MindSpace - FUCKED UP MIND OF A GENUIS

[Striving for more]

Does hypnosis really work? FUckk .. Maybe it does? WHahht?...

I been doing recently feeling like a "deluded fool" ... "How can something that requires no work produce beneficial results?, Life doesn't work like that, There has to be some action?" "I guess it is a form of action, just seems like such low tier lazy action, going on youtube, lying down & listenig to it, listening to it while making tea, such a passive thing". 

Then again there's way more dimensions to life than work, I suppose, beliefs & internal mechanisms are far more mysterious than "I don't believe in myself because I haven't put in 100 hours of input yet .. when I reach that point I will start believing" 

Anyway, waffling on & on now... where was I, wat the fuk was i tryna say? 

Oh yh, Hypnosis ... MIGHT ACTUALLY WORK!! 

Why, in the toilet I my mind wondered, & for once in my life, it wondered into positive visual scenarios/Sensation, without forcing or trying, it just imagined myself dressed in a certain way, getting looks from a specific type of attractive woman, in a specific place, carrying myself a certain way, the nature of such type of imaginations is what id imagine in my hypnosis. 

ALRIGHT. I'M GETTING BACK TO WORK RIGHT NOW. 

How Introverted am I Really? what lvl on the spectrum, 1-10, 10 being Jordan Belfort, 1 being Leo, I think I'm probably a 6, but I could easily be an 8 & so I'll have to work this one out, what my ideal balance is, how often I should be around others, maybe I'm a fluctuating Extrovert, like a crypto chart, 4 at times & then I shoot up to a 10 at phases, & this lasts for weeks or months, maybe that's best for me, maybe my idea of "balance" should be different to others. Maybe I like having extreme isolation weeks & then I sometimes spend a month straight socializing, partying non stop, fuck everyone else & fuck norms, I hope this is me in a way because being weird in my habits feels great, strokes my ego, being unique, not that I try to be unique, that's inauthentic, but I love it when it turns out i'm unique in x ways, funny how I used to feel insecure about that ... now it's like "YEAH BITCH I'M unique fuck yeah BET UR JEALOUS RUB UR FUCKING VANILLA POTATO HEAD ON MY LEFT TESTICAL BITCH.

 

My PC is too slow, FUCK OFF, INFRASTRUCUTRE FOR SUCCESS MMM SO IMPORTANT MAN. 

 

(Perhaps separate post)  :

I've realized I have a strong desire for practical, iterative learning. 

• This is fulfilling an unmet need that I failed to recieve due to poor education & indifferent parents, whom themselves were & still are terribly & pathetically impractical. 
• Being "Impractical" profoundly limits you in multiple life domains & situations. 
• Each Instance of "Impracticality" may be insignificant, but when you tally them all up, you end up with a messy, mediocre life. 
• Plus, sometimes one specific instance of impracticality alone can profoundly hold you back. 
• Example : As a kid & even into 20's I could barely use emails, I couldn't send, reply, forward , flag, unsubscribe an email, that merged with intense insecurities that "I just don't get tech" & a goldfish attention span, meant I would would be cursed for years with a polluted, dysfunctional email system, like the ocean. 
• Important meetings & oppurtunities got lost in a cloud of irrelevance. 
• I even didn't reply to my grandmother after multiple email attempts from her, by the time I found them, she was already dead. 

Thankfully I'm fine with emails by now, I'm past that. But what other examples are there? 

*Notice how this topic is Modular > Thus u should batch each Practical topic & focus on one thing at once until it becomes second nature.  

Next we could focus on Room Design :

Lets break that down further > Room Design > Lighting, Painting, Wallpapers, Flooring, Door/walls as visual aid/productivity extention, Physical file management > (Folder zing, books, receipts, letters, Junk file, Misc file ect..)

U can see there's a lot to cover, in the past I'd get so perfectionist but time is finite, so lets not try  & cover all of these, just focus on 1 that has the largest impact on your life ... or that u'd think would be most practical/interesting to learn & master. 

Let's dive into Painting & wallpapers & merge these : 

Questions to ask: 

• Which colours are best for productivity? 
• Which are best for Creativity 
• Which are best for Seduction & Departing the logical mind? (Taking a girl home)
• Now we'll find answers > go get the colors sorted or if u don't have time, save it on ur commonplace journal > that topic sorted for life. 

 

* I really like the seduction question : here we can dive into : 

• Lighting, painting, colours 
• Smells - fragrances, perfume, incense ect... 
• Sound > Music, speakers, genres, Major vs Minor keys, Volume levels 
• Atmospheric Masculine feminine balance 

AND ... NOW I'M BORED OF THIS TOPIC AND ...

 

BILL GATES IS NOT A HIGH VALUE MAN. 

• BILLY GATES IS VERY UNCHARASMATIC, IMAGINE HIM DOING PICKUP? LOOOL. 
• I THANK THE FUCK OUT OF GOD I HAVE THE CAPACITY TO DEVELOP SOCIAL INTELLIGENCE & CHARISMA, ID MUCH RATHER NOT BE BILL GATES, THAT ANTI SOCIAL WEIRDO IN THE WOODS.
• HIS WIFE LOOKS LIKE A FUCKING HORSE & A RAT HAD A BABY, BILLIONAIRE & HE DATES THAT THING? Cmonnn. "He likes her for her intellect man".
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I CHOSE TO BE LEO DICAPRIO > EXCEPT BETTER. FAR BETTER. 

