Is there potential for mental masturbation while burning through karma?

[Kyle Gjerseth]

I recently watched Leo's burning through karma episode and I've been allowing myself to do rather unproductive things a lot more than usual. I was trying to "wean off" certain behaviors such as eating candy, porn, social media, tv, and internet, but now I'm telling myself that it could potentially be helpful for me to engage in these things as much as I please, so I will experience the unpleasant emotional responses to these softer addictions. I was also a hardcore drug addict when I started watching personal development content, especially Leo's content, and it's my understanding that I was not suitable for advanced pd and spiritual practices at that time. I got clean for a couple months then relapsed all while still consuming this content. I'm 3 months clean now. I'm curious if this idea of burning through karma is being used as an excuse for me not attempting to cut back on these softer addictions anymore. I'm unsure if I'm deceiving myself, but as I've practiced meditation, self-inquiry, and doing psychedelics (responsibly now) I've come to realized that Leo is absolutely correct that we deceive ourselves to a massive degree, so it's probable in my opinion that I'm deceiving myself now. My fear is that this is mental masturbation, something I've been engaging in for almost my whole life.

 

Can anybody relate to this or give me some pointers? Thanks!

[Carl-Richard]

There is a tendency to misunderstand karma as something bad. Your decision to get off drugs is also about burning karma. What you should ask yourself is this: what do I really want? Do I really want to do drugs? Find your highest desire and pursue it. If that doesn't work, what is your next highest desire? Is there something you've missed? Go down the list until you have no more desires. Don't start at the bottom of the list.