"Self awareness" VS social anxiety

[Hugo Oliveira]

I have been experiencing some level of social anxiety for some time now. But at times even in intense social contexts, I notice the ability to "center/ground" my energy. In this state, I feel more authentic and confident. But it doesn't take long and I feel awkward and self-conscious again.
 

What actually causes this variation? And how can I stay for longer in this state of "presence"? I've been practicing meditation daily for a few years but I think maybe some more specific technique/mindset is suitable for this goal.
 

I know the term "self awareness" is too broad and can be confusing. But to understand how I wanted to use it, this short video explains it very well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HIhEMk7CZ-A

[Nahm]

35 minutes ago, Hugo Oliveira said:

I have been experiencing some level of social anxiety for some time now.

You’re feeling the discord of your interpretation, and the belief that the discord is caused by or related to someone else. 

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But at times even in intense social contexts, I notice the ability to "center/ground" my energy. In this state, I feel more authentic and confident. But it doesn't take long and I feel awkward and self-conscious again. 

What actually causes this variation? 

Your thoughts / interpretation, and the believing of it. 

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And how can I stay for longer in this state of "presence"?

Inspect the beliefs in levels & states, and specifically that you could be in them, refrain from projecting the cause of the discord felt onto others or situations & environments, and understand the emotions you are experiencing. 

[Terell Kirby]

Some tips:

1. Put yourself in uncomfortable social situations.
2. Practice being mindful of the anxiety. It is usually in the form of bodily sensations, but can also be in the form of obsessive thinking.
3. Gather feedback by introspecting on your experience of step #2. Ask high quality questions (what does anxiety feel like? what is its function? etc.).
4. Repeat.

Do this until your anxiety fades. Expect your mind to trick you from taking step #1.