Motherhood

[ElenaO]

Luke doesn't like putting new clothes on. Either because he's very self-conscious or just because he doesn't like any changes. I think the former one is more likely. It's Halloween today and he does not want to put the costume on (we bought spider man), Carl could get on him jack-o-lantern pajama on him though. We'll go trick or treating today at 6pm with Sammy as well. Sam's got his own pumpkin costume. Carl bought for himself a red t shirt with a carved pumpkin face. I'm going to wear mickey ears. Luke does not want to go, but he'll do it (thankfully Carl will be with us, because he'll do almost anything with Dad). 
 

[ElenaO]

I'm sick for the 5th time since Luke started preschool (this is crazy! arghhh!). I have a sore throat and I am feeling tired. Sammy got his covid, flu, hep b and pnemoucoccal conjugate shots today. I feel so bad for him! Poor guy, he's already teething (second tooth, yay), sick and now also COVID shot? 
I felt awful after mine a week ago (not as bad as for the other ones though). 
Me and Luke are doing much better though. He hugs me a lot and generally is feeling pretty good. Apparently he has a friend (well, "friend"), Vera at preschool. I'm sure it's really not anything, just funny. Her mom tells us that Vera speaks about Luke, that he's kind and that he is her favorite <3. 
That makes my heart melt. 
  

[Yimpa]

I appreciate your patience and tenacity! 

[ElenaO]

11 hours ago, Yimpa said:

I appreciate your patience and tenacity! 

Thanks so much. 

[ElenaO]

Sammy was feeling bad yesterday, he had a low grade fever at night and in the morning. COVID shot, probably. I gave him tylenol, it wasn't easy because he did not want to drink it from the syringe. 
Carl is gone now with Luke. It starts to become a pattern that I have both kids for 45m-1h in the mornings so that he can nap. Yesterday though that was too much (but it often is like that, it's still worth it), because I also cooked breakfast for everyone and had to clean up after too. It was hectic (not that it isn't usually, but it was especially at that time, with Sam feeling sick, etc.). 
It was the first breakfast together that we ate at home all. We've been to cafes a couple of times together for a snack, but this was a fully cooked one at home. It's nice, but it puts a lot of burden on me, so next time I'll tell Carl to either cook or clean up after. 
I need to lose around 10 pounds of weight (8 would be fine too). I gained it during pregnancy and probably also after birth some too. It ain't easy.
 

[ElenaO]

Luke is sick again, I noticed he has fever right before he went to bed. 101 F. Sam was also feeling off after his second nap, it was intense It gets to me sometimes... It's just walking around and trying to soothe him. It rained almost the entire day today and my mom was off today too. I walked to Ken's market, and bought a small piece of smoked gouda - it was nice but later I regretted it (when will I lose all that weight?). 
I'm tired even though I kind of napped in the morning while Sam was napping.  

 

[ElenaO]

Turns out it's some stomach bug, that got Luke sick (he has diarrhea, and poor appetite). Sammy continues to be very fussy, I have no idea why - I wish babies could speak and explain what is going on! I went in the morning to Herkimer coffee shop and wanted to get a latte, but the line was insane so I just left and got one from Diva. It was refreshing to do something I really liked! Gave me energy to do things later. 
My mom and Luke went to Children's Museum in the afternoon, which was nice, because they often come back when I want a break (to poop, to change, etc). They went back by bus from downtown. 

[ElenaO]

I do think I know why Sam is fussy - he's awake a lot during the night. I increased his last wake window to be 3.5 hours and it seems to have helped just a little. He wasn't doing as bad this morning, however, I've heard him making some sounds at night. His eyes were closed but he was making whimpering sounds, like if something was bothering him. Then at times he'd open his eyes for a second and then close again. 
While Luke is at preschool and Sam is sleeping I'm trying to learn how to teach yoga.  

[ElenaO]

I am still confused on why Sam sleeps so badly. This morning I saw him whimper in sleep and then he suddenly woke up startled. Is it dreaming? 
He appeared tired this morning and wasn't happy generally. 
I do feel pretty tired, my feet are tired too. I went to the dentist yesterday and got my first crown installed (never had this before). It was so long and I got so exhausted mentally. I also didn't do any numbing because I don't usually do it. This was fine until they started putting some rubber in there, that was hurting on my gums. It was also so expensive! I paid $625 with insurance coverage.   

[ElenaO]

Sam has been sick, it turns out. He's still sick, it's been over a week. He has had rash for the last 3 days, and has been crying on and off - no question more than usual. Sometimes it's just too much, I understand he feels bad but carrying him around is just exhausting. Sometimes I have these thoughts - when will this marathon end? When can I rest? 
Luke slapped Sam yesterday, which always triggers me so much. I got so upset. I started crying, Luke was crying, Sam was crying the least, interestingly.