Spirituality is nothing to play with

[Nadosa]

My journey started 4 years ago, rather involuntarily. I basically thought on one day (I was 19 years old) that I was dying, accompanied by suicidal thoughts that didn't come from a place of true love, they just appeared out of nowhere whilst a part of the brain felt like it broke. 

The security-web of the ever-present, ignorant, unconscious belief patterns were within one day shattered into nothingness. Pain and suffering were on their peak. I was losing my mind, I was completely utterly broken to the point I didn't believe in sanity anymore. I was just there. I couldn't pinpoint who was there. It was just me. 

I faced my own death, not one time, not two times, the journey was filled with dozen times of letting go of "self-referential thoughts", everything that was left then was just nothing but presence.

If anyone goes through something similar, trust in the process, trust the love. I know what it's like when you fear yourself, when you think and believe that you don't exist. I didnt know what happened, but everytime presence shines through, I know what I am, who I am, with an unshakable trust in Love and my Self.

Edited December 16, 2021 by Nadosa

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