Like someone gave me a beating

[Javfly33]

Since I Dont drink coffee Im experiencing extreme non-interest for porn and sex, especially porn. 

Today i just forced myself to FAP because i felt i needed. With most Boring and vanilla video i could find. At the end i actually enjoyed It.

HOWEVER, its been +2 hours since I did and i feel dead tired, its like my whole body aches a little, ESPECIALLY I have this feeling of constantly wanting to stretch my legs, i fucking always get this uncomfortable feeling after I fap (and It doesnt go away until 3 hours after fapping). Could someone Tell me if this might be an indicator of a nutrient deficiency or something like that?

[Rilles]

Its just a post-nut chemicals in your brain. Dont worry about it. Cooming takes up alot of energy too, especially if youre really in a rut. 

[bloomer]

@Javfly33

46 minutes ago, Javfly33 said:

Today i just forced myself to FAP because i felt i needed.

Weak coomer shit. You make me sick. Step up your game. Otherwise painhub awaits you.

[Rilles]

7 minutes ago, Knowledge Hoarder said:

As long as you stay away from that findom stuff, it's fine. Don't you DARE waste more fucking money on those vultures.

Haha I didnt know this existed! Thanks for giving me a laugh! What a lovely fetish!

[Javfly33]

@bloomer  ?? Nah but yeah you are right

@Knowledge Hoarder Yeah since quitting caffeine I am more conscious and I don´t find findom appealing at all. I just find it quite false and such a facade. Never again. Gave away +2000€ probably in over 2 years! @Rilles Which might not seem a lot but for someone who was unemployed and then when I have been employed I have a low paying job is a lot

[Javfly33]

4 minutes ago, Rilles said:

Haha I didnt know this existed! Thanks for giving me a laugh! What a lovely fetish!

It's not lovely Lol but I get what you mean. From outside it does seems as a joke. If you are a curious search In twitter the hashtags #loser #paypig #findom etc. You'll see payments of today of plenty of "losers" ? You'll be amazed how crazy this fetish is ?

[Raze]

4 hours ago, Javfly33 said:

Since I Dont drink coffee Im experiencing extreme non-interest for porn and sex, especially porn. 

Today i just forced myself to FAP because i felt i needed. With most Boring and vanilla video i could find. At the end i actually enjoyed It.

HOWEVER, its been +2 hours since I did and i feel dead tired, its like my whole body aches a little, ESPECIALLY I have this feeling of constantly wanting to stretch my legs, i fucking always get this uncomfortable feeling after I fap (and It doesnt go away until 3 hours after fapping). Could someone Tell me if this might be an indicator of a nutrient deficiency or something like that?

 

Are you low vitamin D, low magnesium, or low testosterone ?

[Javfly33]

52 minutes ago, Raze said:

Are you low vitamin D, low magnesium, or low testosterone ?

I always suspected i have low testosterone But i never do analysis 

Magnesium i Dont think so due to my diet

Vitamin d IS the one from the Sun?

[Terell Kirby]

14 hours ago, Javfly33 said:

Today i just forced myself to FAP because i felt i needed.

Interesting..most guys don’t have this problem.

Could be low testosterone.

[Emotionalmosquito]

12 hours ago, Javfly33 said:

Vitamin d IS the one from the Sun?

Yes.

Make sure you have optimal zinc levels as well. As it is the main nutrient lost through cooming.

[Javfly33]

On 4/12/2021 at 7:05 PM, Knowledge Hoarder said:

As long as you stay away from that findom stuff, it's fine. Don't you DARE waste more fucking money on those vultures.

@Knowledge Hoarder I relapsed yesterday and spent 230€ on a one sitting ? with a romanian bitch.  100€ for a 8min video, 80€ for a Pic of his tits, and 50€ just to speak to her ?‍♂️

[Lyubov]

On 12/4/2021 at 9:15 PM, Knowledge Hoarder said:

Lol I also didn't know it existed, until I watched a video on youtube about the topic. It appears to belong to a humiliation category, along with foot fetish, etc.

I have a friend who does femdom. She’s pretty good looking. I kind of resent her though for this. Her weirdo boyfriend broke her heart so she’s going through a “I hate men” phase and transitioned from general onlyfans nudes to femdom. It attracts some really sad men and some really unhealthy women. It’s not healthy. 

