. I can do everything, I can relate with everyone, I can achieve anything gracefully, effortlessly without any pressure because there is not the pressure to not be, there is only being

Be... be... just be... be...

[Raphael]

Be

[Preety_India]

12 minutes ago, Raphael said:

By being I am everything. I can do everything, I can relate with everyone, I can achieve anything gracefully, effortlessly without any pressure because there is not the pressure to not be, there is only being

This is a great insight. I will note it down in my journal as well. 

Also I like your idea of integrating different aspects.. 

[Raphael]

Be

[Raphael]

Be

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