Emotional Shutdowns - Dealing with disappointment

[Striving for more]

Going through an emotional shutdown, because I have created disappointed. 

I anticipated a great experience I had waited for years, but I didn't fucking plan it out in time and now, I'm not able to partake in it due to a lack of planning. 

It is 100% my fault, and that is why I am so disappointed. I was so emotionally attached to this experience & I only needed to do some simple steps, ahead of time to avoid missing out. 

I need to deal with this shit soon, I dont want to "Make it at 30" I want a fulfilling exiting life now!, this fucking month, next month this year right now, it's already kinda too late. TIme to plan every day from here, time to catapault to my goals & life. No waiting around & fuck patience, theres no fun missing years of your life, it hurts, im fighting against time here.

Extreme success starts now in every area, simultaneously, especially money, social life & exitement. Nothing more importing than exitement & thrills, fuck a boring life, nothings more important to me than that, nothing makes me happier. But that requires planning, requires logistics, requires money, requires skills, requires timing, requires discipline.

All the fun stuff requires repeated boring boring work that 99% of peooke arent willing to do, like strategic planning, done day after day, but the payoff is very exciting life, it's counterintuitive 

In fact, maybe its not even that boring, I tried the pre mortem technique & I thougth wow This is fun! this is so fun. 

This has been my biggest weakness, and unfortunately only through incessant failure, disappointment and pain have I finally learnt my lesson (Well I better make sure I do this time). 

I need to fucking plan to the end. I need to plan my life out & take this dead seriously, nothing in the world is more important, not mediation nothing. 

Mastering this weakness trumps everything else in importance, and I overlooked it completely. 

I know I have more life to go, but I am getting older now, oppurtunities, experiences only come a long so often, I can't stomach missing anything else.

I underestimated Leo, many of his older videos are just brilliant, But again 1 by 1, have to apply them 1 by 1. 

 

My only currently relevant videos, Applying these for at least the next month. 

1. The pre mortem technique
2. The Power of Asking Questions 

 

Strong disappointment & emotional attachment causing me to want to drink, want some drink & want to slack off this evening & go to the pub & drown my sorrow, No. I can't 

Must use pain as a motivator, reminder that you gotta push goals urself, it can happen as fast as u want it to. You can get rich in 6 months, u can get a hot girl in a month, but it only happens as fast as you push it, it wont happen if you pussy out. 

"Play by your own rules or someone else will make them for you. The game is enjoyable if you’re able to play it on your own terms, even if delt a bad hand.

I have to plan if I'm gonna play the game by my own rules, fuck society's rules & fuck society up, rape society & come up on top, with no trouble. & Live the Leftist libertarian dream that I need, 

 

Edited December 9, 2021 by Striving for more

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