As for fapping, dude I literally came like 4 times with my gf over the weekend 1 sat 3 sun and then fapped twice on Monday on my own. My sex drive is insanely high especially since I’ve gotten active at the gym again and am super in love. 

Cultivate passion energy. If your passion for life is super high your sex drive will usually be super high, although I think you then have to learn to transmute all this passion so you aren’t just fucking for several hours a day. 

Edited December 21, 2021 by Lyubov

[Jacob Morres]

@Lyubov ye I've heard bdsm can be done from anger or lust. The former I think is very unethical. Maybe even abuse rationalized as bdsm 

[Lyubov]

52 minutes ago, Jacob Morres said:

@Lyubov ye I've heard bdsm can be done from anger or lust. The former I think is very unethical. Maybe even abuse rationalized as bdsm 

why not both? I think bdsm when practiced in a healthy way is expressing anger in a healthy way. It's not really my cup of tea though. Too "culty" and weird for me like some sort of star trek fandom. I think some light bondage stuff, consensual rapey themed role play and a toy whip from a sex shop doesn't really count as bdsm since it's so common today. bdsm is kinda underground. I think you kinda have to connect all the sort of emotions that arise (anger being one of them) when feeling that strong passion and then connect a path for them to the heart. This also pulls me out of my head in the process. I've found myself having this surge of passion during sex that feels similar to anger, has some shades of it so to speak, but it connects to my heart area and love is guiding it and sort of using it as fuel to further love deeper and rejuvenate the passion. Really rough, life changing passionate sex happens during this process. It ended in tears with both of us professing our love and trust for each other just recently. Anger isn't a problem so to speak when it arrises. It just depends how it's used during the sexual process. I do think it's possible for abuse and very dysfunctional sexual habits to take place under a bdsm / femdom guise however. 

Edited December 21, 2021 by Lyubov

[Javfly33]

5 hours ago, Knowledge Hoarder said:

I'd rather have you watch porn twice a day, than paying them MFs.

Ey, false alarm. I know why i relapsed. I had to take a coffee because i was starting a new job, and since I Dont have tolerance to coffee, i got very stimulated. When i take stimulants i completely lose control with porn. Before this there was 2 MONTHS since I did findom. So yeah as long as i stay off stims, my findom relapsed are not that concerning. 

[Javfly33]

2 hours ago, Lyubov said:

why not both? I think bdsm when practiced in a healthy way is expressing anger in a healthy way. It's not really my cup of tea though. Too "culty" and weird for me like some sort of star trek fandom. I think some light bondage stuff, consensual rapey themed role play and a toy whip from a sex shop doesn't really count as bdsm since it's so common today. bdsm is kinda underground. I think you kinda have to connect all the sort of emotions that arise (anger being one of them) when feeling that strong passion and then connect a path for them to the heart. This also pulls me out of my head in the process. I've found myself having this surge of passion during sex that feels similar to anger, has some shades of it so to speak, but it connects to my heart area and love is guiding it and sort of using it as fuel to further love deeper and rejuvenate the passion. Really rough, life changing passionate sex happens during this process. It ended in tears with both of us professing our love and trust for each other just recently. Anger isn't a problem so to speak when it arrises. It just depends how it's used during the sexual process. I do think it's possible for abuse and very dysfunctional sexual habits to take place under a bdsm / femdom guise however. 

What hurts about reading this is that before getting into the anger energy before i have to trascend the shame energy ?‍♂️ and I've been stucked in that one for a lifetime so far

5 hours ago, Knowledge Hoarder said:

I'd rather have you watch porn twice a day, than paying them MFs.

 

[hyruga]

Ultimately, you need to forgive yourself and be your own best friend.

Check out the book: How to be your own best friend.

[Yarco]

On 12/4/2021 at 0:11 PM, Javfly33 said:

ESPECIALLY I have this feeling of constantly wanting to stretch my legs

Weird, I get restless leg syndrome sometimes and getting off actually helps relieve it

[museumoftrees]

How's the caffeine detox going ?

[Javfly33]

@Knowledge Hoarder I relapsed yesterday hard, I sent +700€ in just 6-7 hours of non stop findom ??. This was my far the most expensive findom binge ?

Im telling ya, this shit is not known but it can get ad fiendish as fucking CRACK. 

God i Hope this really serves me A as wake Up call. Its part of the money of the herency mynfather left me...?‍♂️

Edited February 6, 2022 by Javfly33