Im gonna end my suffering and start from zero.

[Nadosa]

There is no other way. My beliefs grabbed a hold of me. I always knew I must live consciously in order to feel normal. You CANT expect a life free of suffering when you believe random thoughts about yourself.

I dont know what happened to me, why I blindly believed in thoughts about myself. 

What I can clearly feel is fear of the unknown. What will happen and what is ahead. I may no longer dwell on a past that does no longer serve me.

Today is the start of a new person. Enough suffering. Enough victimhood. 

 

 

 

[NoSelfSelf]

Nice attitude ?

[silene]

15 hours ago, Nadosa said:

What I can clearly feel is fear of the unknown. What will happen and what is ahead. I may no longer dwell on a past that does no longer serve me.

Imo fear is a close relative of excitement. If thoughts about the future are judged negatively, the emotion is experienced as fear. If thoughts are judged positively, the emotion is experienced as excitement. 

If something is unknown, and you feel fear, that suggests you are weaving a tapestry of negative thoughts around what is unknown. You could just as well view the unknown-ness as an empty space to fill with your positive plans, dreams, visions, to feel excited about. If you can dare to embrace the freedom! (Easier said than done, I'm working on this too). 

Edited December 6, 2021 by silene

[Nahm]

You got this. ???