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[Preety_India]

Random stuff. 

 

[Preety_India]

This is hilariously disgusting. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

Cue prompts. Sort sort sort sort. Time to sort the mess

Edited December 2, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

I'm exploring some YouTube content these days 

I don't know why people make such a big deal out of dislikes. 

I guess it was a good anti-troll move. 

 

[Preety_India]

Who cares at the end of the day? 

 

[Preety_India]

They are very pathetic and covert women. Thank goodness I'm not like that. I was born with a free spirit. 

 

[Preety_India]

I can't believe it's 3 am. 

I'm wide awake. 

Just thinking.. random things.... 

[Preety_India]

Why is the world so fucked up? 

 

 

 

Cue prompts. Sort sort sort sort. Time to sort the mess

Edited December 2, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

*mind goes blank again. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Now it's 6.25 am and I got a couple of observations to make. 

First I need to restore my sugar electrolyte balance big time 

That's causing me some cramps. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

*I always seem to struggle with meeting my goals.. 

*mind goes blank again 

 

 

 

Now I need to eat something. 

 

 

 

 

*I always seem to struggle with meeting my goals.. 

*mind goes blank again 

*Cue prompts. Sort sort sort sort. Time to sort the mess

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I got like 6 hours of sleep. 

Better than a week ago when I slept only for 4 hours. 

I am still struggling with sleep 

 

Today I feel a bit refreshed. So I can get some work done 

After a long time I feel some energy. 

 

[Preety_India]

I want to get back on my feet. Diet, exercise, feel normal again, feel healthy again. 

This is going to be a long arduous process because half the time im too exhausted and unable to do things. 

 

[Preety_India]

I wake up in the middle of the night many many times. This is definitely not good for my health but I'm trying as much as I can 

 

My nutrition levels are low. 

I need to get myself back up.... And running. 

 

 

 

 

Run Preety run

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

 

*I always seem to struggle with meeting my goals.. 

*mind goes blank again 

*Cue prompts. Sort sort sort sort. Time to sort the mess

[Preety_India]

What's the next thing I need to focus on?

• Exercise and hot steam 
• Drink tons of water 
• Focus on sleep issues and cramps
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[Preety_India]

I feel like the nightmares about my cat are so realistic 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I want to do deep emotional exploration. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Another cue prompt - I want to be more productive today. 

 

[Preety_India]

Taken from forum 

I notice that when I'm disorganized and I have a lot of uncompleted things rattling through my head that time seems to slip through my fingers like quicksand. When your attention becomes fractured and diluted by many things, the present moment disappears beneath you. It can become a vicious cycle where:

>you have x number of things to do and you're behind on everything

>you can't decide what to work on and in what order, so your efficiency and effectiveness drops

>you get even further behind and x number of things to do gets bigger

>the problem gets worse

 

If you start to get reaaaaaalllllllly far behind all of this can start affecting things like your self-esteem and your mental health which of course, only makes the problem even worse.

 

Something that can help is to simply get out a sheet of paper and a timer and write out a list of everything you either need to do, want to do, or have considered doing for 15 minutes. Once it's all out in front of you then you can start figuring out a plan of attack to knock things off in order of importance.

 

It helps to complete one thing at a time, starting with the smallest and easiest up to the most difficult, like you're paying off credit card debt or something. Once you're debt-free (mentally speaking) time feels fresh and the present moment feels alive again!

 

Unfortunately, the list of to-do's never goes away and as you get older you start getting more responsibilities. Life can start to feel like it's just one damn thing after another. So you need to develop a good system to get out ahead of things as much as possible, see what needs to be done, know how long you can expect things to take, expect the unexpected and give yourself time buffers for emergencies. Tricky to do especially if you are trying to create one from a place of overwhelm, but it can be done.

 

Also as you get older you become more subject to hedonic adaptation. You stop perceiving the world around you with as much wonder because, for the most part, you've seen it all before. If you pay attention to things though, you can find novelty and surprises every day. I think this is why the internet can become addictive before it starts to feel suffocating. If the world on your screen is where the most excitement comes from, the real world starts to feel bland in comparison. It's not true though. The smell of fresh-cut grass, pink clouds during a sunset, the smell of coffee in the morning, the feeling of a nice hot shower or freshly cleaned sheets before bedtime ... these things can't be replaced by dopaminergic hits and can be savoured forever.

 

If you try a vipassana retreat or similar time feels different.