A RIPPED, MULTI TALENTED VERSION OF HIM (Minus the acting skills).

OKKK EGO OUT OF HAND NOW, HAHAHAH. 

 

Cherrypick  the good, leave the bad & stop fucking judging everyone. 

80% of leo's videos are utterly useless to me, & always will be. 

The 5-20% that are useful, are fucking life changing. 

Unfortunately, I watched several leo vids thinking they'd help, but they were useless, now I have more wisdom to be picky. 

95% of his blog posts are just garbage to me. 

5% is utterly brilliant. 

Tai lopez is mostly trash to me, an narrow minded idealogue who idealises warren gates & Bill buffet, 2 of the least charasmatic men on the planet. 

His marketing techniques tho, utterly genuis. 

Cherrypick  the good, leave the bad & stop fucking judging everyone. 

 

LIFESTYLE MATHEMATICS. OH YEAH. FUCK TON OF JUICE THERE, NEWTONS LAWS, MARTIAL ARTS, CAR COLLIONS & MICROEXPRESSIONS. 

Ah nah that can go another time bored. 

 

HERE IS WHAT I ...Alright I'll leave the caps out this time huhuha. It's like the old shouting man finally gets tired of his own anger & gives in. 

Anyway. This is the most productive thing I came up with on my worst procrastination day yesterday.

 

 

Edited November 26, 2021 by Striving for more

[Striving for more]

HOW HAS THIS ONLY GOT 5 VIEWS HUH? THIS IS PURE GENUIS LOOK AT HTIS SHIT. 

THE GUY ON THE LEFT IS HOW I FEEL WHEN GIVE IN TO WEAK BS. 

THE GUY ON THE RIGHT IS HOW I FEEL WHEN I DO SHIT. 

EVEN IF I HAVE SOME BAD HABITS, AS LONG AS I DONT FUCKING PROCRASTINATE & OVERCOME FEAR & SHIT, EVEN IF I SMOKE OR DRINK A BIT, AT LEAST THEN I STILL KINDA FEEL LIKE THE DARK KNIGHT SIGMA, ALPHA, NEOCORTEX FUCKING KING OF ZUES FUCKING WARRIOR, MOST CHARISMATIC CHARMING TAILORED TUXEDO PULL UP IN THE FUKIN LUMBO AURUS, SMELLING LIKE ROSES, VERTICALLY SLIDING DOORS, MUSIC BLASTING INTO THE SILENCE AS I STEP OUT IN FRONT OF THE GRAND CANYON & THAT BEAUTIFUL FUCKING DARK MYSTERIOUS EYED FEMININE FUCKING WOMEN STARES DEEP INTO MY EYES, I WALK BY & I TELL HER, IT'S OK, IT'S OK, I GOT U.

I CAN FEEL THE REAL ME, IT'S TIME TO LEAVE THE PARTS I DON'T BEHIND, TIME TO DISINTEGRATE, BUT LEO SAID U GOTTA INTEGRATE? NO STOP THINKING, SHUT THE FUCK UP, STOP BEING HYPER LOGICAL, GET BACK INTO FEELINGS. 

U SEE FEELINGS AREN'T IRRATIONAL TO ME, I TRY & FORCE BEING FEELING GUY, WE HAVE TO AS GUYS, IT'S OUR WEAKNESS, BUT IN OUR WEAKNESS, LIES HIDDEN, OUR GREATEST STRENGTH. BY CUTTING OUT UR EMOTIONAL SIDE, THAT DOESN'T MAKE U MORE OF A MAN, U CUT OUT COURAGE, U CUT OUT INTUITION, U CUT OUT THE FIGHTING SPIRIT, U CUT OUT THE CHARGE THAT MAKES A DREAM. NO. 

THERE'S STILL SOME TIME, SOME TIME TO BECOME THE MAN I WANNA BE, THERES BEEN SOME BACKSLIDING LATELY, BUT I HAVE TO FEEL IN TO MY DREAMS, COS LOGIC ISN'T FUCKING WORKING, I KNOW ALL THE HACKS RIGH NOW, THE PROCRASTINATION METHODS & THE TECH HACKS & BLOCKING SITES & THE NOOTROPICS & BLAH BLAH BLAH IT DOESN'T WORK, THOSE THINGS ARE TURBOS, BUT U BREAK THE ENGINE, & THE ENGINE PURE HEART. 

And this is why I decided to start subconscious. I have to get deep into that sneaky little fucking demon. I don't even want the doubts to appear anymore, I can't let them. i have belief 100 1000% fucking percent that my life is gonna be incredible from a young fucking age because i'm a fucking perfectionist & i do not chose to deny that part of me, I dont need perfection, but I need an amazing life, everything needs to be hardcore, I need hardcore nootropics, I need a hardcore dick. I need a hardcore brain. I need to be trans human, I'm a 1000 years into the future. Fuck it. Ima keep embracing arrgoance, because at least then, doubt is impossible. 

Edited November 26, 2021 by Striving for more

[Striving for more]

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAMUMUHHAHUAHUAHUAHA. 

I JUST HAD THE FUNNIEST INSIGHT. 

The amount of views each journal gets is proportional to the level of narcissism of the all the people who hang here. 

Because if you're a true narcistist you wouldn't even dare read anyone elses journal. 

HAHAHAHAHHAHAMUUHAHAUAHUH