How does one change the deepest parts of one's psyche and attains some integrity

[KatiesKarma]

Until 21 years or so your brain and personality develops. Your routine makes or breaks you. How hard wired in is everything up until that point? What about genetics, do they predetermine like 90% of your behaviour and preferences...?

So that leaves me wondering - as I vaguely remember Leo talking about this in some video of his - how do I upgrade my brain. There was this metaphor of hacking your phone (mind) and reprogramming it as opposed to installing new apps. (completely new functions)

I'm interested in this as I have profound emotional problems, can't feel really feel anything. No sense of self in the bad sense, maybe ptsd type of thing. It's like I have a really really low consciousness brain/soul.

Or what type of activies lead to "integration" & activate the entire brain? I feel as though only a small part of my brain works in a disconnected, shitty manner. Brain fog + mind blank.

I've done some drugs but in a dumb way. I didnt prepare and got nothing out of it. Just the most random bullshit hallucinations that increased my nihilism (saw rats everywhere, or really odd cartoonish type of things). I'll leave my hands off of them now because I am sure one joint and a sleepless night will literally ensure the onset of psychosis for me

 

Thanks for reading my rant and endless questioning

 

 

[BipolarGrowth]

Don’t focus on what’s predetermined. Focus on what you can determine if you want anything to get better. No God in the world is going to save you if you’re not actively saving yourself and others, and even then, he’ll kill you. Find the highest thing you could ever do in every moment. And never stop. Growth is a second-by-second process. 
 

If you need spiritual strength, pray to the strongest man the world has ever known. Jesus Christ. 

[Raze]

The mind and the brain are different things.

for the brain, rather than upgrade it, you need to properly nourish it, I recommend the ultramind solution, this can help with health issues and brain fog as well as depression and anxiety. Remove toxicity from it, when you spend time on things that waste time and are needlessly negative.

for the mind, that’s more complicated. Firstly I’d recommend internal family systems therapy, or self therapy by Jay Earely. This gives an alternate approach to understanding your personality and controlling it better.

you can also train the mind to get more control of it and understand it better. “the mind illuminated” is one book on this subject that shows how to use meditation for this. If not that book you can instead try unified mindfulness, a free online program. I’d also recommend “break through difficult emotions” and “break through pain” by Shinzen Young. Meditation has been shown to alter the brain and optimize it, in addition to many other positive effects.

Edited December 10, 2021 by Raze